Author: Candid Corvid Productions
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Yeah…’Cause She’s Done
Stripped Synapses
It makes me very angry to be
Forced into taking medications
Because I no longer have buffers
(Black Out Days – Phantogram)
MAXED OUT
“How the heck – and why the heck would I even dare to dream about having a healthy relationship when everything around me is noise, pain, and chaos – and not one partner-zoned man has pulled weight in a relationship with me?!!!”
I Can’t Rest
“There is almost always a noise bashing, scraping, stomping, crashing…
How do I recover?
How do I not scream – insane?”
Then, She Realized
She used to stay longer and read in the bathroom
When under pressure from being undermined
Why Am I Here?
She was sitting in the bathroom
Just eating a crispy rice treat
Because her head hurt
By Design
She could only mean as much to him
As he would allow her to mean to him
Realizing this barrier made her
Want to scream Hell at Heaven
—
(Title of multiple references)
(Till I Find You Again – Kasemchart Am)
Dating Straight Men
Time’s Rust
Although she could see the problem, felt his need, and would give everything most gladly – he was going to have to be the one to bridge for them.
The lock must be unlocked for the game’s rewards to begin.
(Granite – Sleep Token)
Fragmenting
“But I Am…”
Terms
Uneasily, she turned away to hide her feelings as he began to approach her.
She didn’t like how people played games and inflicted the wrong kind of hurt.
The Strain
I can’t hold this on my own, anymore
I never have wanted & don’t want to
Just Stop
Do not tell me what
I should need or think
When you clearly do not
Know what is good for me
Caught Up In A Frenzy
She grabbed both sides of the front of his shirt, pressing against the heat of his chest with her forearms and hands clenched – rocking him slightly as his dense weight barely swayed from her subtle yet emphatic grappling.
“What are you to me?” she demanded fiercely, but quietly. “What can you – what are you willing to be?!”
Migraines
“Bring your demons to the fore.”
Signs & Signals
So used to masking that
I don’t show what I need
Behind The Scenes
“More feral, than lady-like…”
I Never Said…
“Love is always easy.”
MRI’s
“Over and over and over again…”
I Said..
Alone
We tell ourselves that
It’s better this way
Otherwise we
Wouldn’t survive
(Lost You – Vibfy)
She Passed
Her own tests.
(Money Can’t Buy It – Annie Lennox)
Instinct
She was very good at sensing traps…
Fat lot of good it did her lying there
(Underground – David Bowie, Movie Labyrinth)
Buried Within
He wanted her to call him a coward
He wanted her to lash out with rage
It was the pattern he recognized
But she would hold it close inside
No…
He couldn’t have her heat
Unless it was reciprocated
(As The World Falls Down – David Bowie, Movie Labyrinth)
Out Of Fuel
And she suddenly fell down hard onto the ground, landing in a jarring roll to a stop that splooshed-up puddles and clumps of moist, matted leaves that landed scattered unceremoniously around her now still body.
Conservation Of Energy
“I am too fu**ing tired to sob…”
(Lament – Ultravox)
Sputtering Out
I am too burnt out to
Carry this on my own
Congratulations
To the naysayers
(Mic drop)
Two Extremes
Somewhere between not ready enough
And exhausted patience resides balance
Movie Pick To See: Byzantium
Groove It ‘Til You Lose It
(And We Knew It Was Our Time – Lane 8 & Massane)
My Will
“Feels ill.”
They Say That
If a chance comes but then leaves
It wasn’t really yours to begin with
Entertainment
One by one
They lined up
Enjoying watching how
She danced for them
Their presence
Pretending interest
But not one actually
Investing in her
(I/Y – Lane 8 & Yotto)
(Distraction – Sleep Token, Visualizer)
I’ve Got
“Nothin’ to prove.”
(Content of multiple meanings)
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