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Altered States, The Accident - As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named "Clyde" (Short For Collide) Because It's Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense, The Shower Accident 11/14/25

Unreal Messages

Candid Corvid Productions

“‘You don’t have to be strong all of the time…’

Oh, yeah?

Where’s my help?

All of the dishes get dirty by others after I’ve washed them – already hurting myself;

I’m doing cross-country terrain navigating regarding just my house even – through, around, and over hurdles with torn hips and ligaments screaming upon lifting and landing;

And no matter the efforts I put into anything, if I don’t keep up momentum, everything immediately spirals or crashes into diminished returns.

I am on my own, here – literally, IT’S ALL UP TO ME.

So kiss my a** – why don’t-cha?

Or step up and help me move this ever-sinling/capsixing ship of my life thing!”

A Woman's Plight

“Home Again, Home Again – Ouch!”

Candid Corvid Productions

“My things are scattered now between car and home.

Went straight from the trip back into crisis and work.

The dishes are piled higher, still dirty, with more dust on furniture and grime on floors.

Monday saw agency denial and Tuesday pending eviction’s next step throws.

But my new training is beginning to find ways to integrate and show up on its own.

And I have learned more about my capacities for loving beyond boundaries – yet my integrity ever struggles to remain at the fore.”

—

(Title movie Bladerunner reference)

Altered States

Missing Charger

Candid Corvid Productions

“I packed it.

I know I packed it.

But I couldn’t find it.

And still cannot find it.

How can I not find and see something so garishly and haphazardly taped, unhelpfully stiff, and ever awkwardly priorly being dragged everywhere with me?

Granted, it has now become an electrical fire hazard waiting to happen – which is ironic that I have completely covered it in the color of bright red, yet ignore the obvious warning.

The question begs to replace it.

But I can’t afford to spend money on this.

So I’m jumping between laptop and car slow charger cords – and basically getting tangled up in slipping functioning.

Phone now low at 16 and rapidly decreasing percent.

Correction: just got the 15% battery is about to die warning.”

A Woman's Plight

What I Want

Candid Corvid Productions

“The question has come up generally, so I will answer it plainly – keeping in mind to let it be noted that there are many other things and aspects that I also desire to have included and added throughout time.

But to bare, basic desired necessities building the bedrock of good partnership in relationship with me:

1. Amazing, deeply intimate and evolving, groundbreakingly-hot sexual mutual feedings.

Yes, I said it.

There are integral reasons for this – not the least of which includes providing a forum for creating deep trust and soul bonding through developing a shared love language.

2. Absolute, unwavering commitment to each other and the relationship first and foremost, yet also taking into consideration other life aspects.

3. The creation and maintenance of an excellent, adjusting-to-needs system of productively and positively reinforcing communication.

4. Monogomous fidelity.

5. Shared vision.

More to be added, yet these are core essentials whereupon a blueprint for enduring success becomes a guide.”

Altered States, Myths & Legends, Society

Eye PigMentation

Candid Corvid Productions

There was a time when the
Color of eyes defined origins

Blue was of ocean and sky
Brown was of earthen tribes
And green were forest people

We weren’t supposed to interbreed because
Our cultures experienced life so differently

But love has ways of bridging hearts
So that colors can mix into rainbows

And deception’s jealously lacks in-sight
Therefore plucks by breaking windows

(Multiple meanungs)

Where Demons Tread

My Love,

Candid Corvid Productions

There is no right move that I can make any more.

Why would you want this?

Look what has happened to me from lack of our open bridging.

And if you thought and needed to expect me to be brave – I can no longer act on these pretenses.

Not when any move on my part could now be a wrong one.

The situation’s aspects have effectively hog-tied me.

The only way to preserve my sanctity and true care for you in this position is to avoid everything.

I think it likely that my predicament was caused inadvertently.

But I am reliant upon you to correct and fix this canting skew now brewing between us.

A Woman's Plight, Altered States, Male Bonding

Imprint’s Admission

Candid Corvid Productions

He’d made a mistake in keeping her guessing.

Whatever original intentions, his anonymity was allowing others to infiltrate and attempt to manipulate.

This had caused her to attach to one possibly incorrectly – and then, later to another, causing internal dichotomy.

Due to her adherence to faith and loyalty in love, this put her now on the edge of duplicity.

How had she been man-euvered into this position?

Inside, she screamed at the pain as she felt torn apart from within.

Why?

Why was she put into this position?

She struggled to rip her heart out of these embedments so that she could feel honest and free again.

What she wished most was to live honestly, to give purely, and to not contribute to deception’s sins.

Especially when it came to the heart that she had most wished to champion.

So she withdrew again, less able to trust than before – which compressed passions.