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A Woman's Plight, Altered States

I Saw “Signs”

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“Yesterday, the sun and clouds blazed brilliant – as if sendings from God and/or the universe.

I have not posted photos, yet, because the visual impacts on my mind are a lot to unpack.

And I don’t understand why I see such things – as if granted a peak behind the veil, or a definite message to keep me going – but then my life returns to gray survival mundane modes.

What do I do with – what happens to that energy?

Does it restart my soul’s vibrations so that even when the mortality of me despairs, my soul somewhere, somehow ‘knows’ greater things are unfolding and gains renewed purpose, so I will keep going?

Because I can say that right now, the mortality in me is very much too tired and 8 with these patterns of struggling.”

A Woman's Plight, Where Demons Tread

Dear Friend,

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“So this issue regarding the marriage conundrum is still a thing…

There seems no way to escape that door shutting after a couple marries and they are ‘shoved close into the room of their lives’ together.

From what I can surmise, the only way their relationship will have a chance to survive and grow is if they unpack everything right then and there – truthfully and honestly while identifying strengths, weaknesses, goals, dreams, desires, where they are vulnerable to outside and internal influences and strategizing and committing to be a team dedicated to each other’s mutual flourishing.

But most people don’t know this about marriage needing to have a blueprint or survival kit – and then suddenly the ghosts and ghoulies from inside and externally decide to come visiting.

Pressures, ‘babes’ – they get squeezed, pulled, crushed & compressed, and then project negatively onto each other for it.

I’m just speaking of the casualties – the ones who don’t make it.

I don’t know how those who make it get through this stage – except to say that it would seem to be an essential part of due diligence to at least discuss these things prior to marriage for ensuring that the couple at least starts off on a same page that they could return to and refashion for reconnection and rebonding with each other.

And, I can say that having already tried longterm relationships without marriage, something vital in commitment was always very much lacking.

What do you think about these concepts, what has been your experience, and what do you think could work well to ensure evolving success in partnership?

A Woman's Plight, Where Demons Tread

Dear Friend,

Candid Corvid Productions

“I’m not ok.

I’ve been literally set back.

I am needing to dissociate.

I couldn’t remain exposed and overextended.

The reality is that I am alone inside here.

And who and what I am is withdrawing due to the injury.

I mean, getting smacked by the universe turning and dumping me onto my head is just purely unnecessary.

I am in shock and not progressing on things even to prior limited capacities.

I am upset somewhere – very upset.

And lost in the undertow of things.

And you are not here, so what is real?

I reach out and just find me.

I need more than this to keep bridging.”