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A Woman's Plight, Altered States, The Accident - As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named "Clyde" (Short For Collide) Because It's Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense

Migraine Madness

I think I must shut down this entire need
This cycle of longing driving into frenzy

It is the situation – the abandonment cycle
Had I known, I would not have fallen into it

But I thought that it was an open invitation
That it was genuine honesty – for once given

Not another bait / switch retract scenario
Designed to send me into another tailspin

A Woman's Plight, Altered States, Male Bonding

Blanched

“Of course I recoiled when I saw you.

You can’t just walk into my scene and expect me to be able to control myself without any warning when I am already fraying at the seams!

Are you here to help me, or just to tease and torment by your leaving?

You make me want to get my hands on you and show you some things about manners!

Then, you wouldn’t be leaving…”

(Title & content of multiple meanings)

A Woman's Plight, In Dreams, Male Bonding

Holding Space

She always retracted when he came into a room.

He thought that meant she didn’t like him.

But it was because she was so attracted.

It was complicated.

She didn’t want to harm or alter him or his course in any way.

She respected and yet needed him too much.

She would require him to include her in everything.

She couldn’t hold her love back with any measure of balance – and feared its affect upon him.

(Title of multiple meanings)

Made Of Stars

Spiritual Cleansing

In the dream, I was a different person whose adult daughter had saved everyone by jumping into the ocean and bringing a huge wooden sailing ship back to shore.

The ship had become lodged against government waste dumped into the ocean, and therefore, my daughter was exposed to high levels of radiation in the process.

The next day in overcast weather, I happened upon a spiritual dowser who helped me find my daughter on a path at the bottom of two sea cliffs set close together that formed a channel leading into underground cave chambers.

She was speaking with outliers of society who lived there and were benefitting by her knowledge gained about the ship’s structure.

When my daughter saw me, she came to great me triumphantly  – but then stopped abruptly to keep me safe from the toxic radiation that I could feel crackling as it emitted in waves outward from her body.

However, I stepped right up to her and gave her a long hug, willing transfer of energy between our bodies to help dislodge the radiation in hers.

As our molecules exchanged charges, mine brought her energy through my body for cleansing in a return-looping conduction, and I silently asked the universe to release the toxins back into the air to dissipate harmlessly.

I do not know if I was rendured sterile as usual a consequence of radiation exposure because the laws of physics altered through my healer’s conjured absolution.

However, my daughter was then able to return to society due to regaining her body’s neutrality, and I did not either seem to have retained any negative energetic byproducts.

A Woman's Plight, Altered States, The Accident - As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named "Clyde" (Short For Collide) Because It's Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense

Quadly Quads

“It doesn’t help that my quads in addition to taking force straight through them of a speeding heavy car, they also froze and still adhere to thigh bones and tissues around them.

It is taking so very long in trying to get them to reactivate and differentiate again – which lacking this pulls even more on hip joint attachments.”