She wanted to take his arms, wrists, and neck and claim them with kisses and nips, among other things.
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Dear Friend,
“How do we begin?
How do we gently stumble through our initial awkwardness to get to the meat – the juicy grist of everything?
How do we build our connection so that we no longer fear anything?”
Well-Matched
For they were both so ameanable that no stone need be left unturned, and all could be understood – and forgiven.
—
(Title of multiple meanings)
Haven’s Trust
They had much to unpack, together.
Work Me
System resetting
Lacking ability to
Escape inevitable
Pleasure bursting
Tolerance limits
Between Extremes
Too hot
Too cold
Burrowing
Well, We Should
“We take for granted the miracle of natural structural integrity.”
—
(Title of multiple neanings)
“Aria” (song)
A form of bliss
To Be Funny
She asked him to walk a few paces away and then come back again, whereupon she cheekily sighed and stated, “You’ll do.”
And then, he grabbed her with a warning, possessive growl to their mutual laughter.
Hidden Desires
But she wanted was to hold him in her arms and give him everything.
Which Way Is Up?
Her experience had led her to be afraid that if she gave all of her love to a man, he would leave her – instead of desire and cherish her.
Dreaming Of You
She dreamed that she met him – but then, it wasn’t him, so the bonding went no further.
But the thrill of the simulation made her hope more than she’d been able to, before.
After The Show
It’s important to reacclimate to “norms.”
She Should Have
Shouted after him, calling out loudly:
“HEY! Where are you going?!”
Anything, anything but remaining frozen solid stiff from shock and emotion.
Transfixed
His lover’s eyes
Heavy-lidded in
Shy submission
& That knowing
Smile to swoon
A million hearts
Broke her in
A moment
Enraptured
There’s A Place
“Where only the foolish dare to not tread carefully.”
(Stir Me Up – Lane 8)
(Language Is A Virus – Laurie Anderson)
I saw her live in a cozy theatre in Santa Cruz around 15 years ago. Superb.
It Plagued Her
Why had he not spoken to her?
(Shadow Dancing – Andy Gibb)
Gifted
Emotionally
&
Intelligently
(Running In The Night – FM 84)
Challenge Accepted
“Why’d you choose me out of everybody else?” she asked him, curiously.
“Because I calculated the algorythm – and you fit it to a ‘T,'” he reassured her.
“Is that right?” she challenged, playfully.
“Oh, Baby,” he moved in closer to take her hands and look sraight into her eyes, “You have no idea how ‘right’ it’s gonna be.”
Sa-Weet! (Rain – Sleep Token, Oakland 2025)
(Straight Line – Keith Urban)
“Look At That!”
The Little Pieces
“Even Now”
Curmudgeonly
“I saw the movie ‘Barbie’ right before my accident – and had cried, hoping that I’d get my chance to feel young and alive again.”
“Welcome In”
Eyes Of The Beholder
(Level Up – Ciara)
Ok, Starbucks Won
“The one ad that I could not skip past:
‘You know you want this yummy.
Level up.
Level up – Level up -Level up!’
In my mind, I am so THERE!”
—
(Jonesing because I haven’t had the money for my ‘medication.’)
A Beautiful Violence
“Now there goes a man of beauty and grace in commitment.”
Wrath
“And no amount of love will keep it around
If we don’t choose it
And I don’t know what’s got its teeth in me
But I’m about to bite back in anger
No amount of self-sought fury
Will bring back the glory of innocence”
—-
(Sleep Token lyrics from “Take Me Back To Eden”)
(Take Me Back To Eden – Sleep Token)
(This Is The Picture [Excellent Birds] – Peter Gabriel)
Back To Work
“Well, all of this has certainly sucked – and I am pretty much back to fending for myself again, despite injuries.
Yeah, I need to file for disability – because there is no way that I can attain previous numbers, again.
And yeah, the physicality of the therapies tears me apart, but that is why I’ve entered into modality retraining.
But I have to get through another year before I have things shifted onto a new track, and any help from society is waning.
At least, my neck having surgery is not a viable option, because at this point, it wouldn’t help anything.
My hips, however – they won’t consider surgery due to my age.
So I am just sh** out of luck – literally, no matter which way I turn.
At least I can try to regenerate some cash flow, again.
And let’s not even discuss my shoulders or spine…”
Yeah…
“It is kind of brutally funny, this living amid personal tragedy.”
Suspended Animation
Although she seemed to have little control over the direction that her ship was hurtling, she could play with the gravity adjustments and attempt to reduce her discomfort.”
Numbers Lie
“Although I still enjoy noting their patterns, the messages since AI has leaked into everything all have the same flavor and just reinforce sense of ‘duty’s’ isolation.
Fu** That.”
Avoidance
“No, I’m not going to chase him.
And no, I’m not going to listen to those other artists and compare myself to them.
I cannot keep being crushed into a speck of my very existence.”
Time To Hit It
“Get up, get some caffeine, and get physically busy.”
—
(Title of multiple meanings)
You Know, I’d Think
“That writing would calm and relax my mind and spirit.
But I don’t feel recovered or restored.
I’m just riding some jagged edge that tears and will not let go.”
(Lose Control – Teddy Sims)
Sunshine’s Disposition
Even the brightest spark will dim in cold weather.
OverCast
She didn’t need to worry so much about how she was looking
The odds seemed pretty high that he wouldn’t come calling.
—
(Title of multiple meanings)
“Athena’s Crazy Mac-N-Cheese”
By Athena Stairs, October 19, 2025
“‘Crazy’ because it contains vegies – and happy, coma-inducing, varietal amounts of cheese.
Note: You can always reduce the amount of alfredo to reduce moisture, and every alfredo is different.
I currently use the brand from Trader Joe’s, and have created this recipe recently to feed my body’s starving craving for fat, lately – which is probably due to the myelin sheath reparation that I am still needing from the accident.
I also use rice noodles from Tinkyada – broken up spaghetti being my favorite – but spirals and traditional mac shapes work quite nicely.
(Disclaimer: We can debate types of best fat needed for myelin repair and healing some other time – and only try this if it fits within your health and dietary parameters.)
Here we go:
Any kind of noodles boiled with a sprinkle if salt and a dash of oil to desired consistency.
Rinse with cold water briefly and drain.
While noodles are still hot, return them to the drained noodle boiling pan and stir in butter and parmesan, sliced sharp cheddar cheese, and zucchini and/or spinach that’s been cooked in minced garlic and seasonings, and then add a jar of alfredo sauce.
Sample to taste – because I can’t wait – and then pour into a baking pan with a lid or cover with tinfoil for a while at 350 degrees.
Note: I sometimes turn the oven up to 425 degrees to cook for 10 minutes to get everything up to temperature fast because I’m impatient – and then, I turn it down again :D.
‘You do you.’
Note: Be sure to place a baking sheet covered with tin foil underneath the pan to catch prospective overflow of baking juices at the beginning of baking.
20-30 minutes bake time is a good start, though more is fine to desired consistency – just avoid burning.
When done (noted by the mac’s rapidly boiling bubbles throughout its entirety and the mixture thickening), take it out of the oven (turn off the oven) and let the pan sit on the stove or on a cooling rack on a counter or table (out of reach of animals and children’s inquisitive fingers) for 15 minutes either still lidded, or with the tin foil shifted to being tented over the top of the mac before serving.
Note: You can also have previously added on more cheese over the top and have removed the lid or foil covering for baking the last several minutes until the top turns a golden brown before removing from oven.
You could even have added crush wheat or gluten-free Ritz(TM)-type crackers or seasoned bread crumbs over the top layer with more parmesan before baking.
And if you’ve added cooked ground beef into the recipe, you now have a complete meal casserole!
ET VOILA!
YUM.
OM-NOM-NOM – and prepare to feel sleepy, if you are like me about loving cheese.
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A Good Feed
“I managed to make my first broiled steak, yesterday – which came out a bit medium.
Oh!
The best parts were where there was some fat grilled into juices that left the meat tender and tasty!
Sorry, folks – but I have to have red meat.
If I don’t, I begin to feel sickly.
Other meats, which I can eat, do not replenish what my blood needs.”
Baring Teeth
She didn’t think tbey had it in them to take as good care of him – which did not include her being a pushover.
