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Alone, Again
What good if gods love some one
When they don’t show their face?
What warmth soaks into bones
Without connection’s embrace?
When Encountering Illusions
It is often best to follow one’s instincts.
(Lost In The Woods – Elderbrook & Adriatic)
Thai Coconut Pancakes
“Pretty good warmed up (do not eat cold – ew!), but waiting now to see how system digests them.
Trader Joe’s had them in their frozen desert section.”
(Like That – Doja Cat Ft. Gucci Mane)
(Have You Considered – Pattie Gonia, Imogen Heap and BANDALOOP)
“Mutual Attraction”
“Vibes”
(Send the Pain Below – Chevelle)
Sauna
She had searched for some place to go and get a good bone bake, but every place around was too expensive.
Love’s Restraint
No…
She would not disrupt the collective to get what she personally needed.
Social Bigomy
“‘I have this person, but I want you, too.
Don’t you feel excited, flattered, and important?'”
(How Sweet It Is [To Be Loved By You]· James Taylor)
My Love,
Sometimes, I delay my speaking to ensure your safe passage.
Lashback
“Hm…
Even my arms are turning purple, today.
Penitence for having fun, ‘for once.'”
(Even In Arcadia – Sleep Token)
Ooow-oo
Getting up and trying to stand – let alone, walk.
Momentum’s Weight
“Nooo – I liked that pillow!”
(Accidently hurling it over and off of the side of the bed and onto the floor as turning to rise and get ready for the day)
(Highway Tune – Greta Van Fleet)
Come, Now
My Mind Goes, “La La Laaa”
Ok, Fine
“My cankles hurt.
There.
I said it…
Happy?”
Piffled
Snarky Laughter
“And to think, I had once briefly considered reading that (clearly for me) b.s. book about ’embracing the crone inside of us.’
No…
‘She,’ too, can go fu** herself – and get her nappy, swollen gums the hell off from sucking on my vital bone marrow!”
Webs Of Deception
Somewhere behind the scenes, my youth is being slowly throttled
Someone give me a blade so that I can cut the bitch-crone’s throat
Dignity
“Fu** you – right back at you.”
(To the non-believers who interfere with tenants that they should be upholding and protecting)
Royalty
A queen does not need subjects who poison the Kingdom’s wells.
Jaded
The strength that it took to manage her heartache was causing her to have to cauterize the wound for self preservation, thereby creating dissociation from any further attachment – much to the toxic satisfaction of those involved with alterior motives.
(Fu**ing parasites)
(Treat Me Right – Pat Benatar)
A Gentle
Admonishment
Without Compromise
Love doesn’t disguise – it reveals, it shines
It doesn’t waste time at another’s expense
(Say You Will – Foreigner)
(Girl on the Moon – Foreigner)
The Easy Way Out
Starving a love’s connection is an easier out for men than saying goodbye, which I guess is why they often choose to do this.
There is no real invested accountability, and they protect their selves by retaining power – yet keep soaking up the would be partner’s heartfelt energy until it becomes drained from lack of mutual nourishing.
Turning To Stone
And we all know what happens when too much of that happens.
Cut Off From Source
Distance makes the heart grow tired, feeling undesired and irrelevant.
Well Yeah,
She had cried on the drive back…
Briefly Purple
When she got up early the next morning to use the bathroom, she looked down and noted that her ankles and feet were turning purple.
She shouldn’t be surprised, though, due to how much she had danced through swelling – and she had felt proud to be at least briefly well coordinated.
Searching For A Friend
Maybe it was him, but
Lacking confirmation
She left alone again
Enchanted Evening
From across the dance floor, their eyes kept meeting.
He had a beautiful smile, and his gaze was sweetly endearing.
(Title of multiple meanings)
Lonesome Dove
Waking from a stressed dream too hot for comfort, she dismounted that one, cooled off for a moment, and then climbed on to ride another.
(Title of multiple meanings)
DJ Blues
Early in, she became frustrated with the DJ’s modality because as soon as he finally got into a good beat, he’d snatch it away again with minor interlude transitional meandering.
Once she figured out the pattern and had several songs yanked out from under her, she decided that it was time to stop pushing her injuries beyond their tolerances in her rare persuit of having some dancing fun.
The Sending
“On my way to my workout today, out of nowhere came a brown leaf from my right – angled and arcing as if deliberately sent to crash into my car to get my attention – like when the snowflake arrived in the movie, ‘I Am Dragon,’ right before the bride-to-be’s dragon arrived.
Very soon after this, a bird dove sharply from the low left, causing me to slow suddenly.
A promise, and a warning of caution that ‘things are not as they seem.'”
Regarding Weight Gain
“I’m not sure how to address it, because it is due to parasympathetic system disruptions resulting in lymphatic swelling.”
I Wondered
“When I would be here, again.”
Secrecy
“A cloak which protects that which is fragile.”
Illusinations
“Funny how things like to dissuade dreams from becoming reality.”
Wind Walkers
“I’m pretty good at dissolving into the air.
I don’t even try – and the streets clear around me.
Maybe I have some latent ability.
Or maybe when I’m just so still inside, everything around me expands and quiets.”
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