Expansion

Finding My Bearings

Still injured, I cannot just throw myself back into jobs that I could have taken on before the car accudent and just pushed through by sheer determination’s efforts.

Returning to offering healing therapies requires that I differently pace myself and offer services more strategically.

Being that I had to let go of my previous therapy client base while I figured out the scope and needs of my recovery plan, I now must identify new niches that I can serve sustainably.

And, from this last year’s experience with learning about my TBI, I know now that I can only tend to and progress on a few points of focus at any given time.

Which means that although I want to pursue more skills and certifications, I must choose my current short-term goals wisely.

Do I want to deepen and expand upon skills that I need to independently grow and flex in my own personal creativity’s expression?

(YES – Please God – YES!!!)

Or, do I shelf personal needs again to obtain more certifications to generate potential for additional income-making opportunities?

An issue is that “I’m dying here.”

My soul is starved and depleted from all of this life circumstantial hardship navigating.

In essence, do I take a kind of personal break while rebuilding my therapy business?

If I focus on nourishing my creativity while helping others, maybe I could restore my natural impetus’ energy.

And then, I might be on more solid footing to pursue further certifications?

Why is it so hard to allow myself to just take this time and invest in supporting my own needs, as well as the needs of others?

Expansion

The “Right” Track

Classes are about to begin, and I want to learn more about making electronic music and video editing.

The trouble is that when I am enrolled in classes, their timelines and rigid focus pull me hard away from flexibility to pursue where my instincts are guiding, as well as my time is sequestered away from further developing my own projects.

On one hand, it is difficult to focus while again on the verge of prospectively loosing housing and I am working on rebuilding my therapy business.

On the other hand, if I do not sign up, will I find comparable and more flexible course content on the internet?

Or will I be missing the chance to access comprehensive and much needed, timely guidance?

Should I just focus on Ableton and finish the one interview post production project still leftover from summer?

Yet, I have new song concepts requiring more assembly knowledge that I need to discover.

Expansion

Great Achievements

It was easy to look around at other people
And marvel at how they had accomplished

The standard rote progression in careers
That led to their current succesful status

And to self disparage with chastisement
When comparing one’s innovative debris

Left in piles still needing categoric cleanup
After rockets have escaped gravy’s gripping

Callibrating propulsion to greater distances
Where most aim for thevmoon’s reliability.