Category: Psychology

“If we keep getting terrorized and beaten upon to give up our sense of rightness, then as the waves pull us farther out to see, what belongs to us by birth must become the prize to reachieve.”

“Being a wave runner requires an understanding of the waves for their own potent and potential energy’s inclinations.

If you fight their force – as when in panic we are often wont to do – they will suck you down or throw you high up to crash into other waves or material obstacles and get tumbled around.

It’s a difficult lesson for the ego to learn to let go of desired control and get a sense of the energy’s surging and pulsing around you.

But if you can flow with waves well long enough, you can catch the perfect path suddenly revealing that shoots you past danger and gives you the ride of your life!”

Never stand in the way of a man’s progress.

Having come so far and still working to overcome, it would be great to feel triumphant – rather than being bogged down by the grind of continuous struggle.

Pain…loss…regret…

“Radical Acceptance?”

When younger, it is easier to believe in others because one still has not lived so much life as to give up faith in goodness.

That is, if one is very determined.

However, if too much pain over time compounds, inclination to deflect intimacy might increase to keep reason and order sound. 

I could do without some visceral associations.

I am frequently encountering this sense of.

“When you get tired, learn to rest – not to quit.”

And we

And she

And us

And I

When hind brain is compressed, I become reactive.

I think this is my being’s need to isolate and contract around while expelling absorbed negative energy for deep purging – much like an exorcism.

What comes out of the mouth in private self-defense, rallying under pressure of having been recently assaulted, seems to revert to lowest common denominator – resulting in Tasmanian Devil cussing and wild gesticulation expressioning.

My retention of knowledge is based upon imagery and perceptual relationships.

I’ve been working on conveying my experiences through writing, but transferring directly from processing to speech seems inhibited.

Does this mean that I am by programmed default “nonverbal?”

Is this from head injuries, abuse trauma, and/or having to chameleonize for survival?

The anxiety experienced before and after externally expressing myself certainly seems to ward off attempts to overcome.

Instead of freaking out, she let the energy carry her.

I have learned to even outwit myself.

Perhaps the best thing that I can do right now is just say, “No.”

I think I bolted out of the gate when my support was cut off – and now I am just seeking shelter.

Trying to grow up in society,
I learned vulnerability imposed
And, in fact, it should be exploited.

Having been targeted during COVID
(And beyond, if accurately tallied),
I find it difficult to trust others.

While I share my caring generously,
It is spread out to protect myself
So no one has ability to harm.