Society

At The Gym

There is a man there who when he sees me has been contriving to “be at the right place and time” in zones where I am going.

This has been happening more clearly, yet I still go out of my way to avoid and not respond to him.

I don’t like being tracked and maneuvered upon – especially since I have observed his desperate and frustrated loneliness over many months.

I could be flattered by this attention – but am not.

I couldn’t help but notice for some time his interest in other people who then rejected him, and now he has settled upon me.

I have not been his first choice – and at this point, I would not want to be.

Back off, man.

Society, The Accident - As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named "Clyde" (Short For Collide) Because It's Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense

Lag

It occurs to me as I move through this latest phase of having been injured that those many times that I was picked on as a child and called “stupid,” or accused of ignoring subject matter, or not responding quick enough to people’s demands – just not immediately gyrating to their puppetry – was because of multiple bouts of experienced head trauma.

But I was inside here all the while, observing, thinking…

And not allowed any room nor encouragement for reemergence.

Sometimes, I wanted to scream.

Other times, I would just lapse into despondent, drawn out silence.

But always, I was just waiting…

Waiting for my time.

Waiting for safety.