There are so many reasons for relationships to not work – but only one reason for validity that should ultimately matter.
Category: Society
What Is This Feeling?
A burbling undercurrent building to erupt into hysterical sobbing or outrageous laughter.
“Shhhhh,” I remember my once-beloved’s mother cautioning me, for in that culture, women are not permittted valid candor.
Altruism
When I advocated for the community back in 2004 and related, there was nothing in it for me – I could not gain nor retain housing.
Choosing Sides
I dislike being forced to take up a cause.
No Accounting
There is currently no accountability for the insidiuos war being waged upon our communities where hard-working families are discounted as housing priority.
Displacement
If it happens, this will be our 6th since 2011.
Who is gaining all of the benefits from loss?
Inequity
Those that have more than one house do not seem to stand up for those who do not have even one.
Instead, they eat the cream from others’ labor right off the top – leaving what little remains in a state of rot.
(Relate – For King & Country)
“Production For Use”
No matter what our desperations, we must overcome our baser reactions as humanity.
We must use our production wisely.
(Title phrase from movie His Girl Friday with Cary Grant, Rosalind Russell, and Ralph Bellamy.)
Negative Reinforcement
At some point, traumatic response becomes the mainstay when circumstances keep conspiring.
(One Beautiful Evening – Laurie Anderson)
(The Cloud Room – Pan American)
Celebrated
Happening across a like-minded cohort.
Hidden From View
The pain of fresh betrayal.
(Everybody’s Talkin’ – Harry Nillson)
Many Tribes
It is hard to find where one belongs when descended from many.
SideWinders
We are told that we can only express ourselves within limitations (if at all allowed), and that we must choose only certain facets of self to present to others.
No wonder it is rare to find someone who is consciously “here” – for we are too often discounting our own wholistic relevances!
Positive Reinforcement
There are advocates and kind people.
Lost In Milieu
Sensory intake overstim whirls in conjuction with fighting compulsion of giving in to whatever messaging’s whim.
“Have Fun”
The lady said as she signed off from our phone call, forgetting she was speaking to someone struggling to keep her family housed.
Partner Pairing
I see a lot of bonding where relationships are sought as reinforcement for one’s “image” – or as they say “like attracts like.”
But in a way, I do not see the relevancy because this type of pairing can miss an essential truth if we are honest and pay attention to our selves.
We are always changing and growing.
The Bridge
Rather than put more effort into trying to align with others, she realized it might be time for them to reach out to align with her.
The Gap
Maybe that was the issue: she was hard working and determined.
“Real men” might appreciate this and deem her colleague out of respect.
But “real men” weren’t real men, after all, if they only wanted her as a pet.
Fallacy
They say that “Life is out to get us.”
From what I’ve experienced, it’s people.
Nature has always been kind to me.
“We Hold These Truths”
“To Be Self Evident.”
(Interpreting The Declaration Of Independence, alternatively)
Born. To. Be.
Royalty takes care of its people.
For Those Who Serve
If they are/have been promised, promises should be kept.
Privilege
“But she’s so ‘sweet and deserving…'”
No.
She hasn’t had to fight for right to evolve.
At The Gym
There is a man there who when he sees me has been contriving to “be at the right place and time” in zones where I am going.
This has been happening more clearly, yet I still go out of my way to avoid and not respond to him.
I don’t like being tracked and maneuvered upon – especially since I have observed his desperate and frustrated loneliness over many months.
I could be flattered by this attention – but am not.
I couldn’t help but notice for some time his interest in other people who then rejected him, and now he has settled upon me.
I have not been his first choice – and at this point, I would not want to be.
Back off, man.
Making A Day
Thanking people for being there in their relative ways; finding a compliment to give a stranger to help clear the waking haze.
(Big Time – Rick James)
Fear Of Lack
Propaganda turns us against each other.
Unraveling Complex
It is not easy to be discovering and acknowledging that a lifelong sense of shame has been from carrying the burden of others’ disowned accountability cast upon me at a very young age for crimes I discovered, but did not commit.
To Be “Good”
Under patriarchy has equated to condemning validity of our realities.
The Drawing
Moon, feathers, owl, and a woman’s side profile taking in the elements as empowering….
When I saw the layers of black, white, gray, and brown flowing so powerfully and gracefully, I knew I had to have it: it belonged to me.
But in obtaining this mirror imaging of my core essentiality, I knew that to mount it on my wall challenged tenants of patriarchy.
Unification
“We need a leader who can equally represent more than just one side.”
A Cure For Jealousy
(Joy – For King + Country)
Justice
Sometimes, no matter how much it is greatly needed or wanted, it is better to just even the playing field and restart toward better horizons.
Poverty
Makes it difficult to buy food, pay for (or even find and secure) housing – and definitely forces creativity onto the back burner in the struggle for survival.
Transition
I wonder who I could have been, but try to focus on who I will become.
Self Empowerment
The difference between now and then is that I have gained the status of maturity, and I have cultivated knowledge and abilities to self advocate.
Additionally, I have moved away from those toxic situations.
Lag
It occurs to me as I move through this latest phase of having been injured that those many times that I was picked on as a child and called “stupid,” or accused of ignoring subject matter, or not responding quick enough to people’s demands – just not immediately gyrating to their puppetry – was because of multiple bouts of experienced head trauma.
But I was inside here all the while, observing, thinking…
And not allowed any room nor encouragement for reemergence.
Sometimes, I wanted to scream.
Other times, I would just lapse into despondent, drawn out silence.
But always, I was just waiting…
Waiting for my time.
Waiting for safety.
Hyde’s Bride: Of Course They Would
Ten years younger vs. ten years older: twenty years garnered in a man’s favor.
Messaging
She might get love if she:
Was silently vacant
Didn’t ask questions
Accepted evasion
Endured derision
Waited neglected
Allowed projection
Yielded position
Permitted pain
Quietly reflected
Dissociated
Creatives
They say we are wrong for daring to dream the impossible…
Rewritten
Outsider’s
Perspective
Inclusively
Selective
Revamping
Psychology
Of Societal
Dramatology
Overcoming
Limitations
To Improve
Destinations
Of More Than
Individual
Predilective
Extensions
Without Fear
What great advances could we accomplish with thoughtful, inclusively moral innovation?
Projections
A man once complimented me that I had nice skin.
But it wasn’t really about me, or my being.
It was about him categorizing.
No Game
Because I refuse to pretend and posture, I have written myself out of the dating scene.
