Category: Stream of Thought

“Earlier, I had clicked the WordPress switch to ‘private,’ and deleted my link to here from my Instagram account.

I was not sure if followers would still see what I post, and I was not sure that I wanted to be viewed anymore.

This project has fundamentally been for me to express my own aspects while learning about and experiencing myself.

Yet, sometimes I have worried that other people…

Well…

I am clearly showing personal aspects of myself with no control over what viewers interpret through their own filtered perceptions.

But maybe my posting helps keep me keep rebuilding strength – although there is a disconnect between ‘here’ and ‘reality.’

People on the street don’t know these things about me – nor would I want them to, really.

I like being private.

These are rare glimpses of me working from the inside-outwardly.

I want to keep posting, but I need to reexamine what this all means to me.

Another ER trip.

“The relationship videos are ‘whacked’ – with every one of them trying to sell something to get a viewer to keep visiting.

We make our own pact.

What matters is what works for our own needs.”

Shrinking down to nothing to
Exploding to reclaim space

Either way a self defending
Trying to reclaim balance

With who I really am
Lost in static’s cling

It’s important to reacclimate to “norms.”

“In doing so, one might fall off.”

“Why are you never real? These shifting states you follow me through ..”

(Sleep Token reference)

How do I beat the odds against time and effiort managing injury’s divestiture??

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(Reposted now from April 2024 by decree of WordPress after amending, as I am in a bind again)

“And just getting started…”

Allowing herself to cling to his music and imagery, she leaned into the artists’s work, as if he were her confidant and future.

When the boom mic slips into the filming scene (upper center-right). I don’t even know what that was – or how it got there…!