Category: The Accident – As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named “Clyde” (Short For Collide) Because It’s Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense

A Woman's Plight, The Accident - As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named "Clyde" (Short For Collide) Because It's Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense, The Shower Accident 11/14/25

Adrenal Anxiety

Candid Corvid Productions

“I need to apply for longterm help, and it feels like I have done something terrible.

Like I took a very wrong turn, somewhere.

And I can’t go back to change anything – only forward.

I didn’t make any of these injuries happen.

Neither accident was my fault, and I fought back bracedly both times to resist their happening.

So why am I having to pay the price for others’ laxity?

Why is my reward relegating me to dependency?”

Altered States, The Accident - As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named "Clyde" (Short For Collide) Because It's Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense, The Shower Accident 11/14/25

I Was Afriad

Candid Corvid Productions

After the concussion
My arms became weak

My hands and face had
Increased numb patterns

Body and limb discoordination
Was knocked back into tailspin

Neck instability meant any movement
Upon elliptical pulled on brain injury

So now I do even less at the gym
To allow myself to try to catch up

Altered States, The Accident - As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named "Clyde" (Short For Collide) Because It's Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense, The Shower Accident 11/14/25

Dust To Dust

Candid Corvid Productions

I’ve got nothing to strive for
No more umph in my motor

I always had manifestation
As my high-driving priority

Even if I had to wait
I knew it was there

I could feel it’s pressence
Just like I feel you, my love

It’s very discouraging after all of that
To find myself flat-stopped, diverted

No more climbing
No more aspiring

Because I’m just
So damn hurting

Nothing seems attainable anymore
It’s just slipping through my fingers

Altered States, The Accident - As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named "Clyde" (Short For Collide) Because It's Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense, The Shower Accident 11/14/25

Carrying The Burden

Candid Corvid Productions

“It becomes more clear that my neck, shoulders, and spine have become more destabilized since the concussion accident as muscles torque-torsion into spasmed misalignments carrying loads that they weren’t meant to be hoisting.”

Altered States, The Accident - As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named "Clyde" (Short For Collide) Because It's Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense, The Shower Accident 11/14/25

Backed Into A Corner

Candid Corvid Productions

“I was not responding well as of today from the concussion when getting other people’s help as they were pressuring.

I was either dealing with their trying to be time efficient and going in too many directions at once – spinning me in circles – and/or wasting my time, etc..”

Altered States, Comedy, The Accident - As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named "Clyde" (Short For Collide) Because It's Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense, The Shower Accident 11/14/25

“There Can Be Only One”

Candid Corvid Productions

“I now have two kinds of brain injury – and boy, let me tell you how fun this is navigating the shattered internal stratosphere!”

—

(Title reference to movie Highlander and the struggle to reclaim primary power)

Altered States, The Accident - As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named "Clyde" (Short For Collide) Because It's Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense, The Shower Accident 11/14/25

This Time Of My Life

Candid Corvid Productions

I had pushed through hardships
Carrying too much tension that

Was supposed to find release and
Began to right before car accident

My asking for an intervention was
Seeking help from the stress load

Not requesting next level struggles
Which now concussion compounds!

But hey, hey what can I say – it’s not
Like I had things I still wanted to do

(Wait – I did!)

And true, true I was tired from youth but
I didn’t want vital energy taken from me!

(How rude!)

I’m still going forward because I endure
But I’m more frustrated now by burdens

Making it even harder to create income
Let alone walk with confidence in smile

And the worst part is that there
Seems to be no getting beyond it!

Altered States, The Accident - As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named "Clyde" (Short For Collide) Because It's Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense, The Shower Accident 11/14/25

No More Losses

Candid Corvid Productions

I can’t afford effects of the ride by
Taking drugs, drinks, or medication

That would cause any imbalance in
How I manage emotional currents

Because I am still captaining my ship
With people dependent upon strength

If I break down during financial hardships
The wreckage would become unavoidable

So therefore I do not have the ‘luxury’ of
Being someone who has ‘medical needs’

Altered States, The Accident - As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named "Clyde" (Short For Collide) Because It's Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense, The Shower Accident 11/14/25

Off The Table

Candid Corvid Productions

“The PA told me that basic concussions easily take  4-6 weeks for recovery, but can take much longer if more severe – especially if compounding prior brain injury.

Looks like I am in the latter category, as school and extra pursuits are no longer an option at present.”

A Woman's Plight, The Accident - As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named "Clyde" (Short For Collide) Because It's Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense, The Shower Accident 11/14/25

Sabotaged

Candid Corvid Productions

The general plan I had was that
I’d return to work in December

Having completed first stages of
Retraining adding to foundations

I accessed every limited resource
Using momentum’s gain to launch

Got smacked back down – literally
Now nearly 2 1/2 more years of loss

Altered States, Reclamation, The Accident - As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named "Clyde" (Short For Collide) Because It's Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense

Struts

Candid Corvid Productions

“After attempting more cleaning yesterday and then resting, getting up in the middle of the night finds me feeling a “V” shape of vector pain tip upward into arches of my feet into bottom of inner ankle – especially left where I put more weight.

This is from flexing while vacuuming and mopping slowly and carefully in a hunch-slump to protect my neck and distribute force across shoulder, hip, and back joints without over-engaging arms and legs.

So, basically, I pivot-rocked much over my feet, which were originally blasted in the car accident from pressing hard against brake and foot rest when the other car’s firce went through my body and legs from back to front of me out my feet, etc.

My feet have been “rolling” and phillage bone tendons turning on and off randomly when walking since then – which when combined with leg and above muscles and joints doing the same thing, makes walking a wholey different glide-managing-not-to-stumble mix-matched conundrum ride.

But this “V” sharp pain with numb throbbing distribution, though painful and weird-feeling, is new – suggesting that my arch curve tensility is at last beginning to redefine itself!”

A Woman's Plight, Altered States, The Accident - As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named "Clyde" (Short For Collide) Because It's Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense, The Shower Accident 11/14/25

As Far As I Can Go

Candid Corvid Productions

The paramedics, except one, did not want to take her seriously.

And right when they arrived at the hospital’s exchanging, her being felt that she was not being transferred into safe keeping.

Immediately, the intake male nurse disregarded the pain and difficultties that she was having.

He made her further hurt herself by refusing to help her reattempt on her own to get into the wheelchair in his disregard’s treating her inhumanely.

Until she refused to try anymore until they brought someone who had any decency.

An older woman arrived, and for no provocation they’d also brought security.

The older woman stepped in front of her and to the right – and then the patient could grip and position herself where they wanted her to be.

The older woman hummed softly as she pushed her to a room where she could lay down again to manage the pain and imbalanced fluid exchange.

A brief blessing of kind compassion that help her reorient and keep trying to self stabilize.

It was a room reserved for mental patients, with cameras and a lockable closing door, where she could hear the nursing staff loudly joking at the ER station and one later said after she pressed the help button – “As if there isn’t someone down the way who is actually dying!”

At that point, she got help to call her eldest, because they didn’t seem to care or believe that she was dealing with brain trauma.

And while she was waiting, she finally began recording how loud and irreverent they were all being generally, irregardless of the fact people were there, hurt and dying.

They must’ve seen and heard her on the cameras, etc., because suddenly the noise got quieter.

And once her eldest arrived, they became more respectful and her eldest helped advocate for another scan against the doctor’s resistance to ensure that the sudden onset of symptoms did not include further risk from hemoraging.

‘Please take me to a different hospital if needed in the future,’ she requested to her eldest at the end.

Nothing like being confused and terrified with people making it worse by refusing to help as gaslighting.”

A Woman's Plight, Alex (An Ideal), The Accident - As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named "Clyde" (Short For Collide) Because It's Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense, The Shower Accident 11/14/25

Dear Alex,

Candid Corvid Productions

“I don’t know how to recover from this accident, except to go slower while experiencing more neural twitching – and to keep doing what I have been doing.

But the resources are even thinner now, and all I can do is keep trying to show up, even with further diminished capacity.

Yeah…

My kids and I have had to have the talk.

‘If I end up in a home because my system crashes, don’t give up on me – please make sure  that I am getting the right therapies for recovery.

And if I am ever in a coma, don’t give up on me.

I am in here, trying to reroute the wiring.'”