DisIntegration
Once she had children, they were the excuse by her partner for further distraction and disintegration of their prior pair bonding.
When & Where?
“Has a woman been seen as desireable for wanting and needing a man without being required to, in return, give up her independent identity?”
(Una Mattina – Lynnic)
Broken Pieces
“It is very hard for me to conceptualize that I could be wanted as a viable partner – despite all of the struggling that I am having to overcome due to these lingering car accident injuries.”
“Whispers In The Wind” (Song)
By Athena Stairs, October 31, 2025
For once
Give me more
Than I can handle
Overwhelm
My sense of balance
Make me rethink everything
From finding safety and comfort
At last in my true love’s embrace
Saturate all of my senses
Guiding me toward a
New destination
Where everything
Makes sense
To us again
—
Ethereal Elden tones.
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Dear Alex,
“Why are you never real?”
—
(Sleep Token lyrics)
(The Apparition – Sleep Token)
I Do Not Like
Sour towels.
(Where Shadows Bloom)
(Don’t Let Me Down – The Chainsmokers ft. Daya)
Too Tired To Care, Anymore
She had made it to the edge of a land mass and had just enough energy to drag herself out of the water – but not enough to seek shelter – before collapsing onto the shore.
Someday
“From these tiny, dead end beginnings I shall achieve something.”
No More
Tepid Maybees.
(Come Along – Titiyo Naid 2001 Remix)
“Family Photo”
Sacred Flames
“Centering”
Everywhere
She’d gone to the park for a phone appt and nap – only to find other families and their dogs barking noise going straight through her.
(Always You – Ourson Music)
Playing Around
I can handle ups & downs
If the attachment is sound
Built on solid foundations
—
(Content of multiple meanings)
(Master & Servant – Depeche Mode)
Let It Rain – The First Video
Honest Interest
Adapting
Emotional Regulation Skills
She Loves Me
Dear Friend,
As nestling beside you
We scrabble into dirt’s
Smooth warm barrow
Hunkering down close
Allowing waves too great
For our tender capacities
To flow above and past
Dreaming of our clarity
In underground retreat
Cautious of revelations
(Evenfall – Infinite Reflections)
Belonging
In the veil they would meet
Brushing hands in passing
Neither feeling secure
To reach out grasping
Needing consistency
Unable to voice fealty
But finding in each other’s hearts
Hope’s comfort they were seeking
Making Sense
Back To Basics
Brave In The Waves
Softness From Strength
In Or Out
Bringing To Light
Love’s Blade
(Azure – R3DN1K)
“Runaway” (Song / Spoken Word)
By Athena Stairs, October 29, 2025
I found this really cool guy
Who could look me in the eye
No matter a thing that I would say
But then I found out
He was still full of doubt
Tipped his hat and then left the same day
All I ever do is find a
Runaway runaway
It seems I’ve got a knack
Can’t get a guy to stay!
I need this nut to crack
They never take it back
The meat is always rot
And leaves a bitter sting
What is it in a man
That draws me to him?
Thinkin’ that he’ll stick
But there’s no glue
Like chasin’ butterflys
There is no reason why
Dodge and weavin’
Only leaves my heart a bruise
And all I ever seem to find’s a
Runaway runaway
No matter what I say(do)
It’s all the same
Stars aligned but not entwined
I’d seize the day they go away
A trick of light changin’ the frame mind!
There came a time I thought
That I had made the grade
But Fickle Fate
She had to add her’s too
Life can be unkind
No replay just hit unwind
Now just runaway is
Something I do too
—
Listen to Runaway – Spoken Word – October 29, 2025.m4a by Candid Corvid Productions on #SoundCloud
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Why Am I Like This?
Moving pieces are never ending
Part of household transportating
Ear plugs, papers, pens, and pencils
Avoid listing all of the minor essentials
Hazardous roller case splaying unzippered
Complex cycle orders revealing exposures
Chasing use patterns one moment to next
Out of my mind trying to keep up with time
Chuckle
“A bright yellow meat bee swiggled in through my open back behind the driver seat car door – and then I had to let him out on the passenger side front door, where he was waiting patiently pondering at the mystery of the window.”
(Good News – Shaboozey)
(The Zoo – The Scorpions)
Inner Critic
“I am desireable…
But I don’t know why I can’t believe it.”
The Elephant They Keep Ignoring
If MRI’s show damage to spine and joints
It’s pretty safe to assume that there’s likely
Other muscle/tissue damage around them
—
(Title reference to phrase “the elephant in the room” = huge issue specialists keep ignoring)
Falling Leaves (Song)
By Athena Stairs, October 29, 2025
Oh I’ve been wakin’ up
Under Autumn leaves in Fall
If only I could bring the summer back
‘Cause I was so much braver
When thought I could look forward
To a partner who would have my back
I’m wondering
What do we do about love?
The stars and heavens above
Are waiting
In firelight
All I can see is you
And things that we have gone through
Want to hold you
It’s true
But if we can’t unite
And give this a try
Then winter is goin’ to bite
And I don’t know how
I get through each day
When I ache for you every night
And all this charade
Has been a parade
But its gotta give reality back
‘Cause if it’s a dream
It’s turnin’ obscene
And my heart is gonna have an attack
You see
For me these vibrant leaves
In spiral rhapsody
Remind me
In every way
And I know
That you belong in my arms
The farthest place from harm
Cause’ I told you
That I want you
And when I look ahead
And you’re still not here
An emptiness fills me up
And I don’t know how
To get through this life
Without hope to fill my cup
And if you stay away
What else can I say
But its clear that I’ve run out of luck
And there’s no way to think
If I start to drink
That it’ll do anything but suck
No consoling
Because (slowing to end)
You said you wanted me too
—-
Longing’s desperation.
Chords like Damocles and Euclid by Sleep Token
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In The Quiet
(Prismer I – Blackshape)
Dear Friend,
“I’ll show you.
But not here.
Not like this.”
Hope In The Dark
For a moment
It was there
A bridge across
Time between us
Proven instant
That we cared
Unexpected
Resilience
