“How can one be surrounded by a sea of humanity – and yet feel no kindred attraction?”
Desolation
“A woman needs her purpose fulfilled – and the wrong man cannot force his needs on it.”
Biting Back
“Though fangs edge long and hunger breeds need, there is no one worthy to feast upon.”
Monsters & Madness
“Why must men make everything so complcated and full of insanity?
How can they not realize that we need good leadership and care to not go crazy in this broken society women still have no say in?”
My Teeth
“You wanted to see them?”
Gentility’s Mask
If I allow myself to sink
The buoy goes missing
Yet, if I always float
Feelings submerge
Above surface is
Highly functional
But beneath lurks
Leviathanic abyss
Childhood Friend
“She had always thought that I’d been successful.
But I just stepped up to the plate – and dove all in to win.”
Without Options
“I was never given any.”
So Let’s Play
I wanna roll the numbers
I wanna feel my stars align again
Won’t you pay for your arrogance?
Won’t you show me your weakness?
Tangled with what I never said
I wanna be forgiven
—-
(From Sleep Token’s “Blood Sport”)
Desiring
“To grow beyond past encumberances.”
A Kind Gesture
“Receptive, though outdated traumatic burdens.”
Retaliation
*Only when pushed to extremes.- yet mainly to relieve internal pressure.”
Defensive Position
“In fact, I can get ‘quite unlady-like’ about it.”
Risk Assessment
“I am tired of being played ‘the fool.'”
Dancing Forever
It’s complicated
Yet also simple
About timing
And rhythms
Giving
Taking
Risking
Claiming
Reaching for
Identifying
When caution
Is retracting
Pushing past
Barriers yet
Respecting
Fragilities
Protecting
As guiding
Leading as
Following
Gliding
Colliding
Momentum
And slowing
Casting off
As growing
What’s known
New learning
Intertwining
For owning
Expansion’s
Propagation
Through
Seasons
Ebbing
Flowing
Shutting Down
Silence within
Self-protection
Having overshared
Minus need’s proof
Speeding toward edge
Without any parachute
Checking the free fall
Lacking reassurances
Praise Phrasing
“He’s all that – and a bag of chips!”
Flat-Lined
After effects from work.
(Solstice – Valiant & Keerda)
“Lunar Mask”
Providing
It wasn’t just the injuries that had complicated and bogged down her functionality, but the loss from pack members leaving that had been core essential to her striving’s original purpose.
Now that new members had joined her inner circle, she began experiencing traces of renewed strength and strategies’ vision returning.
An Unmatched Pair
Folding Inward
Like a collapsed flan.
For Once
“Walking down the thrift store isle, the trail of unwashed human reek kept extending until – for once – I embraced the too-perfumed exudence of a young woman walking by, which brought relief.”
Sweetlings
Wow!
(Escape – Two Lanes, Episode 1, A Chillout Mix)
“Hidden Pleasure”
“Speed Of Light”
I’m Good Soil
“Received praise from a peer yesterday, meaning that she sees me as a good investment.
Made me laugh – alot – and actually was a key mantra phrase that began connecting my gaps that did not know what concept to latch onto for beginning deeper healing.”
Dear Friend,
Did you know that you are also a healer?
But you’ve been tending poisoned soil
So there have been very few blooms
That could grow as proof of efforts
“The Cave”
Yeah, About That…
Beyond Tolerances
“There comes a point near every late evening.where makeshift stamina’s grace collapses, and further movements are accompanied by quiet grunts and wheezes.”
(I Don’t Want To Live Without You – Foreigner)
Disrimination
“A beloved told me today that a lovely trans cashier was treated horribly during their customer service.
The customer put change down on the counter, refusing to hand it to them or push it closer, stating, ” You people can’t even reach for change!”
Another Driving Escapade
“A driver was riding my end too close, so I swerved to the side to get her off of me.
She decided to slow down and ugly-yell at me, ‘You should’ve turned on your turn signal!’
So I called back, ‘But you were up on my end!’
Whereupon, she drove off and kept griping out loud to herself.”
Intentions
“I don’t want nor need control,
Just trying to cultivate success.”
Helping Flow
“A bee zoomed in through the driver’s side window and got stopped mid-journey by the passenger’s.
So I quickly unrolled that one, and it hurried on its way.”
(Cloud Walking – Astrality)
Dear Friend,
How can we overcome learned insecurities
Making sensory tendrils recoil in anxieties
When we wish to reach out and touch love
But had tips and worse burned when tried?
Thinking of you I become emboldened to
Reach out and take you into my embrace
Looking into your eyes with conviction
Affirming against doubts’ past poisons
But I can only find the perfect timing
In whispers of daydreams filtering in
Past imprinted harborings of damage
We are both perhaps still restricted by
I want us to be freed from these shrouds of
Unfulfilling experiences miscommunicated
Would a path be to recondition ourselves
Applying Cognitive Behavioral retraining?
For surely having had our hearts injured
We must counter by stronger assertions
Although I suspect that experiencing much
Positive reinforcement together will retrain
On levels no other therapy could or would
Create in deeper healing we have needed
Dream Codes
“My mind was innovating verse while deep trance navigating in sleep, and this is one of the lines that filtered to surface:
‘Quone is ogg.’
Archaic language? Otherworldly?
I have no real explanation.”
“The Offering”
“Searching”
Warrior Pose
No gentle side-curling that
Creates extra compression
But sprawled diagonal across the bed
Face-down head between two pillows
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