Family Reunion
Though there was daily chaos
It was the kind that resets bio
Rhythms that reassure system
Life promises its beneficience
(Breathe – CamelPhat, Dark Matter Edit)
Countoured Strength
“It is satisfying to feel my muscle strength and form returning along lines that I’ve been re-conjuring.”
(Nobody – Gorgon City)
Damocles – Sleep Token Clip, Rock Im Park)
Spinal Cord Injury
“There’s been no denying, just realigning.”
Denial’s Benefits
These first two years since the accident
Have been about gaining distance away
From modes of tipping on edge of collapse
Which I would not let override endurance
Thus internal reroutings smack into walls
When continuing to push past allowances
With mainframe crashings from pressure
As keep reanimating limbs toward future
Mystery Rupture
Something unmentioned has been
A bulging vessel inner pinky finger
Several weeks ago since I noticed
Unsure how long it’s been injured
Could have happened lifting any
Edge with angled weight cutting
I’ve been ignoring it to let heal as
Occasionally acts as trigger finger
Because the pain upon touching
Was swollen and pulse-alarming
Connective tissues and associated
Don’t have tensile tenacity as prior
(All I Want Is You – U2)
“Feminine Design”
“Gray Matter”
Missed Opportunities
“It is vexing, but necessary, to let go of some further trainings that I thought I’d be doing.”
Toe Check
“Well…
It is pink and healthy, with no grit – except for the remnant shriveling skin hanging like a determined yet crumpled flag doing its best to still protect freshly exposed layers of nerve endings.
Thus, why the sharp, intense pain makes me want to keen to high heaven when the end of it is accidentally bumped straight on.”
(Delight – Leo Faulkner)
Dear Friend,
“Could you love me in my haggard, hollowed state?
What if this is as good as it’ll ever get for me again?
Although there is much else that I could give you.
I just can’t keep being a work horse.”
Apparently,
“The few things that I choose to try to do on any given day are more than I ought to be attempting.
But I used to be able to do so much more!”
DAW
“Maybe this can be my entry point, building upon prior experiences.”
Still Frozen
I guess I’ve been in denial
Piano strains my brainwaves
While guitar is neuro-untenable
I just keep thinking if I believe…
Frustration
“Because I need more help to overcome all of this.”
Be The Bad-A*** You’re Meant To Be
(In My Arms – Illenium, KREAM Remix)
(Mess It Up – Jerro & The Kite String Tangle)
Small Stepping
There are exercises and nutrients that
With time and resources could benefit
But if I have just one unit for any effort
I must be careful as to where focusing
Down Time
I got hurt again yesterday early eve
Simply walking and snagging shoe
Tripped carriage flinging extremes
Tore into junctures where repairing
Darling,
I am a mess
I must confess
But you know me
Better than this
(You & Me – Disclosure ft. Eliza Doolittle, Riva Remix)
Higher Realms
Air needs earth’s defining
Earth needs air to breathe
Breathe me in
Transforming
Let me feel how your
Contours curve uneven
As I rest upon
Primal potential
No longer wastelands
Crying tears to revive
As rain sprouts
Dreaming seeds
Bringing forth a
Promised haven
We both remember
And were cast from
Claiming
Together
Reward’s
Paradise
—
(Content of multiple meanings)
I Know, I Know
There’s only so much definition
Before we must just take a leap
Only so much deep discussion
Before two souls commit keep
But it is worth indulging
As we quiver biting nails
So that we calculate our bearings
Moving ship into water after shelf
There are stars to choose to guide by
Though others later share importance
Specific phrasings to convey meaning
So we understand language as lovers
Darling do not worry if I hesitate in a step
Just making sure we will be safe to benefit
This means so much to you and me
I want us to be found in translation
Working Equations
It’s a specialty of mine
In certain parameters
To examine designs
Routing out weakness
Not to trash constructs but
Configure reinforcements
Ensuring longevity’s
Mutual satisfactions
—
(Title of multiple meanings)
Flatt-End
“Cortisol haze from stress makes chest a heavy weight almost feeling like suffocating and illness in the mornimg.
It likely doesn’t help that I must drink caffeine mixtures daily in order to be able to think and function…
I refuse to take pharmaceutical medications that will leave a worsened effect while they’d claim to address my symptoms.”
Wolves
“Blue-Eyed Ent”
Nobility
What’s the point of appointed rank
If one does not embody meaning?
Seizing The Day
They’d carry me upon a palanquin throne
But what use would I have of this display?
I’ll ride my own steed if I cannot walk paths
And cry in pain at night when’ve gone away!
(Title of multiple meanings)
“Vive ut vivas”
“Live that you may live”
“Live to live”
Struts
“When I lift anything with noticeable weight, this hyper-compresses hip joints where flex got blown out by the car’s impact.
I’m hoping to regain flex by training with a rebounder.
I anticipate many setbacks, but hopefully will ultimately triumph.”
(Adore You – Harry Styles)
Good Boundaries
“I tried to protect my children from my needs, which increased sense of isolation.”
Progress
I’d like to think
I am getting better
Despite slow progress
Where time stretches
And barely things change
Regarding injuries
More easy to notice
Additional damage
Than to define healing
In more subtler degrees
When symptoms convey
Negative reinforcements
Perhaps to ensure attention
Dear Friend,
You’re Prime
You must know this by now
It’s in your walk
Your carriage
Catching up with yourself
Any negatives are
Now merely incidentals
Yet you are more vulnerable
Because you are more real
Outer shell
I could be the inner
Wrapping around your heart
Protector
My weakness
Is prior assumptions
Chagrined by fame
Thinking you’d discard
What’s offered after consumption
Are you more than this?
Have you retained integrity?
Are you capable of
Further transcending?
I would push the levels
By mere presence
You would need to guide
Pumping the brakes
To keep us out of madness
As the world tries to change us
We’d be stronger as one
They’d never tame us
But we could help them grow
And learn to love us
As reflections of
True embodiment
“Sun Sprites”
Too Much Fun?
(Me & You – Forester)
(Somebody – Depeche Mode)
Death Of The Sunglasses
“Today, my signature pair that I’ve been recognized by fell backwards from my head into a definitive shatter.”
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