Madness
“Finding out that you’ve been lied to in the most horrendous ways when it is too late to attempt to salvage the relationship.”
For The Love Of Good
“If we keep getting terrorized and beaten upon to give up our sense of rightness, then as the waves pull us farther out to see, what belongs to us by birth must become the prize to reachieve.”
The Issue Of Trying To Advance
“As I attempt to strengthen weak zones around my shoulder and hip joints, this is increasing imbalanced pully tension on my destabilized neck and spine misalignments, causing a new type of numbness in a coursing line in segments of my face, hand, and foot muscles.
There’s A Tingling Numbness
“The medical specialist told me that if I had any new symptoms that I should get back to him.
What – like the new dividing, tingling numbness between philanges in my foot that indicate that the lower spine injury you’ve been asserting is not as severe is actually as bad as I’ve been saying?!”
In The Wakes Of Desire
“Being a wave runner requires an understanding of the waves for their own potent and potential energy’s inclinations.
If you fight their force – as when in panic we are often wont to do – they will suck you down or throw you high up to crash into other waves or material obstacles and get tumbled around.
It’s a difficult lesson for the ego to learn to let go of desired control and get a sense of the energy’s surging and pulsing around you.
But if you can flow with waves well long enough, you can catch the perfect path suddenly revealing that shoots you past danger and gives you the ride of your life!”
Woo-Woop-Awoo!
(Bad Guy – Billie Eilish)
Go Cheffy Go!
The Gauntlet
“Ok, Athena.
You wanna give up, and fold?
Or you wanna keep goin’ as long as you can and see if we can get us somewhere?”
(Talkin’ to myself, again)
Returning To Innocence
As the approaching storm front’s initial soft breezes began playing with her hair and slightly rippling her clothing, the enlivening flow carried an all-encompassing fresh sense of spring’s returning vitality.
Hyper-oxygenated air molecules poured into her lungs as she breathed them in deeply, and she began remembering truths that she had inherently known as a child, but that had become suppressed for her protection during her enslavement.
She opened her arms wide to embrace its arrival.
“Sun Burst”
“Camoflage”
“Bird Of Prey”
“Star Trek” Klingon ship reference.
Alpha
She hadn’t had a mate to curl up next to and share the burden of leadership with for far too many, too long seasons.
Im-Portent
She stared in awe at the huge clouds roiling, emanating energy like a godlike presence watching them as it rapidly encroached and shifted between shapes of majestic, mythical creatures – and the crew quickly lowered the sails and battened the hatches.
Another Phaze
“I can’t tell of my hands are getting smaller, or if I am getting more muscular.”
Dear Alex,
“It has never been safe for me to need a man – for men of this age have been cracked or broken, and they no longer understand.”
(Run – Lane 8 & Kasablanca, Sultan + Shepard Remix)
High Priestess
Even when they had abused her and used her body, she had known to cause them no harm.
An unwilling sacrifice while they blasphemed in the names of gods, she should never have been forced to do men’s bidding.
(Flashback)
(You Make Me – Anyma & Rufus Del Sol, Vemork Remake)
Dear Alex,
“I don’t know if I can accomplish what I must accomplish in one month.”
“A Measure Of Sin” (Song)
By Athena Stairs, November 25, 2025
Sidlin’ up textin’
In the middle of night
Askin’ politely
Evrythin’ been alright?
Promisin’ to give in to
Your dreamin’ delight
But leavin’ you achin’
Once he’s gone outta sight
Your heart wedged open
So it cannot close
Libido in a hissy
‘Cause he left it morose
Jealousy and envy
Punchin’ into your gut
He’s out chasin’ others
Gluttin’ in his rut
Don’t expect follow up
Of his bein’ there
Faulty promise given
So to buyer beware!
You’ll be strung up edged out
Beggin’ for scraps
If you call him on his bullsh**
Then you’re under attack
Baby I had told you
That I had some excuse
Don’t you cry to me now
For my cuttin’ you lose
‘Cause a fair handshake
Ain’t gonna win me this fight
Nah I’d much rather keep you
Waitin’ up evry night
And dump you in a second
So you witness my might
‘Cause if I do not love you
Why the heck should I try?
Get your life together
Find a better guy
Yeah
Get your life together
Find a better guy
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The Chop
“I keep dodging uppercuts – but it sucks when they’re swingin’!”
(Difficult To Love – Elderbrook, Nu Aspect Remix)
Underlying Truths
Reactionary Beings
“The mask struggles to not come off as my mind works it loose – and the pathway from brain to mouth natural instinct instant response is still compromised.”
(Maze Of Memories – Lynnic, ItsDarius, & Dinia)
It’s Pretty Funny
“Actually, none of this is pretty, nor funny, and just keeps tripping the cortisol.”
And Around We Go!
“A bill that had been granted a three week extension defaulted two weeks early, reactivating autowithdrawal without my permission, reoverdrafting my account – and now its and following overdraft charges for other normal small bills no longer covered by my before meager balance (sucked away by this bill) accumulate.
Weeeeee!”
(See You Again – Rufus Du Sol)
“Trinity”
Photo by my youngest.
“Presence”
Benefits Of Isolationism
“Nobody startles or jumps when I suddenly cry out in pain from an injured mistep.”
Them: “You Can’t Dance To Sleep Token”
Dear Alex,
“Do you know?
How we can keep it going?”
Help! Lol (Take It To The Limit – Eagles)
OMG – Nooooo!
“‘Seniors aged fifty-blah-blah-blah and higher…’ goes the commercial, showing ladies barely lifting their arms while doing slow dance moves in their gray-haired, osteoporosis late-staged retirement…
But, ‘I’m not dead, yet!'”
(Last quote is Monty Python)
(Dance Monkey – Elderbrook, Tones And I Cover, Live @ SiriusXM)
Elderbrook has such a classy groove style. Isn’t that a dancing monkey toy rhythm interwoven into this piece? Pure creative subtle genius.
Mystery Penalties
“It shouldn’t be this difficult to get the banks working smoothly.”
Psychological Load
“Sometimes, it’s just too much to try to overcome.”
Voyager
Dear Alex,
“When I saw you at last in person, I took a risk to share with you.
I wanted you to experience my energy – how it can be at its brightest.
Of anyone I’ve ever known you’re the one who could match and reflect it.
And I wanted you to feel my passion supporting you.”
Experimentation
“I am beginning to try adding a few more select machines to my workout routines with the focus of reactivating muscle attachment strength to regain secured joint pliability.
But the response is serious if I ‘get it wrong.’
For example, when in the past I tried quads and hams, the quad portion activated muscles pulling too hard on anterior hip joint tearing = no more quad machine.
Recently, I tried modifying the leg press, including calves, by focusing on smooth alignment stability transference through slow movement up and down.
But this resulted in too much pressure across my knees the next day, which I attempted to counter by adding hams to stabilize the pressure load all around the knees more evenly.
Now I know that if I use the leg press, I need to decrease how low I go and be sure to finish with hams to balance.
Similarly, I tried the free-floating arms pec machine to get at posterior upper rotator cuff weakness from that ttorn muscle deactivation, thinking a little pec activation following would balance.
But while targeting the pec zones to support was a good plan, the followup balancing activation needed for me is actually the bar pressing machine having shoulders pushing upward.”
Old Vs. New Money
“I remember the established golf club members in their ritzy, traditional housing turning up their noses at the prospect of nearby cheaper housing construction projects bringing pressure to “sell out” to “lesser” candidates.
But, eventually, it just came down to increased numbers winning by majority.”
30 Days
“I can’t help but find it wryly laughable that I must meet the mark by end of May, when my body is still experiencing reinjury destabilization in striving to.
I’m only able to inconsistently meet a minimal portion of trying to reclaim once greater target cabilities.”
Carefully Unwrapping
“The difficulty is that where things are stuck, they keep holding for a reason…and I am not sure yet what is safe to remobilize.”
Revelations
“A thigh’s fear tries to tell me with courage that while it is the inner anterior joint surface that gave way, something along the lateral IT band took the hard hit, as well, which may still be affecting the torsion.”
Dear Alex,
“I remember long ago, falling in love with your heart’s beat – although I did not know it was you because visuals included other artistry.
And when you began to emerge, more and more in different purviews, I saw and felt your anguish, yet something was strongly stirring.
I barely dared to hope that you’d be free to someday join me.”
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