The accident had overstretched the connective tissues so that when she pushed against her own internal boundaries to gain strength, they blew out, which left her emotionally exhausted.
Risk
After expending effort, her confidence would plummet.
Dear Alex,
I know that you have done the best you could with the decisions you have made in sharing beneficience with your status.
But why do I still feel “less than” when I have done the same in the common grounds with my own sweat, innovation, and endurance?
Social Elevation
It was not easy, nor comfortable, to be among the first to promote an improved value system.
(Title play with words)
A Case For Humanity
Was she foolish? She fretted as she limped through the kitchen to let the dogs out.
It was customary to sue for pain and suffering, and clearly, she was experiencing plenty of that.
But her will was determined to overcome – or at least bypass – her multiple symptoms.
And she was retraining for a replacement career that could be very exciting.
She did not believe in causing harm to others because she had been harmed – except when necessary in the most extreme situations.
Pause Of The Claimant
People she spoke with assumed she would sue because “she had a right to.”
But she also knew that the person having to pay had not been at fault. It had been her partner driving.
She was surprised and a bit disgusted with the toxic money-hungering liturgy in society’s system.
Perhaps she did not have her own priorities correct – especially after having endured repeated homelessness and poverty.
But it was one thing to pursue what was owed to one’s self from a huge agency set up for such compensations.
And quite another if the tally directly affected another person who personally could not afford it.
(Hideaway – Kiesza)
Sounding
Perhaps it was better she stayed on her own, for she waa always automatically listening.
My Hound
Instead of a cock-a-too, she’s a whack-a-tail.
Expressing with tails is a hound’s pack greeting!
Cryosleep
Upon being awakrned, the first thing she did was find a way out from the entangled machinery.
Love Grows
Money comes then goes.
RECEEEEIIIIVED! Sleep Token Mastery
Winter Solstice
The longest night of the year, where she felt all of her energy just pulled inward to draw her down to rest among the sleeping roots of Mother Earth.
Ker-Flump!
She knew that she should feel accomplished for the feats of overcoming that she had so far accomplished.
Yet, she just felt exhausted and discouraged.
An External Event
Can be transformed into opportunity by the associated energy being tapped into and repurposed through spiritual alchemy.
Extended Newt Cut
Dear Alex,
You have been thrust into a leadership position that is not like mine, yet we are the same. Behind the scenes or presenting, we are playing a deeper game.
(Make Your Way – EMBRZ)
“Evening Tea Leaf”
“Great Ball Of Fire”
“Geokinesis”
“Sun Dolphin”
Zoom in on the sun’s dark spot.
“Galagos”
See the “bush babies?” Literally!
Trace
The touch of a hand
From warm embrace
That sense of caring
Which brightens face.
Facing The Lion
A trip to the surgeon.
(Risk – Metric)
“Minotaur’s Cauldrin”
See it gathering the fire with its arms and claws?
“Gargoyles”
“Cyclops”
“Plumage”
(Aniron – Enya)
Once
“Don’t!” as she placed her flat palm on his chest to stop him from taking her into his arms and kissing her.
“But why?” He asked her, huskily.
“Because I love you so much, that if I can not have you, to feel it unreturned would tear me apart.”
YAAAAAAASSSSS!!! (Sleep Token Drums)
Weihnachts Mode On!
Paradigm Shift
Abruptly and forcefully ejected from a field of providing healing therapy, she transitioned into one that was personally and creatively rewarding.
Nightfall
When the sun fell down and her energy was withdrawn, she felt ashamed that she could not do it all.
Compassion
Recognizing validity of others’ needs, even if they are not your own.
And, recognizing your own needs are valid, even if others don’t.
The point is to be kind and supportive, externally and internally.
(Already Gone – Eagles)
Obsession
She realized that she must become her own.
Even Flow
“It seems as if nothing has changed since I last met you. We are older and perhaps somehow more wise, but it is as if how we were together was placed in stasis of a now-opened time capsule” she remarked upon their reuion.
“Chrysalis”
Clacking Gum
“I’m into a guy’s mind and the intelligence by which he applies his knowledge to expand upon the greatness of his powah,” stated the flippantly red hair-dyed, uneducated waitress with her hand on cocked hip and a cheeky smile.
Too Small Glasses
She liked wearing the minimal ones, uncaring as to whether or not they complimented her face.
She thought them a hilarious addition when in the lab, and chuckled to herself occasionally when she remembered she was wearing them.
For like a wild horse put to saddle, underneath her reserved exterior she resented having the need of their aid in order to fit into and conform to society.
“It’s The Final Brain Cell…”
Parody of song, “The Final Countdown.”
BWAH-HA-HA – Then What’s The Point Of That?!
“…the thing about twin flame union is that it never seems like anything is happening. What I mean is, there is no perceptible progress. You feel like you’re in limbo…”
The Raptor And The Gargoyle: Friendship
“My Sacrifice” by Creed
The Raptor And The Gargoyle – Reflections Upon Intimacy
“I have been taught to forget my own name and to forget that I love to fly as high as I can fly and I love to explore and create things of interest to me when I am with a mate,” she confided.
“I have also been taught that I can only give my warrior’s cry in silence, when I am alone – for others become as quail when they hear my voice’s power, and even my own children seem to fear me,” she lamented.
“My attempts to find a lifelong mate have failed because the males I have encountered are not driven to aspire like me. Even if I “dumb myself down” for them so they are not threatened, they then have felt superior and have mistreated and devalued me.” She shook her feathers agitatedly.
“It seems that to be truly myself, I must not seek a mate. For with one, I am neglected and lonely. If I am on my own, at least I get to keep who I am and have my freedom.
What is your story?” she queried. “Do gargoyles have much better luck in loving?”
Counseling Gaps
How do we process to completion the charge of unresolved feelings and emotions without imposing them upon one another?
The Long Haul
As she withdrew further from external societal interactions, she acknowledged that she was weary from being responsible for everything on her own, yet her children were now of an age where she began to have more freedom.
Introversion
She thought that perhaps if she retreated inward with accelerated velocity, she might come out in an entirely different direction with a refreshed perspective.
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