Candid Corvid Productions

Often a facade meant to hide pain.

It is better to be love-starved and alone, than to be in a relationship and still love-starved.

She always started slow and then could outpace the rest once she felt the rhythms of the event and how the others set their paces.

But she turned suddenly from the track, resolute that this race was not one that she was going to finish.

I must be careful about what I form attachments to as I am striving to reach new heights.

That’s it – right there:

I “do not appear to exist.”

Meaning, I am either “just passing through this universe.”

It could also mean that I am “not easily perceived” for my truth of existence.

Or how about most importantly: I am not on this planet to merely exist and do nothing!

My aspirations make a much better story.

The tale of an impish spirit that phased through walls of conformity to prove that love and will’s good intentions are capable of overcoming all obstacles.

It doesn’t need to matter if there is no one to receive or appreciate me.

We must all rise to our own challenges and be our greatest cheerleader.

Just because something mattered at another time does not mean that it still matters today.

Unless someone has a vested interest.

After a lifetime of hiding, it is a delicate process to gain confidence in revealing one’s self – even to one’s self.

Everyone has their own opinions on how their lives should unfold.

I guess mine involves circumnavigating the “fabrics of ‘foundation.'”

A question and an answer:

“A sentence in the Enigma song Rivers of Belief goes as follows:

‘And when the Lamb opened the seventh seal,
Silence covered the sky.’

There is a Biblical reference here. But I would like to know, what is the meaning of the line and what does the line imply?”

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“The lines are an allusion to the Book of Revelations, more specifically the end of chapter 7 and the beginning of chapter 8:

[Chapter 7: 17] For the Lamb which is in the midst of the throne shall feed them, and shall lead them unto living fountains of waters: and God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes.
[Chapter 8: 1] And when he had opened the seventh seal, there was silence in heaven about the space of half an hour.
[2] And I saw the seven angels which stood before God; and to them were given seven trumpets.
[3] And another angel came and stood at the altar, having a golden censer; and there was given unto him much incense, that he should offer it with the prayers of all saints upon the golden altar which was before the throne.

(See BibleHub.com for alternative translations of Revelations 8:1.)

The song title “Rivers of Belief” refers to the role that rivers, sometimes sacred rivers, play in some religions. For example, Jesus was baptised in the river Jordan. For Hindus, the Ganges and the Yamuna are sacred rivers in India. While the song almost literally quotes the Bible, the line “I will return” can also be read as an allusion to reincarnation, which is a belief in Hinduism (among other religions).

The meaning of the seventh seal and the silence that follows its opening is a matter of Biblical hermeneutics. The Wikipedia article about the seven seals, for example, summarises five views: the preterist view, the historicist view, the futurist view, the idealist view and the Mormon view. The answers to the question In Revelation 8:1 does opening the seventh seal do anything? on Biblical Hermeneutics Stack Exchange present an additional set of interpretations. It seems that the meaning of that line remains open to debate.”

https://literature.stackexchange.com/questions/15794/meaning-of-lines-about-the-lamb-in-the-enigma-song-rivers-of-belief

Belief was one thing that I had.

Did the Angels thus value me for it?

It must have served me well, though desired outcomes failed.

I still feel that all we wanted could have succeeded, had he and I collaborated.

But it couldn’t be helped when his intentions worked to counteract.

He just…didn’t want it.

There was longing in his voice as he sighed out her name – and a question – as she turned away down the pathway to her car where she could see its outline dimly lit in the late evening shadows.

Or had it been a request, thinly disquised?

Yet, cloaked it had been, which she could not then be certain of his feelings for her, so she dared not reengage to embrace him and become entangled.

Maybe “good enough” is actually enough.

I need to sell my old car to reduce bills, but I feel stuck in proceeding.

It was there for me through my attempts at recovering my life’s stream.

The year things began to disolve in my marriage, crows and hawks nested on our property and had their babies – a sure sign of blessing and welcome from nature’s community for our family.

But when one partner of a pair welcomes signs of hope, joy, and confirmation of prosperity while the other for whatever reason turns away from such positivity, their bond becomes destined for separation.

I think about certain opportunities and realize that time may be limited – therefore, I must make the best of them while I have gained access.

Much about this word tends to be attached to past associations, where a new opportunity meets some sort of reinforced bias.

It is hard for me to say that mine are enough.

At last, my neck will also be investigated.

I’d like to think that I am making progress…