(Tell Me Lies – Satin Jackets and Panama)
Quite Frankly
She didn’t know what to believe anymore.
Inside or out.
(After longterm strain of maintaining)
Hee Hee Hee!
“Reading another ‘love message,’ it definitely was not meant for me because it got two out of three aspects about me very wrong.
Though I value it, I do not cook much – and definitely bomb or ‘corrupt’ the original recipes’ intentions with some serious additional skew.
And, though I’d like my house to be clean, achieving such accomplishment lasts maybe half of a day before it again succumbs to the ravages of engulfing entropy.
Therefore, my efforts must be conserved and targeted.”
Retractioms
She did not like causing people pain, even though she was in pain.
Literally
So much remains to be seen.
Disconnected Frequencies
Maybe there were just limits in her injured capacities to hold open a door and risk at any given time.
Sudden Flare
When she’d left the gathering’s ensmble to recallibrate and get some fresh air, she paused outside and realized that she was in a state of physio and psychological shock.
She didn’t know why…he didn’t follow…so she retreated to her solace full of emptiness and bleak despair.
Circling
She hadn’t approached because she’d been cognizant of social and group dynamics.
Propensities
She couldn’t trust the “easy ones,” anyway.
Self Regulation
Imbalance is imbalance.
Sensory Deprivation
The one had stayed out of reach of her senses, so why should she trust that he cared for her?
Especially since this behavior caused her to overreach her capacities to bridge to him?
How was this showing care for her in her wounded and needful state?
Comparative Sharing
She was now cold in the classroom without her favorite, soft, and insulative sweater jacket.
But she knew that she was not as cold as the woman curled up on the concrete had been.
Time Bumpers
Time constraints to help keep m8ving through system, pushes toward commitment and confudence creator – even though initially feels restrictive.
(An instructors guidance)
Creating A Frame Of Reference
So that you feel like you are “participating together.”
(Therapist approach to help assist another’s system, and which can apply to personal connection relationships)
People On The Street
They don’t have safe places to go and receive the care and support that they need, nor true assessment and resources for rehabilitating their abilities.
Strangers
“I don’t know you.”
Temporal Issues
“I have difficulty getting anywhere ‘on time.”
(The clock and brain injury)
The Difference
“How we treat each other while ‘playing the game.'”
Basically,
It had become clear that she caught up in a game, afterall.
3rd Person
How can tears fall without expression of emotion?
The body knows.
It expresses the soul’s hidden traces.
(Title of multiple meanings)
Goopy Tears
She had thought that her eyes were just watering.
Something Real
To have and to hold.
Faded Anniversary
She couldn’t even remember the day’s numeric, anymore.
Only that it had seemed to be chosen because it was close to Valentine’s Day and her birthday.
A tidy bundle of dates clustered together in a nice, neat package that he could easily ignore and get away with as a repeated blip in his memory’s system.
Oops, so sorry about that…
But once passed, there’s no going back, right?
So the rest of the year, he’d be ‘home free’ to continue his tireless rejection of her.
Gen X Channel Surfing
Any Childhood Anxiety?
Non
“Apparently, no wine for me.
Not even the smallest amount.”
(Won’t Give Up – Pattie Gonia, Yo-Yo Ma & Quinn Christopherson)
Back Tracking
Retreating to an aloof distance carried her own paws away from extreme confusion.
(Alone Again – Dokken)
Alone, Again
What good if gods love some one
When they don’t show their face?
What warmth soaks into bones
Without connection’s embrace?
When Encountering Illusions
It is often best to follow one’s instincts.
(Lost In The Woods – Elderbrook & Adriatic)
Thai Coconut Pancakes
“Pretty good warmed up (do not eat cold – ew!), but waiting now to see how system digests them.
Trader Joe’s had them in their frozen desert section.”
(Like That – Doja Cat Ft. Gucci Mane)
(Have You Considered – Pattie Gonia, Imogen Heap and BANDALOOP)
“Mutual Attraction”
“Vibes”
(Send the Pain Below – Chevelle)
Sauna
She had searched for some place to go and get a good bone bake, but every place around was too expensive.
Love’s Restraint
No…
She would not disrupt the collective to get what she personally needed.
Social Bigomy
“‘I have this person, but I want you, too.
Don’t you feel excited, flattered, and important?'”
(How Sweet It Is [To Be Loved By You]· James Taylor)
My Love,
Sometimes, I delay my speaking to ensure your safe passage.
Lashback
“Hm…
Even my arms are turning purple, today.
Penitence for having fun, ‘for once.'”
(Even In Arcadia – Sleep Token)
Ooow-oo
Getting up and trying to stand – let alone, walk.
Momentum’s Weight
“Nooo – I liked that pillow!”
(Accidently hurling it over and off of the side of the bed and onto the floor as turning to rise and get ready for the day)
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