Naughty Nibbles
“Incoming”
A Quick Fix
Maybe if she got some draino?
Almost 6 AM
She still could not find her pass to sleep.
Air Flow
Having cycled the bedroom’s air, she turned off the fan in hopes that it would reduce the toxic gas infiltration, so that she could close the door to the rest of the house’s overstim.
Braugh
Opening her bedroom door to the rest of the house’s smells that were foreign to her standard of normalcy at least changed the air composition – though greatly distracting to her heightened insomniac sensitivities.
Toxins
She knew that her muscles’ new pain was due to some version of this.
Fog Layers
She couldn’t even open a window for fresh air due to others’ fireplace emissions.
The Great Squeeze
Never stopped, always advanced, beyond tolerances…what exactly was the purpose?
Without Recourse
She could smell that the sewage line was having issues, as the smell had permeated her bedroom for the last week – but she could not ask the landlord to attend to it.
Corrosion
How can one tell if the hull of a ship’s integrity is solid for sailing and sea worthy?
She Had To (Fly Away – Lenny Kravitz)
It Was Insane
In a town once called “home,” a woman who had helped wreck another’s home let herself decline, became homeless, and slept in public drunk – and even showed up to the other woman’s place of work for services – constantly shoving into the face of the woman that she had injured how little harming another family’s stability had meant to her by her phases of self absorption.
(Ramon – Laurie Anderson)
Cat & Hawk
Would It?
“Gain me anything to allow myself to feel resentful?”
Variances
Random things
Random events
They keep saying
We should be linear
And Then,
A piece of chocolate fell on her leg.
Why Do I Do It?
Maybe I’m not a unicorn, at all
But something else – entirely
None Of It
Was easy for her.
A Vicious Cycle
She had to stop the injuries from preventing her making income.
Immediately.
Respect
She had to defer to his timing preferences
For she knew nothing of his circumstances
“Lunar Gate”
Drama Trauma
Those who adapt to bypass survive.
My Love,
How about if we spend the rest of our lives finding ways to prove our love to each other, but start by just bridging the barrier between us with a hug?
Word Of The Day: Chelicerae
“Jaws”
sheh·luh·see·ray
“Bathroom Hunter”
No! You Get Hard Cheese! (Missing An Angel – Pacific Cool)
Honest Communication
“Is it reallly so passe?
Full Disclosure (How Is This Not Manipulation?)
The Von Trapp Villa – But ASMR
(The Dreams I Give To You – A Gentle Celtic Lullaby)
Hon, Dearest, Baby
Translation = Be Mine
Baby,
I need clear “go” signals.
I guess I am still very unsure that you want me.
I mean, you have the pick from so, so many.
Just because we’ve been so close, this does not give me permission to reach out to touch and claim you like I want to.
I need your direct consent and invitation.
I need to know we want the same things.
Dearest,
I am used to surviving by making myself scarce and flighty around strangers.
If you keep acting like one, this mode in me is getting reinforced toward you because I can’t afford to let down my guard without safety in uncertain environments.
I don’t want to treat you as a stramger.
I need you to change your behavior toward me so that we can bridge into connection.
Hon,
I don’t understand.
You’re not coming up to me recreates my lockdown possom mode, and not knowing when to expect you leaves me searching in uncertainty, leaking precious energy.
I need to self regulate out of these modes.
Please come up to me or call me by phone.
Love Is Love
Love is love
Is love is love
But I need love
Inside my blood
The heat of hope
Pulsing with trust
Two bodies close
Becomes a must
Repeat Cycles
“How did I get myself into another distance, unavailable relationship?
This status is nontenable.”
Driven To Extraction
Schloomping one’s essential being out of one sticky situation, to arrive into next moments of pause – quivering and taking stock.
Word Of The Day: Dolorous
Productivity =
A long day.
We Are All Now (Canary[ies] In A Coalmine – The Police)
S.O.S.
“Please send positive reinforcements.”
To Their Own Demise
“We know now that they have gone insane, as they destroy us and everything that functions.”
Love’s Intelligence
“There are definitely forces against it.”
So ApraPo (I Can’t Wait – Nu Shooz)
8th Year Anniversary
“As of yesterday, since I signed up for my WordPress account.
Is there gluten-free cake?”
(Background horns blaring Bah-BaH-BAAA-AAHHH!)
And Now..!
“Here is an ‘exciting’ ad for something that you can’t afford!
So get on the treadmill!
To acquire – and acquire MORE!”
(Background horns blaring Bah-BaH-BAAA-AAHHH!)
Welcome To “Love Messages”
“A place where you can lose your mind in fantasy.”
