A Woman's Plight, Male Bonding

Love’s Honesty In Courtship

“There are certain moves they say that a woman must make in order to capture a desired man’s interest.

Or rather, moves to not make – which result in a retraction of energy that ‘keeps one’s cards close to chest’ to ‘retain one’s attraction, one’s power,’ etc.

For example, creating a song with an honestly-motived declaration of love is considered these days to be ‘so passe,’ they’d say – and surely would cause any man to run toward the opposite direction!

Right?

‘Of course…’

Instead, one should withdraw and be mysterious – one should never display true, open-hearted glimpses of one’s intentions!

This means that if I display any giving of myself freely, doing so will set up the impression that I am ‘easy to access’ – and then no man will see me as rare and desireable and that I am the best of all prizes.

Well, as my Dear Friend has unfortunately had to experience first hand, it turns out that despite what I display, I am not, in fact, so easy to access – despite any accidental impressions given.

(I am so sorry for our misunderstanding, my Still Desired…)

And, anyway – there is a huge logic fault to this kind of ‘withholding’ thinking.

Though these ‘strategies’ may work as a type of manipulation, they create broken lines of communication and prevent creating solid connection congruency.

It is true that my path has been extremely solitary – and maybe it is because I actually intentionally don’t play courtship games.

Honestly, I do not understand most of them.

I mean, why don’t people just communicate, directly?

Where is there security that two people are even on the ‘same page?’

And while I can observe some thrilling results from them, playing games is not something that has ever come easy nor automatically to me.

Maybe this is from retained hypervigilance after having repeatedly experienced multiple and varital types of social trauma?

Yet, more likely, it is because I have always had a preset of highly valuing honesty.

This predisposition naturally blocks gaming requirements of being able to easily slide into behaviors of ‘subterfuge’ in the name of outwitting competitors.

However…

I would like to learn some games to play that make courtship with My Desired plenty hot and spicey – don’t get me wrong!

Absolutely!

Sign me up and count me in!

But I’d prefer to have us clearly predefine the games’ rules and parameters to ensure that we can avoid any accidental harm or misunderstandings, and so that maximum mutual fun and benefits could be gained for our happy experiences.

(‘Stand under the stained-glass and I will know it’s you…’ – Sleep Token)

Honestly, I just prefer to be me – vulnerably daring – even if desiring someone openly ends up causing derision from society.

I believe that love and courtship are so much more fun when both partners feel how much they are loved and wanted from each other – and games played have outcomes providing mutual satisfaction winning.”

A Man's Journey, A Woman's Plight, Songs, Where Demons Tread

“My Love For Thee” (Song)

“My Love For Thee” By Athena Stairs
Original 11/11/25 – Updated 12/2/25

Sing to me, my King of Hearts
Of the garden in your dreams

What treasure does it hold and
What pleasures will it bring?

Sing to me, my Dearest Heart
Where you’ll want to grow your roses

For I would build you a castle
Built on hope’s foundations

Where I would hear your laughter
In halls and among fountains

And if tears were cried – they’d be of Joy
As we nourish love’s horizons

Sing to me my Beloved One
Of your greatest aspirations

For I would see your happiness
Grow wings and soar through Heaven

For as Knight you earned your honor
With battles’ proven mettle

And all I’ve ever wanted is
To give your heart a home

(Please contact me for permissions)

Listen to My Love For Thee – Song Final Rough 12.3.25.m4a by Candid Corvid Productions on #SoundCloud
https://on.soundcloud.com/O43zuOlhu7R1Tj1t59

Altered States, The Shower Accident 11/14/25

Making A Simple Chart

“I am on my 4th rough draft now because it’s all about placement of identification symbols – which identifying symbols (letters, shapes, icons, and associations) has been the main issue of my prior brain injury – now combined with blocked interpretive cognition from the concussion, as well as slight tremoring when trying to access fine to large motor skills.

I can literally feel my brain quivering from the normally minor strain of just trying to draw line measures straight, and then penning the symbols in proper spaces tries to for some reason bounce me around in tiny spacing.

Not sure how much I should be pushing to achieve progress, but how else can I regain anything?!”

Altered States, The Shower Accident 11/14/25

The Struggle

“Regarding school by itself, I am trying to catch up with 70% completed by the 10th to gain an ‘Incomplete’ on both classes, which would allow me to gain an extension.

But my cognitive decoding of instructions, tasks, and then applications has slowed down to a third of what I had with prior brain injury.

I do not know if I can accomplush any of this seemingly simple sequential step-taking.

Just working on one assignment – granted, at 2:30am now in the morning – is straining my concussion.

But during the day, I am dealing with navigating phone calls, appointments, and searching for more survival resources.

And, I need help to decode and identify what my software applications class is asking functionally – which has been delayed all quarter even before the shower accident.

Yes, this is why I come here…

To have some belief that I am still capable.”