“I had not realized until now why I had developed food insecurity and aversion to cleaning dishes since we arrived in State.
It was becauss we had just come from an extreme power abuse situation living with an ex-family member where this matriarch terrorized us whenever we tried to use the kitchen.
I remember that to avoid her wrath, I had to keep our lovely dishes that got used out in the side yard, where they were rained on and got filled with mold and maggots.
I had to wait for when she rarely left the house and then tackle-clean the horrendous mess – and this also explains why my kid later had aversion to helping me with our dishes.
Further, to avoid the woman’s attempts to control, manipulate, chastise, and belittle, I stopped desiring or needing to cook and barely ate anything.
It has taken seven years for the trauma to begin releasing so that I can see it clearly.”
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