I remember testing high in elementary school repeatedly from early to later grades, aching to be transferred to Gate classes in a new school for learning advanced knowledge.
But when students qualified, the teachers at my school were then allowed to pick who could go – and when I asked them hopefully each time, they would frown at me and belittle my intelligence, telling me that I was clearly not as intelligent as my test scores showed because I did not do well at extroverted chalkboard performance.
This was due to shutdown from extreme social shyness in groups/public under pressure settings, which they refused to acknowledge as valid.
Between this and abuses in life at that time, it’s no wonder I have always struggled with not feeling good enough for society.
Therefore, I heartily recommend choosing one’s own life path to measurable success by innovative self employment and paid project involvements.
For me, contracting with one client or small group at a time is still proving to be my best and only reliable fallback for income generation.
When I am able to perform the skills.
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