Alex (An Ideal), The Accident - As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named "Clyde" (Short For Collide) Because It's Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense

Dear Alex,

“I am discouraged, though, that numbness is spreading and becoming more prevalent down my arms.

Maybe it’s because of the increased pushing to survive that I’ve been doing.

Stopping my work did not bring more rest.

Rather, I’ve been launched into more intensity struggles against the injuries.”

Alex (An Ideal), The Accident - As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named "Clyde" (Short For Collide) Because It's Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense

Dear Alex,

“I tried a new anti-inflammatory yesterday, and despite its tranking my brain, it actually interrupted the throbbing pain in my spine!

But I am not sure that I should rely on it – become dependent.

And the haggard lines on my face today…are they from the med messing with me?

Or is this what’s hiding underneath the facade of endurance, and relief from the med allows this to come through?”

A Woman's Plight

Freeze, Fight, Or Flight

“When I get squeezed, at some point my energy shifts from ‘taking hits’ into blazing fire in order to fight back and counteract the freeze shutdown trying to take over in response to my being’s needing safety.

It takes a lot to get this heat in me going to break through lockdown barriers, so then I optimize by utilizing the momentum to gain clarity and burn through illusion’s limitations.

Most of the time, disengaging to run away doesn’t seem like it’s an option.”