I do not know what I can do to bring you closer to me.
But then, it isn’t up to me – is it?
I do not know what I can do to bring you closer to me.
But then, it isn’t up to me – is it?
I get an hour or so’s rest before I must continue…
Hugs.
Pack and clean.
Repeat.
“In coordination is getting better.”
“‘Cause foggy glasses are good…”
Sometimes I get mad…
Because you have not been here in the flesh, helping me.
But I try to not take it personally.
“Another migraine brewing.
Everything aches.
And I can’t think straight.”
Today was the last day whereby she could attempt despite injuries to leave a final good impression in gratitude.
“But I knew that it was neither of our faults what stress had brought upon me.
It seemed, as well, that I had developed a type of phobia.
I was afraid to let him touch ground outside of his cattery.
The longterm pressures of the potential danger of the unknown reactions of the other dogs, and the insane amount of mess in layers that their cohabitance had created, had disrupted and arrested my recovery’s development.
I lamented to my youngest about needing to give him up because I needed to reclaim my rightful rule of the upper levels where music papers, plants, and crystals were desired to be my vices.
And then, while I was shadowed by phone call – and even with sense of malaise still pervading – I suddenly released him.
And he spritely popped out with his jaunty positivity – and then ran around joyfully, audaciously reclaiming every memory as he inspected what remained of our former domecility.
The now layers of muddy paw and shoe prints still everywhere waiting to be mopped a final time….
The echoes in a near-emptied building – yet still warmed by the cheerfully-flickering fireplace, around which the four of us had gathered in solidarity to support our beloved blue girl as she was leaving.
My heartbeat…
Our rhythm…
Began to thrum again…
Despite the lack of thaw as winter’s frost upon my soul retains its clinging.
In the first dream, she found his traces.
But the message come back to her said wait a year.
And she was much aggrieved.
In the second dream, she came upon him in a nondescript setting doing his thing.
“Who is that?” she asked of one of the cafe’s participants.
“Don’t you know?” answered a relaxed fellow, now including her as an insider.
And she was then certain that her love had walked behind a curtain into a hall.
And her hand trembled just a little as she reached out to part the cloth and reveal its contents.
He didn’t look like a presupposition of any type except for his height.
Because she still did not know what he looked like.
But the elements were there…
So she took his hand, ready to bridge into mutual guidance.
I feel so tired…
I imagine you do, too.
I look forward to being with you.
Goodnight, Love.
A Day…
She could only take with her what she could carry emotionally.
“Is that what I’m supposed to do?
Just keep holding ground…
No matter the slippage?”
Beautiful soul.
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And let me in.
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(Sleep Token reference)
Please come be with me.
Remember I said we do not need perfection?
Grow with me.
Our gains will come with time.
Please don’t let any more seconds keep us from being with each other.
I miss you.
I need you.
I want to learn with you how to overcome our fears while we grow stronger together.
I found a place to go to.
I am blessed with a new way to start.
“I don’t know for sure…
But when I just had a cat, things were different.
Now that I have dogs, they are more dependant.
But once they are walked, they will laze on the floor.
And the simplicity of this exchange makes me feel resentment when getting yowled at because a cat is bored.
Which then implies that the cat must also be ‘run.’
But getting his stroller in and out of the house is a real chore.”
My Darling.
It began to rain…
Nobody moves me like you do.
“It’s a harsh experience to be used up, taken for granted, and left to flounder without resources.”
“There is an extreme zone of dizzyness activated when I turn my neck a certain way.”