Author: Candid Corvid Productions
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I Don’t Know How
I will accomplish what I plan to do.
Fizzled
From a 4 hour assessment.
(Boogie Shoes – KC & The Sunshine Band ft. Soul Train Dancers)
Setbacks
I tried doing a little therapy on a loved one this evening and found that I am still too injured and destabilized, which remains alarming.
I mean, it makes sense how I was injured – because I was the one in the accident.
But I have never heard of such injuries being acquired or experienced in the ways that have happened to me.
(I’ve Never Been To Me – Charlene)
Re: Acting
It ssems focused upon emulating someone or thing one is not, whereas, I am currently focusing upon being myself entirely – which may or may not include aspects of acting.
Trailblazing
So the acting instructor and I spoke for a while, and I just brought up my demographic for the moment.
And he was…
He later commented that in the movie industry, you know I would only get cast if I had the role of fifty-two year old housewife, for example, when he was talking about the difficulties of gaining an acting part.
But I wanted to say to him, was like, “Do I look like your typical fifty-two year old housewife? Because (laughing) I’d be really surprised if I do!
(Mirthfully) I think I probably look more like a frazzled, imp-ish, go-getter under extreme anxiety trying to figure out which direction to go.
And I really don’t fit any particular category other than that of somebody forging their own path.
Tissaia: The Price Of Chaos
“One of the first things we learn about Chaos is that it always has consequences. There is a cost to this magic. And eventually, we all must pay. It is not a gift. It is a trade. And often, that trade leads us to dark places. But there are always bright spots.”
The Witcher, Netflx
Cajolery
“I am Chaos in denial, constantly re-experiencing itself.”
Manifestation
Sometimes technology has advanced enough so that one does not have to “reinvent the wheel.”
The Break Down
Maintaining some form of control in my life’s activities has been ever necessary.
But in order to become something more than before, deconstruction’s meltdown is necessary.
Trajectories
How do I become more dynamic and expansive in flights while ensuring my loved ones flourish?
Evening Tea Leaf
The Cost Of Therapy
I do not think that offering healing should have to have the burden of needing to make money in return for services in order for the provider to survive placed upon the transaction.
Perhaps a stipend could be provided to those of alternative healing arts to encourage expansion.
(Moment II – Mome ft. Ricky Ducati & Goldwash, Los Angeles Live)
The Work Of Capitalism
In my parent’s generation, they could work only part-time and still meat housing and survival payments easily.
This ratio needs to be restored so that citizens of society may invest in and capitalize upon discovering and contributing creativity and solutions to present day and future “crisis.”
Here, I have used the word “capitalize.”
It is time to give “capitalism” a new definition – one as a hallmark of true re-evolution ushering in prosperity for all under nourishimg governance.
Of vourse, there will be aspects to work out and shore up for any particular system to work – and I am not saying that all sovieties should adopt this.
But where Capitalism has cause harm to “The Commons,” it should be adjusted for reparations and a more inclusive vision.
Type
Creative and unavailable.
The Maiden And The Wind: Polar Opposition [2]
When she analyzed data, the last time she’d had a vital partner was in the year of 1994’s accident.
It seemed no matter what she did, her life was playing out scenarios she had no control over.
She could only attempt to redirect their spin.
(Alien Hip Hop – Nili Brosh ft. Virgil Donati
The Language Barrier
Are there only so many things to say
And only so many ways to say them
That everything is prewritten as script and
We merely choose the roles we’re playing?
(Song Of Mirrors – Unicorn Heads)
The Weary
After adrenaline leaves the system
Jagged with pain coming through,
One’s being considers for a moment
If there’s anything in life left to do
For what can be more important
Than ensuring the family is safe?
As fight or flight leaves the system
Then are felt losses in heartbreak.
Movie Pick: A Match Made In Heaven
A witty, heartfelt tearjerker.
Right Down The Line
Sometimes it feels strange, playing this role of an injured person on the road to healing recovery.
I must make the person I am become real, as Pinoccio, himself, went from wooden to human.
“Communion”
Authenticity
When we are young and innocent, we reach for maturity, and as we mature, we again reach for our youth’s innocence.
If two people can bridge across the gap between human beings and find connection, this is worthwhile in pursuing – regardless of what stage in our growth and development we find ourselves in.
It’s kindred of spirit; congruency in beliefs; shared heart connections; and intentions that matter the most above any other external divestments.
(The above references relationship between two consenting adults.)
“Melted Pupsicles”
“Back to Back”
(Fire And Ice – Pat Benatar)
Fire And Ice
I am angry at the majority of acclaimed males of my species preferring younger females, and I am angry at the younger females thinking that they have a right to propagate male attentions away from more appropriate age ranges of matching maturities.
This fantasy indulgence robs generations of actual bonding within marriages and collaborative cohesion within families.
When I had to become a real woman as life presented harsh difficulties to be overcome, I ended up having to carry most of the burdens.
Later, I was projected upon and discarded because, as a result, I developed my own voice and opinions and grew into a more well-balanced human being,
In effect, because I evolved, I was then seen as flawed, faulty, and no longer desireable to male fantasy.
I have seen this pattern repeated excessively all around the world, externally.
The message being, if a real woman wants love and commitment, she is “out of luck” because she no longer qualifues for matching up with male “pubescent” fantasy in her maturity.
And even if the diminished role of a woman is maintained, males are still unsatisfied, for then the woman is no longer “the prize” once she is acquired, and men get “fat and high” off their overindulged senses of self entitlement.
Having already been granted “the king’s bounty,” they then turn to other pursuits in their gluttony.
Males are still not expected to face their own weaknesses and flaws in relationship building, and therefore, they are still not held accountable for their behaviors and the negative impacts they continue having on our ever-rifting societies due to their skewed partner selection processes and infidelities.
Male Ego
The fact that many men continue to prefer and pursue “unjaded innocence” and “perfection” of beauty in a female is an insult to women who have proven their worth, bear the scars of real world survival, and more deserve the regard of mutual admiration.
In The Trenches
We fight back a lot of insecurities.
Vitual Reality: Engagement [2]
“What happened – how did it all fall apart?” he offered.
“Do you really want to know? Or are you just being polite to help me feel comfortable?” she inquired, wanting to better understand his interests and intentions.
Grounded
A bird unable to use her wings properly is a sad thing. Thank goodness for technology!
Going With The Flow
(Dreaming – Blondie)
Moral Ambiguity
To what lengths and levels are within tolerances?
Testimony
She was raised in a land of ignorance and trees.
They cut down the trees.
(Pieces – Rob Thomas)
Explorations: The Polyvagal Theory
The polyvagal theory proposes that the evolution of the mammalian autonomic nervous system provides the neurophysiological substrates for adaptive behavioral strategies. It further proposes that physiological state limits the range of behavior and psychological experience.
Youngling’s Feedback
“Thou hast translated a slow-panning camera scene into writing.
Well done!”
Virtual Reality: An Evening Out [1]
A wall-mounted, dark green glowing lamp anchored low, surrounded by a sea of deepening purple which phased by degrees of furthering shadows into the adjoining alcove where a broad-shouldered man sat hunkered in front of a dark-moded monitor.
Buzz of electricity faintly hummed when the CPU’s fan occasionally switched on – then off again as the man’s only movements were to shift slightly, adjust his glasses, and laugh softly with pleased mirth in response to the screen’s activities.
Dreamstate
It had happened again, this feeling of half-lidded shutters enveloping the upper part of her brain.
Was it dopamine flooding? Or pure associative memory sparking arcs?
Drunk on a walking hallucination, imagination’s entrancement ached to let her break wild.
Janelle Monae & Production Team Explains Making Of “BaBopByeYa”
(BsBopByeYa – Janelle Monae)
She Had
An air of independent composure.
(School – Supertramp, 1974)
Nature Vs. Nurture
I remember the song, “Down On The Corner” by Creedence Clearwater Revival, as one of the compositions explored in a music class that I had in elementary school.
I was so excited to have the highly emotionally intelligent female instructor deconstruct it for us and give us parts, as I thought that at last I had found a suitable mentor.
And then I was extremely crushed when she looked at me and wrongly assessed that I had no talent because I did not come pre-packaged and pre-approved as a child from a rich family.
Perhaps the mental blocks I have experienced in my life are not from some undiagnosed clinical mental retardation condition, afterall – as had been repeatedly asserted by “adults” and “peers” alike throughout my formative years.
“You’re just stupid, Athena. Not worth our time.”
Perhaps it is just remnant sludge-programming from all of those who pushed and shoved at me as they jostled for societal status while vying for their own worth-proving.
“If you crush others on your way to the top, then you have less competition to get there” – right?
I also remember the profile photographer in elementary school, and then later, the orthodontist in middle school in an entirely different part of the state both telling me with judgemental disgust that my face was flat.
As if this was a flaw and hideous.
Note that an owl’s face is shaped similarly to fascilitate its ability to gather sensorial data.
And, the goddess Athena’s totem is an owl, so I am proud of having both her name and her totem’s abilities to degrees.
Jane Eyre (A&E Movie): Discussing Love
“Have you ever been jealous, Jane?” Edward asked.
“No, Sir,” she replied.
“I thought as much, because you have never felt love.
Your soul sleeps.
But there will come a day when you find yourself totally helpless…a fragile wreck in a storm of emotion.”
“You make love sound unpleasant,” Jane countered.
“It is all consuming.
And when it is reciprocated, it brings the greatest pleasure.
And I do believe we all have a right to get some pleasure from this life – don’t you?” Edward asserted.
