She had a tendency to see through insignificance and catch the sense of what was of main importance.
Author: Candid Corvid Productions
- Creative Creations for Clever Minds! -
Stages Of Being
It wasn’t that she needed to learn any of the major lessons – for she was a quick study and automatically intuited a great deal of what was important.
Rather, it was that she needed to allow herself to go through the process of experiencing being human, and wait for others’ abilities to catch up to her’s.
The Crutch
Self-preservation by self-protection in pushing away while scoffing to create distance.
Nerve Pinch Rebellion
I will go lift my arms high to fashion the netting enclosure over the cattery, and pull around heavy soil pots to rearrange my garden.
If I am going to hurt – let it be for good reason!
(And then I will stretch-repair in the gym – Ha!)
No More Work!
Though accused
As I shirk the work
To decrease nerve pinch as
Hitch my ride away from it,
I just can’t afford
To care anymore
As seek relief
Long hidden
From abuse to
Body unbidden.
Crossed Wires: Paperwork And Needs
Waking up this morning feeling emotionally flat and tired – just too heavy in spirit – was not my ideal way of greeting the New Year.
Likely due to nerve pinching and compression (possibly also after-effects of impact concussion now entering phase of brain disruption’s recallibrating), I am way too sensitive to opposites and opposition being today’s thematics.
The stack of unappealing paperwork looms for this first week of New Year’s ushering.
No amount of benefit promised on the tail end can coax me forward to begin it.
My diet is also disrupted due to prepping for more upcoming procedures.
And meanwhile, my hound has increased bombarding me with psychic disatisfaction as she hunkers and cowers because she knows she is being naughty for trying to manipulate me.
She has increased this mostly when I am food prepping. If she had an endurant delectable to chew, she would be distracted.
But she too quickly blows through everything food-based with an expectant attitude of “keep it coming,” and a meaty bone would get grease all over the carpet.
She is resisting our usual understanding and trying to push me to point of negative attention.
But, I do not want her to be the catalyst to my exploding, which would just reinforce her behavior and make me feel worse.
I am not ok right now.
I need reassurances, not incessant overstimming – especially with extreme groveling because she wants to show her submission while leveraging.
Her bahavior is giving me a complex like I’m an evil overlord denying her – and extremely vexes.
Feck.
Is this succumbing to depression?
To be just so drained from managing pain that I don’t want to deal with certain things, anymore?
Pain And Suffering
These things are relative.
It’s what we choose to do despite them that makes us stronger.
Now, where’s my medication?
Ha!
😀
(Another Lonely Night – Adam Lambert)
A Pile Of Paperwork
At least I have figured out a major culprit of my winter sudden depression: applications, etc., on the front end for possible rewards down the line.
(Sweet Disposition – The Temper Trap)
It’s Only Fair
She’d held on through the years, regardless of stress or pressures, to ensure some kind of stability for her children to push off from.
At this point, perhaps, her breaking down and fragmenting was long overdue.
(Your Side Of Town – The Killers)
A lovely blend sounding of New Order’s “Truth Faith,” Daft Punk’s “Instant Crush,” and something more.
The Maiden And The Wind: Game On [3]
“This is what I do!” she countered in her defense, wary now and being sure to mask the truth.
The Maiden And The Wind: Rebirth [2]
“Do you expect that I owe you for remembering me and keeping the light burning?!” he demanded, ethereal coattails swirling in this sudden rush of emotion.
The Raptor And The Gargoyle: Fatal Flaws [11]
“I know that gargoyles don’t migrate – and that you are by nature as a species, categorically stubborn. But I also sense that you have always craved something more than this mere existence has provided,” she coaxed.
The Maiden And The Wind: Vigil [1]
Through the years and every season, she kept a lantern burning for him so that he could return.
The Raptor And The Gargoyle: Expansion [10]
“Have you considered migrating?” she suggested. “Sometimes it is better to start out fresh in new fields, rather than to be pidgeon-holed by what is “known.”
Out And About
It is nice to take the hounds for a drive from time to time because I want to, rather than because I have to.
(Abebbe – Acid Pauli, Sainte Vie Remix)
Thematics
(The Day I Tried To Live – Soundgarden)
Love Torn
Sometimes a wound must be cauterized – and then ignored – to be given space and time to heal.
Capability
To fly without hindrance
Where will’s heart flows
Along varying currents
Flavor of whim’s soul.
More Than This
What defined her could not be as yet defined.
Of An Age
She had fought against the conclusion that she should abstain from men.
“Zephyrus Blowing”
See his face above his cloud breath?
“Panther Moon”
“Two Ravens”
Acting
How does one know that how they are performing is “good?”
(Tell Your Heart To Beat Again – Danny Gokey)
Looking Back
She was more dynamic and hungry than he was.
Therefore, the kids and she were likely destined to fly the nest eventually, anyway.
Quite Frankly
She had not experienced a man wanting her for the “right” reasons.
It’s Funny
I keep expecting myself to get out of pain, although the impact happened only a few months ago.
Pragmatics
She surmised it was probably impracticle for her to be in a relationship now – and possibly, ever.
Her life kept shifting and rearranging along some evolving behind-the-scenes course, and she was required to be at its helm.
Aw, That’s Nice
“A 212 sighting when considering twin flames is a recognition of the true creative power a relationship can have in your life.”
https://www.cosmopolitan.com/lifestyle/a46000415/212-angel-number-meaning/
(Don’t Get Me Wrong – Matchbox Twenty)
“My Precious”
“Lord Of The Rings” reference.
“Space Pod”
“Astronaut”
“N.T.Iris”
From “The Abyss”
“The Flame”
“Berth”
“Dragonheart”
See the dragon made of darker clouds surrounding?
“Tidal Ink”
Zoom moon.
“Arakis”
Zoom center.
“Tsunami”
“I See You”
“The Pearl”
(Heartbroken – Diplo, Jesse Murph, & Polo 6)
(No pressure – lol!)
“What The -?!”
Aren’t we supposed to not “Touch The Piece?!”
(Quote reference: “The Lego Movie”)
