Author: Candid Corvid Productions

It took me being back home with my mom and her huge hounds to give a starting reboot to my prior associations.

It turns out that most of the guys she’d been attracted to had some variant of high-functioning Autism.

Yet, they had each been beautifully and physically coordinated with genius-level scientific and/or artistic external expressionism.

“It is a divine message from the angelic realm that means you are in perfect balance between your physical, mental, and spiritual well-being. It is a sign of success and that guidance is available to you if needed.”

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(“Joyful dumplings?!”)

Effects from the accident have disrupted my ability to physically perform my therapies.

(Title play with words)

The amount of work it takes to stop and repair financial and physical damage from an accident conscripts time and energy.

I must recreate a foundational matrix which is strong, yet flexible.

Starvation for a love hidden beyond any reason can make a woman turn inward upon herself and no longer trust her ability to discern truth from fantasy.

The more she examined this phenomenon, the more she was not sure that any future relationship would be healthy for her.

For all that she had encountered in male partnership so far had been direct or indirect thievery.

She knew that the love between them was there, but it had gone to ground and was hidden in his soul’s waters, barred to her access.

It wasn’t her fault, though she was prevented from mingling with them because he needed to protect his own identity.

Fragility makes a man want to close up and ward off any offers of trustworthy intimacy.

And because she knew this about his “condition,” shr felt bound to stay by his side, rather than leave and abandon him.

She didn’t realize that he was afraid of the strength of her spirit; by the conviction of her advocacy; and by the power of the love that she had for him and tried to show him.

A type of sinister corruption of similar powers had already been directed at him in childhood – and had nearly destroyed him.

The call of her heart and light of her vision were simply greater than he felt comfortable with.

But what he could offer was sardonic, joking, and critical cynicism – which was funny, but did not enhance her confidence in her abilities, nor make her feel loved and supported.

Nor wanted.

Nor cherished.

In fact, it had the inadvertent effect, as if a poison.

And her growth became contorted and convoluted.

Inspiration:
Master of Inspiration
Light to the World
Visionary

Recognition:
Leader
Warrior
Adventurer

Mastership:
Master Builder
Master Architect
Visionary

Partnership:
Peacemaker
Partner
Diplomat

Compassion:
Teacher of Teachers
Master of Compassion
Master of Healing

(www.corepassion.com)

“Give thanks for unknown blessings that are already on the way.”

When you smack a compass hard, does it reorient?

I will let these injuries provide access to deeper levels of healing.

I ask myself why I am so reactive, frustrated, and lashy privately, whereas I did not exhibit these emotions while visiting my parents recently.

Maybe it is because I was cocooned by their support temporarily. Being with them provided a respite and buffer for me to ease through shock.

Now, it is up to me to reclaim everything.

I do not currently consider myself fun to be around. Pain’s inflammation chases joy away.

(Title play with words)

IF an insurance company provides for a rental car after an accident, they do not cover the cost of insurance for the rental vehicle, and they do not cover the deposit required to pick up the vehicle.

So, if a person no longer has funds due to injuries from the accident preventing them from returning to work (= loss of income), that person is simply SOL.

We are both visionaries, sent to help humanity.

I am struggling to keep my island intact while helping the world from the inside-out as I can.

You already have your core base established, and thus, have a broader reach for positive influence.

The things that are the most difficult for me to deal with are not necessarily because they are difficult, but because in the past too much vexation has accumulated regarding my being repeatedly prevented from resolving them – and therefore, I now feel aversion from even trying.

Perhaps I should have left from the moment he first began distancing.

But life was different then: just emerging from the 80’s.

And I was very young, just learning to flex my wings.

If not the one(s) being “pushed,” there is only “freeze” or “flee” – unless primal urge to protect initiates.

It was the first time I had been catcalled since my early teens in the Silicon Valley.

I am used to there being some sort of driving force within me.

So when I looked inside today and felt nothing but neutrality, I began panicking and feeling my hopeful perspective plummet.