It’s your heart that I want…
Your mind.
Your soul.
Your body.
It’s your heart that I want…
Your mind.
Your soul.
Your body.
That look of pure adoration…
The kind of deep consideration that only her gaze could at last provide.
She didn’t understand how it could happen – having only past honestly hinted at something that could maybe come to fruition someday if it was truly wanted by him in the realms of by and by.
Yet, he didn’t know how to approach her.
What angle would be acceptable?
And she, never having before encountered such an exceptional option, was equally confused as to how to untangle the mystery that seemed to be wider than a mile.
Yes, she missed him.
Earnestly.
Passionately.
(Title of meanings)
“Resisting the urge to throw open wide the door when there is no knock upon it.”
The more distance she put in, the more she began running.
“What a year!”
“Two free lawn chairs, and $2.50 from bottle recycling.”
“Do not seem like the proper reward for efforts.”
“I can no longer ‘perform’ for you.”
For her entire life, she had needed and been open to him. But now in survival’s defense, she had little tolerance.
“She brought me an extra sock when I was putting on a pair and shoes.”
She thought that she had come to experience love – but then chose to give wherever she could, in its absence.
“One must never count cost when still in the thick of it.”
“My light in the darkness, guiding my way, as all that remains forms around her, directing my actions.”
(Broken pieces)
“Will we choose leaders who truly represent us?”
(Multiple meanings)
“You left me there to fend for myself.
You knew I was hurt.
I needed you.”
I saw the doe, and then one of her young, outside of my back door, in the riparian shadows, hiding.
A blessing and a welcome to a new home, confining.
At first, the little ones were cautious and careful when crossing the road, as their mother taught them to be.
And spring turned into the summer-into-fall’s truth of that location’s brutal reality.
I heard that one got hit.
And then, the remaining one’s mother.
I took some video of the youngster still not yet fully grown as it had come down between buildings one day, confused and uncertain of safety and where to go next.
A few weeks later, as I still waited to be granted my reprieve, I saw it, too, dead on the side of the road.
Light flickered next to its head like a glimmering eye, and I realized that someone had left an electric tea light candle to keep vigil to honor its passing.
Everything in me wanted to stop the car right then and there to pull its body from the road and hold it to my heart while rocking and carressing it.
To have been left alone to fend for itself, with no one to help or to guide it…
But instead, I pulled into the nearest parking lot and cried out in anguished sobbing.
The odds had been stacked hard against that beloved family.
it didn’t matter what they were, how precious and valuable, nor did it matter their rights to having their own safe haven.
“Of a Home.”
(*Twitch*)
“At first, this is all that matters when restabilizing.”
“It often seems that more effort beyond current capacities must be invested before what one truly needs can be worked toward and then dialed back into more sustainable efficiencies.”
“Are difficult to stand upon.”
“They’d let it go.”
“Too fun-ee – you got no mo-nee…”
(Title of multiple meanings)
“There were no traces – such as webs or the usual prey remnants normally left behind – of spiders or other bugs in the rooms where fumes concentrated.
And there were only the faintest traces of web in the front room where the air had been cleaner – despite the unit being next to a river and within a tall treed forested ecosystem.
“Redamancy.”
“In the churning, yearning, and burning of desire’s longing, one does not need to keep overextending.”
(Title of multipe meanings)
“Stepping out onto the path and reclaiming rights to one’s own sanity.”
“Only observation leaves much to be desired.”
“At first when starting over, the costs for simple restabilizing may be extraordinary.”
There were some corridors that she had to avoid these days in order to manage her emotions.
She had found her hinging point – a place to take an unwavering stand – in a world full of misleading nuances and compromise.