“In deep quiet, I can find and speak wisdom…
In the bustle of life, externally, I can seem at times to be insanely eratic!”
“In deep quiet, I can find and speak wisdom…
In the bustle of life, externally, I can seem at times to be insanely eratic!”
I think that many people “manipulate” because they simply haven’t learned to do better.
Social media and political propaganda flood our awarenesses with overstim that often can bypass earnest attempts at good parenting.
Rest your heart a bit regarding this…
Much is not personal – even though it feels like it.
And we need more individual and collective self responsive accountability.
“Tarot readers, kissing instructions, relationship dynamic lessons, etc., can be helpful for ideas in building structural concepts – but there are fine lines to where advice is actually recommending forms of insidious manipulation that could form habits of ‘control’ instead of playful and loving spontanaeity.”
“Since when has it been only seen as negative definition? It used to mean a type of playful lawlessnes.”
Once the awkward formalities has been gotten through, she turned to him with a smile beaming wide and impish mirth dancing in her eyes, confiding, “God – how I’ve missed you!”
“If you thought I was chasing, I wasn’t.
I was welcoming.
Affirming.
Learning.”
Whether by influence of longterm exposure to fumes, excessive stress, or brain injury, it took her quite some time to recognize that the small foam roller she used to help ease pain for sleep was also the same one that she could use for decompression exercises.
“And he knew it.”
I don’t want to go back there.
But I have to clean up the mess.
“That I’m not easy to approach…
But it’s for A Good Reason.”
“Song updates.”
“Know…”
“Puts you right where he wants you.
‘Damn…'”
“Can feel satisfyingly affirming.”
Athena Stairs, October 17, 2026
I wake up in the morning
And I toss in early haze
When I think about us
I catapult into a race
I wanna be there with you
Or you could be here by my side
I know the roads between us
The walls aren’t really hard to climb
‘Cause you
You make me feel brand new
And you
Yeah I can hold you
‘Cause you
Understand just what I need
I do
Wanna give it too
I want to know your hearbeat
The taste of passion on your lips
I wanna feel it rushing
As our fingers take their grip
And if you come in closer
You could let me know your mine
Just like a rollercoaster
We’ll ride the highs and then unwind
‘Cause you
Give me a reason
Yeah you
To give it one more try
I do
Wanna see you blossom
It’s true
‘Cause the way you love just makes me cry
I’ve gotta have you in me
Complications can’t divide
I need to know you feel me
And I’m the one who can preside
You know we’ve gotta choose this
Or all we’re doin’s wastin’ time
My heart is feelin’ bruises
This keep away fu**s up my mind
‘Cause you
Are the one I’m craving
Yeah you
Are my destination station
I do
Wanna love you always
It’s true
Feelin’ hope is so divine
We’re right this time
We’ll see
Cause baby
You belong with me
In a state of grace
Acting like you know me…”
(Sleep Token reference)
She had waited for him for years, visiting his door, hoping that he had heard her and kept hope inside of his heart.
But when she went to make a final declaration – announcing a bold move to come see him – she remembered his initial rejection of her love as false and fleeting when he had invested in exchanging his life to care for another’s.
So she hastily withdrew and instead chose someone who seemed to be more like her.
And when she came back years again later to check up on him, she was met by his cold indifference as he at last re-emerged, and she could not get a word of honesty from him.
So, again, she left.
And made a decision to not return – for how many times must a woman play “the fool?”
And looking out her window.
“For the nuggets.”
“Here…
Try my pain on for size…”
(To bs forces that conspire)
“You belong to me.
But what you choose to do about this is your own decision…”