A Woman's Plight, Altered States, Society

Back To God

In having to sort through, separate, and send onward so much of this and that as quickly as possible, she emboldened herself and left the “gifted” prayer rug at the masjid door to the women’s section.

For though it had been brilliantly colored beautifully, she needed to have its taint cleansed by others’ innocence.

Because it had been a “gift” that essentially tried to leverage itself as a buy-off.

A consolation prize added to a small pile of materialistic goods with an enforced permanent “farewell” in the guise of “visit any time.”

And, she still didn’t understand how people who professed such deep beliefs in God’s “teachings” could ever do such a thing.

(Title play with words)

A Woman's Plight, Altered States, The Accident - As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named "Clyde" (Short For Collide) Because It's Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense, The Shower Accident 11/14/25

Reclaiming Space

“It was difficult being squeezed out and against the walls by others taking over the space in my own home, and scattered my sense of self and any functionality after prior car accident injuries were made worse by the shower slip’s concussive fall.”

A Woman's Plight, Altered States

I Don’t Know

“When things get real hard, I bear down and push through them – no ‘nonsense’ allowed – and my expansive thinking is not as much available to me.

So with my hound suddenly misbehaving – getting food aggressive with the wolf and then bay-screaming in housing tight within community after reexposure to a dog that had in the past attacked her but had been part of our family…

When I was nervous, afraid, and/or insecure as a child, everyone just avoided, hard disciplined, and/or yelled at me.

I am not a natural intuitive when it comes to dog psychology.

And with the hound, giving whining and other associative ‘negative’ behavior ‘good’ attention just seens to reinforce her insecurities.”