“I was not in the best of positions for things to turn sideways against me.
But then, no one really ever is…”
“I was not in the best of positions for things to turn sideways against me.
But then, no one really ever is…”
“W-9’s apparently spook, as well…”
My beloved hero.
I AM Competant!
I AM HIGHLY COMPETANT!!!
“Critics say that I should have done things different by being more judgy, absolute, and persecutionary.
Well, first of all, I am a mother and thus represent a place of shelter for my offspring.
And second, if any of my younglings come to me in a state of pure desperation from everything having burned to “hell” around and then crumbled underneath them, I am going to carefully assess the situation and figure out how best to support them.
With understanding and empathy – no matter how hard it is going to be for me.
And when trauma is involved, careful cleansing of wounds with gentle stitching back up for the best chance of proper healing is needed.
And yeah – I do not like getting burned down and receiving the ‘reward’ of negative societal branding for extending, helping, and trusting within extreme circumstances.
But ‘parting the Red Seas’ is not easy for a human – so step back with those unecessarily-snide-nosed dispersions, please.
I could see the complexity of our different sides and the heavy struggles my beloveds were facing.
And I had twenty or more years of life experience ahead of them to try to give grace where I could when they felt that they couldn’t reciprocate to me.
And even though I was inadvertently sacrificed and am still paying a heavy price, my cherished ones are all in better positions, now, because of my beliefs.”
“You like my types of mood swings.”
“I’m in a mood.”
“Here, walking these old halls?”
“As good food finally hits my system, my guardian dragon eases, and fatigue sets in.
It is interesting to feel her curling up for slumber, one red-gold glowing eye cracked to keep vigil as she waits for me to join her.”
No more criticisms thrown at me
Or chinking my armor abruptly
If you cannot respect me
Do not wait at my harbor
Silence is much better
Than beligerant malice
I will take to the high seas
Over any polished palace
I guess that I needed to get my family to safety before I could be free to be me.
Thank you for your patience and understanding.
“To no longer carry all of the household bills for a 3-bedroom family house on my own.
My own creaking timbers need load relief!”
Between stiffened pain in moving
And smooth public appearances
In the background of my mind through all of this stress of dismantling keeps playing one of your origin cover songs, soothing.
“And was able to give him a deeply warm hug and thank him for being literally a guiding ‘star’ for love of humanity wave runner, reflecting versions of The Good Path before me so that I could better see.”
“I’ve been granted a few more days to clear out the hull of my life-to-this-point’s ship-turned-wreckage.
She creaks and groans sometimes as the waves toss her bobbing, waterlogged, and unevenly canting, weighted bulk as the load lightens.
Soon, she will be repaired and given over to more dablooned and able captains, i am told.
‘You’ve been a steady sea dragon, my steed…
I wish you stong, capable hands for sailing.”
December 24, 2022
It was easier when I had someone
No vision expanded came undone
Even if the truth was a lie,
False confidence provided
“I thought it was funny…
For a moment…”
“You’re not losing your housing!”
I went to a show tonight, and though I know that it must have been good, I could not feel a thing without you there.
Maybe I am just tired from recent toils.
Or maybe I am exhausted by going through the trials of life with you still not beside me.
“Maybe I’m not disabled…
Maybe I’m just physically fu**ed up.”
To turn on others to clear her name.
Lovely Heart.
I guess I have needed this part of my journey to reach its conclusion.
“Time for ‘desperation application.’
ACTIVATE!”
“I gotta gooo, I gotta goooo…somehow dig myself out of this house by end of today.”
Why you?
Because your heart is true.
No matter what you say or do.
I see it there, within you.
Hope your day is lovely.
Plumpfgh!
So tiired.
Hugs
“Begins…”
“Panicking.”
“Move my stuff into storage.”
“A pretty hilarious income requirement when housing cost is so high, and wages are so low.”