“I do not even know how I am rising to this deadline occasion.”
Category: A Woman’s Plight
(Into Oblivion – Lamb Of God)
They Say That
“‘Times like these can be turned into opportunities…’
‘Well, yeah…'”
—
(Reference to Sleep Token lyrics, and in the background cussing)
Baby,
What am I gonna do about my situation?
I still have not been able to find a place that I can move into – nor people to help me lift and carry…
It Has Been So Hard
“To not yell at them for putting me in this position as I encounter more personal plight and difficulties set against me that I have not earned nor deserved.
But, for the most part, I keep my mouth shut because I refuse to be an agent of further trauma propagation.”
As I Awaken
“Sliding out from random dreams as if being gently ejected, I get a strong sense of his voice telling me, ‘That look you give me..as if I mean everything.’
And I realize that he has just seen through my guards and has unapolegetically unpacked and revealed the depths that I have been hiding.”
(Dance With Me – Orleans)
My Darling,
They say we chose our lives.
Ok, then fine.
Regarding this suffering…
Let it have been so that I could find you.
Nooo-ho-hohhhh
“I don’t want to start packing and moving things…
I don’t even know yet where next I am go-iinnng!”
Bring It!
My Love,
I must admit to no longer being very flexible in some things – such as my diet to a certain extent – yet, while being so ready to break free into uncharted territory with you where it really counts.
Dearest,
How am I to have any confidence that I am worthy of your love?
Pride’s Humiliation
It’s one thing to have
Voluntary humility
But,
Quite another to be
Stripped of validity
“Don’t Blame Yourself…”
“Right…though society stacks reasons…”
I Was Brave
“But the situation went sideways in a firey ball of ash and disintegration.”
Every Day
“Testing…
Trying to reclaim my body.”
My Love,
I don’t understand how you did it…
Not really…
But you are my dream come true.
(Mine In Every Lifetime – Flemmzs Music)
My Love,
Can we have each other, for always?
Momma’s Tired
“It’s been a lonnng, pushing-too-hard day…”
Usually,
“I try to do more than just endure.
But these days…”
Movie “Dream Lover” Clip
Have not seen this one, yet.
As Traces Of Them Fade,
“I know that I must not regret…
I provided and helped get them to next stages.”
(Complete Mess – 5 Seconds Of Summer)
Dearest,
You have no idea how much I miss and ache for you.
I just figured that maybe it was best that I stop talking about it.
My Love,
I am so exhausted.
I gave and gave and gave of my healing intention to others yesterday.
The super cool thing is that I got to witness some amazing shifts for some clients.
Sometimes, my therapies are very well received and make a significant positive impact for people.
But I got in so late last night, beyond drained.
I am still way below “E” now, and have to get up and muster, again.
Housing, work, etc.
Miss you.
(Here It Goes Again – OK Go)
Shivering
“No anwers yet on where.”
My Love,
I see messages trying to remind me about what I first said to you – and some of them ring a bell.
But all I really know is that I have loved you…
And tried my best to convey it in a way that would carry you to hope and safety.
It’s Nice
“As issues separate…
I am so tired of never being good enough.”
I Remember Back Then
“Late teens, driving up to and hanging out at the man-made lake with a girl friend or two of mine on a hot summer’s day, thinking about how the best music and lyrics were coming from Europe – and feeling grateful, yet oppressed in my own country, as the air waves filtered through.”
(A Song To Sing – Miranda Lambert & Chris Stapleton)
(I Never Knew Love Until You Found Me – Flemmz Music)
I Need You
Stopping Anywhere For You
“Running Out Of Time”
“But there’s tomorrow…”
Don’t Give Up
You’ve got the music in you.
—
(Song reference)
Dearest,
Please help me bridge to you.
I am so sorry that I have been having such difficulty.
Looking For You
Closing my eyes and sinking into sleep, the brightest flare-flash to my right – near-blinding in its golden-white of dawn – rising early morning from a person’s form, interupting with a shadow briefly passing and then retracting in front of it.
Turning away from the first randomly chosen house’s pathway leading from sidewalk to door to my left that I was about to knock upon, I look right and see you walking toward me, your hands deep into pockets with eyes to ground.
As awareness expands, you look up, and then our eyes meet.
My Love,
It has been raining more differently today and this evening than usual.
It makes me think of you, and how much I love you.
Either/Or
Either I was “too much”
Or they weren’t enough
All Levels
“A message asked about preferences in how I like to express and share love.
I think of Charlotte’s Web and sing in reply, ‘Smorgous-board, orgous-board…'”
Polar Opposition
When I have loved before
It has all been in my mind
The guy(s) didn’t show up
Even when in same rooms
So I have an aversion to
Only having love in mind
Because it’s too close to
Only talking with my self
And too much reinforces
Feelings of staying lonely
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(Title of multiple meanings)
This Rivals
(All of Me – John Legend)
My Darling,
Please don’t talk yourself out of reaching for me.
We’ve got a lot to work through together, as it is.
Hey, Love
Do you like plants and animals?
Do you have any allergies?
(Rust – Ben Böhmer)
Baby,
If you want me now, you better say it clearly to me and quickly so I know without a doubt.
I am about to sign a lease.
These are hard to break.
Lol.
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