Category: A Woman’s Plight
YouTube
“Has made it harder to save to playlists.
I won’t go into the details, but I wanted to throw my phone over it.”
Lack Of Control
She wasn’t a ‘control freak’ – but times like this, she rued not being one!
Expectations
“How did he expect me to react?
We’d never before met in person!”
Attention
She didn’t want it the way media supported.
She needed more than just a friend or lover.
Kernal Of Sand
She resented being forced to make another pearl without mutual benefit.
(Bar None – Jordon Davis)
Lingering
She often found a place to just park before heading home…stretching time, listening to music, trying to orient so that the drop wouldn’t crush her.
(I Will Rise Up · Bless Bagopi)
Quarter Century
It takes 25 years to
Raise children well
Maybe even more if
Protecting from Hell
When alone as
A single parent
I Wonder
“Perhaps I am entering some kind of acceleration effects on certain – and maybe many – levels.
For so long, I was just swollen and puffy no matter how I worked to reconnect and regain tonal tension.
But playing out the idea that one day it can all click, this might be shifting.”
It’s Weird
“I must be beginning to heal because the pain is getting worse, even though I paused doing therapies.
What I mean is, my tissues are tightening in junction crossover areas, revealing more and more the experiential damage of injuries.”
I Know
“I know the way that it goes…”
The Crone In Me
She’d been fighting off the crone since the moment she’d been abandoned in her fourties.
It had jeered at her in stark contrast to her youth’s vitality, attempting to hard-interfere with her plans to remarry.
Then all of that fell apart and the accident pushed her hard onto another track – which she’d been striving toward, anyway.
But as she applied makeup to her war-torn fascial contours and saw how the ravages of pain’s suffering tried to mold and reshape her to their designations, a peace began calming.
Maybe that bitch had had her reasons.
Maybe she’d been trying to ensure she’d meet the right man, in the right season.
The Dance Floor
“Don’t go for him,” he tried to stop her. “Go for me – like you wanted to, before.”
“But you’ve seen my art,” she gently confided. “He brings out the parts of me I couldn’t clearly see, before.”
Hi
(Hurting · SG Lewis ft. Aluna George)
But, Then Again
She did have that same phone meeting, tomorrow…
What She Wanted
A very good man to lead and help support her positively, for she would give him what he needed, in return.
To Her Man
“You could have my late to earlies, for a start.”
Almost There
If he had cast his net a little wider, he would have found her.
Wednesday
She couldn’t try until that eve because she had to meet with others.
Phantom Memories
She’d been living in between realms dreaming of love for so long that she needed confirmation that she and he could have it together in reality.
—
(Title of multiple meanings)
Unfamiliar Territory
She wasn’t used to having a partner who truly cared about her and wanted to invest in her happiness and well being.
(Numb – Goodboys, Extended)
By Rights
They were just two people who loved and wanted each other.
The Offering
From that angle, the light shined upon his face revealing the pure innocence still residing within him, displayed for her acceptance in vulnerable openness.
It shocked her to her core, for never had she seen such bright beauty – for she could see the light of his soul emanating from back through time to how he’d always been, from the beginning.
So young – so young! her heart leapt out to protect him.
How could she want one so young? She drew back in shame at her assumptions.
But she knew that she must have seen the limits of time as they frissioned.
Fidgeting nervously for an hour while on the important call and casting tenuous glances around her, she saw him at last cross behind her quickly the opposite way, striding purposefully to a car and clutching a rolled up and well-creased paper bag that indicated his nervousness.
As she turned to better look at his retreating, strong and mature back, all she could think of was there went the man that she loved most fervently.
And she felt powerless to stop him.
Well-Matched
For they were both so ameanable that no stone need be left unturned, and all could be understood – and forgiven.
—
(Title of multiple meanings)
Haven’s Trust
They had much to unpack, together.
“Aria” (song)
A form of bliss
To Be Funny
She asked him to walk a few paces away and then come back again, whereupon she cheekily sighed and stated, “You’ll do.”
And then, he grabbed her with a warning, possessive growl to their mutual laughter.
Hidden Desires
But she wanted was to hold him in her arms and give him everything.
Which Way Is Up?
Her experience had led her to be afraid that if she gave all of her love to a man, he would leave her – instead of desire and cherish her.
She Should Have
Shouted after him, calling out loudly:
“HEY! Where are you going?!”
Anything, anything but remaining frozen solid stiff from shock and emotion.
(Stir Me Up – Lane 8)
It Plagued Her
Why had he not spoken to her?
Wrath
“And no amount of love will keep it around
If we don’t choose it
And I don’t know what’s got its teeth in me
But I’m about to bite back in anger
No amount of self-sought fury
Will bring back the glory of innocence”
—-
(Sleep Token lyrics from “Take Me Back To Eden”)
(Take Me Back To Eden – Sleep Token)
Numbers Lie
“Although I still enjoy noting their patterns, the messages since AI has leaked into everything all have the same flavor and just reinforce sense of ‘duty’s’ isolation.
Fu** That.”
Avoidance
“No, I’m not going to chase him.
And no, I’m not going to listen to those other artists and compare myself to them.
I cannot keep being crushed into a speck of my very existence.”
You Know, I’d Think
“That writing would calm and relax my mind and spirit.
But I don’t feel recovered or restored.
I’m just riding some jagged edge that tears and will not let go.”
(Lose Control – Teddy Sims)
Sunshine’s Disposition
Even the brightest spark will dim in cold weather.
OverCast
She didn’t need to worry so much about how she was looking
The odds seemed pretty high that he wouldn’t come calling.
—
(Title of multiple meanings)
A Gesture
Is that all that it would become, now that the world adored him?
The Competition
“You’re actually considering being with her?
But she’s not already established like the rest of us – and further more…”
She Could
See him actually in her life – and oh, how wondrous they could be together!
Static
She turned the knob to find the music, but there was nothing there.
Was It Right
For her to want and need him
When he deserved the world?
(Tears on cheeks)
More Dreams
“And the last still ended up with my shirt spontaneously off.”
(What the -?!)
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