Category: A Woman’s Plight
“Caught Between Clarity And Blur”
Soul Mates
(Until We Meet Again – Lisa Gerrard & Marcello De Francisci)
You…
Come back here.
You Must Know That
I was pressed up against my window, again.
But “you” tilted your head as if denying, so it caused me to further hesitate.
Restless Hearts
When I think that I might have seen you, my insides won’t calm.
Trying to sleep here – without you by my side.
Dearest,
My house used to look nice and my garden was well kept.
I like to think that you would have found my home cozy.
My Love,
Did you fall in love with the girl inside of this woman?
I can feel her struggling, trying to reclaim me.
How Did It Come To This?
“I believed, but others could not.”
Today Was Good
“With the dogs, though.”
Yet, “His” Tones
“Had aspects of the uncanny.”
Bummed Out
“They stopped posting the AI guy’s voice who offered lovely scenarios.
He’s been replaced by an English-Aussie toned type.
I didn’t want the other one to leave.
He seemed a right, nice chap.
I just couldn’t allow myself to linger because I need the real thing.”
I’ve Also Seen You
“In different forms at quick marts.
How many versions of you are there?”
When I Saw You, Again
You were radiant.
The Looks Of Love
“That first sauntering, proud swagger of the cat who caught the mouse – well deserved and hard-earned, worthy of ‘entitlement .’
The hasty near-bumping into, later found times again, hovering near with intense stare or protective, courteous stare.
And that never-wavering smile on the dance floor…
Then a flinch – as if I wouodn’t care.”
(I’ll Be Here – Sultan + Shepard ft. Elderbrook)
Baby,
I know that we’ve both been hurt before, but maybe we could flinch together as we learn how to rebuild trust’s foundations.
The first steps might not be easy for either of us, but if we keep trying, I know that we can succeed.
My Love,
How do you perceive me to be?
Do you think that we match in essence?
(Could You Be Loved – Bob Marley & The Wailers)
Dearest,
I thought that I saw yet another version of you.
I must be going mad…
I Had Thought
“That it could be me.”
Thinking Of You
She had carried her gifts for him on her person every day for many months, with hope that she might see him and share.
But now she had to tuck them safely away for transport while she managed transitions.
(Telomeres – Sleep Token)
This Is It
“I am suppossd to find the right next home.
It took us four months living out of a motel, working multiple jobs at full health capacity, to find our safe haven last time.
Two weeks this time, on my own, and with exertion limits from multiple injuries. “
It Was Rarely Easy
“Easy was a day that you could coast a little.”
(Saved – Deadmau5)
My Love,
I dreamed of us together…
We wete in a house, preparing food on a large kitchen ‘island,’ talking about real life things and making plans.
It felt so easy and natural…
Like we fit well as a couple.”
My Love,
I am fighting off something in my throat from the other day’s too long outdoor damp and cold exposure.
But I sure wish that I could hold and kiss you.
Sweet dreams, Baby.
Role Playing
“I told you this…
I am a switch in love.”
—
(Multiple meanings)
Sugar,
You must be crazy if you think that I will give in so easily
Things we buried low
Coming to the surface now, my love
You must be crazy if you think that I will give up the game
—
(Sleep Token lyrics)
Every Time I Wake Up
Tired & Cranky
“Having raised chicks on my own alone that are finally flying.”
(Follow – Klangkarussell & GIVVEN)
My Love,
Sometimes, I have thought that we have seen each other.
But you do not approach me.
Why won’t you?
—
(Deliberate neutrality of tone, here)
Letting Tides Carry Me
“I set out with my phone, computer, snacks, coffee, and workout out clothes…
And the day’s emergency priorities now rise up as beckoning.”
So Close – Yet, Far Enough?
“Is it at all possible that this sudden having to launch could solidly land me into positive self sustainability?”
Tectonic Sheering
“6-packs of snow peas and snap pea delightful seedlings have been driving around in my car with me for the past couple of days.
I am trying to figure out while its raining and I managing catastrophes if I am going to plant them into my pots that are waiting.
Gardening is part of my well being restocking.
And if I cut the roots going through pots into the ground underneath my wisterias, roses, and vining flowers, and fruit trees – and then drastically trim the wisterias’ and vines’ branches back down to their cores to get them unattached to fencing to ready them for moving at this time of spring, will this seriously shock and/or kill them?
And with car troubles now amounting, do I have to switch jobs again after having found a good team to work with so that I can stay more local?
And it has been strongly and repeatedly suggested that I need to rehome my hound so that the older wolf’s health needs can be taken care of.”
“Calling You Home”
(Lonely – VisionV)
Dearest,
I am under self lock down as I am having to carefully navigate shark-infested waters where chum is being spilled and old military-type super mines are bobbing – hidden submerged under choppy waters, ready to snag my makeshift raft with their rusted and randomly shifting-about-in-the-waves spike extensions.
Dearest Friend,
I have not told you about the extremes that my situation has been flipped and exploded into, capsizing my every good and productive, mutually-beneficial-to-everyone strategies while having the tide turned suddenly hard against me as I am rapidly being swept toward a whirlpool without a life boat…
(You Make Me – Dj J’ess)
UnderCut
It seemed that her any advance was.
I Am
In pain in levels
And bone weary
“I Left My Heart In California”
When the man one day returned, there was only one part of intimacy that he wanted from her.
And he was always “too tired” to reciprocate.
“Affection” is affection, right?
But hollow love makes a hollow soul.
Especially after all of the damage that he had caused when he had left her.
Entitled.
Glorified.
Inhumane.
And then, he prioritized every whim of an abussive narcisist who poisoned anything good and functional.
And he would not break off contact with the prior home wrecker.
And he expected that the woman should defer to him under these circumstances.
And she wasn’t his responsibility – clearly, she was short-sighted.
In fact, she was “too needy” and should “get a grip on reality.”
Then he pursued another female who he claimed was a better match for him.
But he still wanted and needed “access.”
Everything that the woman had ever held sacred was flayed as she was tormented.
Her only way to escape was to self-eviscerate.
—
(Title of a past classic bumper sticker)
Passion’s Fury
Draw me into your movements
Picture-perfect mirror imaging
Catching the timing of waves
Flowing – crashing to ebbing
Wisk my winds into frenzies
To rival hurricane horizons
Then return me gently to shore
Where begin again ever more
Escape Clause
“I don’t want to just be this, again.”
My Love,
I will want to love you, for always.
So treat me well, Darlin’ – so that I can keep on tryin’ to treat you even better.
Let’s make livin’ this life together so very much worth our every effort.
My Love,
It’s always been here between us…
I just couldn’t afford to bleed out if you needed to keep running.
