She was affected by other beings’ rhythms.
Category: A Woman’s Plight
Crisped Cinder
“My love, would you forgive me just not wanting to do any of this, again?
I still want to know your desires, dreams, and aspirations – I just need rest and to no longer be so heavily worry-burdened.”
Sleep Deprivation
“I am now entering into this cycle again, feeling the adrenals cycle up for the next go around of too much, too fast, all of the time as the dogs won’t let me sleep, and everyone else’s day is about to begin.
Too many dogs peeing and pooping and barking and jostling.
Too many cats needin meowing and messing, needing tending and rehoming.
Too many dead-end conclusions rattling, and deadlines resisting their amend.”
Lament
Oh that we could have met
When I had more to offer…
Questions In The Dark
How could she let him help her
Why would he even want to?
Her heart had been betrayed
And her body was fractured
Time Of Need
“This is mine…
But my spirit rocks unconsoled, knowing tbat even still, things could get worse.
Traction seems a thing of fantasy now, and daydreams.”
Cracks In The Shell
“Lovely forms are reclaimed of broken pottery, made whole again by golden filagree.
Heal me with your love, so that I may be reborn.”
In-Ferno
“Where am I?”she screamed while he tried to grab onto and hold her as she fought him off in desperation to reclaim herself, not knowing what was needed.
“Can you see me through all of this rage and pain? Would you love me still if I can never be myself, again?”
Ah, At Last
“Some tears…I’ve been too tightly wound, lately.”
(Hanging On – Bob Moses, CRi Remix)
Throes Of Poverty
“Stumbling over bills’ downhill slides while attempting to innovate.”
Oh Boy!
“I get to use my ‘placard of priviledge.'”
The New Age
For ever is knowledge evolving, and ever does it need to evolve.
Britannia!!!
Fists raised in the air with renewed anger and conviction, her tribes allied with the invaders to redeem their queen’s shattered honor.
The Scottish King
Lifetimes ago, he married a Pictish princess – and then cast her off when her faith met his disbelief.
Centuries later, they met again, this time with Love’s begging the question.
Yet again, his need for his own certainty cast her fortune to the fate of the winds.
Objects Of Desire: Sleep Token Clip
9/23/25
(In My Head – Gryffin)
Fu** Addiction
“Freedom is priceless.”
Ensnared
The pain was worse than ever before – and she realized that the medication she refused to continue taking had sunk its hooks into her after only two separate day’s doses.
Let It Be Known
“I am not ‘optional.'”
Love’s Claiming
“You know now, do you not, what he has been through?
Then also know: I shall provide for him.”
Quiver
It took a certain strength reliant beyond capabilities to keep her from running away from what she desired most.
—
(Title of multiple meanings)
Without Duress
“What is a life like?
Distant brief memories taunt as haunt.”
Education
“He didn’t value it – thus,, didn’t value my pursuit of it.”
Ra-Ra-Sis-Boom-Ba!
“My chapstick was in the car with me.
These days, the little things count too much.”
(Dark Signs – Sleep Token)
Basic Need
“And I hate what I’ve become, every time I wake up.”
—
(Sleep Token lyrics)
Dems Da Breaks
“I don’t really see how it’s functionally possible for me to ‘be with’ anybody.
I’m struggling around so many factors.
Ahhh-hahaaaaa…”
(Loosen Up – HUGEL)
Second-Guessing
Automatuc response to a lack of security
Too burdening on a beleaguered system
Trust
“A high-placed priority…if I can’t trust who I’m with, I’d rather be alone”
Ship On Fire
Even though her ship was taking on water
She knew it would hold if she managed it
Long enough to get the others to safety
Yet even though she knew their plight
Having survived her own as parent
It still hurt she’d be left stranded
—
(Paragraph lools like the prow of a ship :D)
(Waiting – CamelPhat x Eli & Fur)
Past Loves
“Ended by male non-participation.”
You Know…
“I don’t like needing to ride in the wheel chair through the vast hospital halls, but it is kind of fun to be wooshed along.
Though it’s best if I have my sunglasses on so that other people can’t see that I’ve been crying.”
(Remind Me – Royksopp)
When I Was Whole & Well
Scanning…
“I think there were some brief periods of time in my childhood, and as an adult.”
(I’m Alive – Oblivor)
Dressing Up
She had made an effort and had been pleased with her choices – yet again found the photos unflattering, and afterwards felt herself spiraling into depression.
However, this downward tanking was likely a side effect of the drug’s combined interferences.
Body Image
“I greatly dislike that effects of the injuries have firmly deposited me into middle-aged image classifications – as if I’ve been a dumpy, inattentive non-participant in my life.
My many efforts are barely reflected.”
“To Save The Universe”
A Moment’s Breath
On the elliptical
A moment sane
Inside core happy
Caught up to self
Two weeks of dry
Almost lost more
But a beloved gifted
P drink & saved gym
Both helping to
Regulate stress
In this gambit to
Remain housed
(Aqua – R3DN1K)
She Wasn’t Sure
If she was good enough for him.
Everyone else was selling something.
Why Do It?
“Because I have to help.”
—
(Adrenal crashing)
“Take Me Home”
If I Must Run
“I run towards something.”
(Tidal Wave – Klur & LeyeT)
Freeze, Fight, Or Flight
“When I get squeezed, at some point my energy shifts from ‘taking hits’ into blazing fire in order to fight back and counteract the freeze shutdown trying to take over in response to my being’s needing safety.
It takes a lot to get this heat in me going to break through lockdown barriers, so then I optimize by utilizing the momentum to gain clarity and burn through illusion’s limitations.
Most of the time, disengaging to run away doesn’t seem like it’s an option.”
The Grind
“The way I manage my life is how I have figured out how to manage it, whether in calm times through a range or in crisis.
People could say that this is part of my hardwiring and that some things are just what they are – so don’t expect change.
But I don’t agree with this.
I’m just flatlined in some ways and out of innovation from longterm overperforming.”
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