“It’s always been about who I can trust…”
Category: A Woman’s Plight
Man Up!
“Woman Woman Woman…”
It’s Called A “Snowall Effect”
“And how the heck do you get out of it?
That’s what I’d like to know.”
This Space
“Is not my home.”
Dependency
“When you need a place for your stuff – for you to eat, sleep, and dream – there is vulnerability in your position…
I am considering giving up most everything, immediately.”
EE-GAAAADDDSSS
“The neighbor’s stench from their apartment oozes into miiiiinnee – mingling with the choking fumes of gaslighting cigarette ashes…”
(Please, Lord, get me safely and positively out of here, asap…)
Having Issues Isn’t The Issue
“Whether or not you let them control the quality of your life is the underlying issue.”
For All That I Do,
“How is it that my confidence is so diminished?
Is this from a refusal to allow my ego to grow big?
Or is it from so many life challenges compounding?”
Calisthenics
“I hopefully began watching a 15-minute home workout program – but then internally balked as the first moves were deep squats coming up with a high forward leg raise lifting.
Laughing weakly to myself, I joked out loud softly “Well that’s not hap-pen-ninggg…”
Always
“What do you want from me?” he asked her.
“Everything,” she admitted.
Thank You
I Play Along
“With the life signs, anyway…”
(Sleep Token lyrics)
GasLighting
“When others deny your objective experience and try to turn it subjective.”
Upset & Distressed
“Cleaning plastic bins with hot water in my bathroom brought in so much now damp-clogging harsh fumes through the walls that I am near to gagging.”
Frankly, My Dear,
I don’t want to deal with all of this on my own, anymore.
Sticky-Tacky
“You see, you can’t just leave…
And you can’t just go…
Unless you have a lawyer and money.”
(Title of multiple meanings)
Reservations
“Everything’s about…”
SubText
Fumegated Brain Injury
“It has become more difficult to ascertain what I can or ought to be doing to help improve my situation.”
Hopeless In Arcadia
“Sometimes I feel like there’s nothing that I can do anymore to make my life better…
In fact, it often feels like if I am not gripping while slipping, then I am definitely losing ground.”
Er…No Cookies
“Couldn’t stand up inhaling fumes anymore in the kitchen…”
I Shall Have My Cookies!
“Wheezing and/or gasping…”
You Know My Desire
To ask or to beg is to apply pressure…
To convey need and distress is to apply pressure…
To yell or scream, to cry or go silent, to smile and pretend everything is ok applies pressure…
Nothing I could do is necessarily right or wrong –
It’s all “pressure…”
(Title of Sleep Token lyrics)
Vexed
“I can’t easily get to my supplies.”
Legal Grounds
“Click the button and you’ll pay…
You’ll have ‘solid ground’ to stand on,
But you still won’t be able to breathe clean air
And you certainly won’t be able to get away…”
Skeletor PSA
(Crazy – Kenny Rogers)
On My Terms!
“First time back in a raquetball court since before my accident – and it felt GREAT ripping myself apart as I chased that ball!”
(Gonna paayyy for it, thoouuggh)
Safe Passage
“Having her for all of those years and helping to redirect her instincts to capability of adapting to city life probably saved her life – as I reflect on hearing what happened to some of her precious litter mates.”
Spiral Incandescence
Maybe we could learn how to trust again, together.
OH You Think I Might –
“BE A LITTLE PTSD TRIGGERED???!!!”
Admittedly,
“I have been unable to take my nutrient support powders these last couple of days to help combat the deleterious effects from the toxin fumes inundation.”
Hearts’ Haven
Residences can change and tides can shift…
In our love is where we belong.
That’s The Thing
She did not want shallow and temporary.
Tell Me
If I’m safe, yet…
Have I found my home?
Come On
Come On, Come On…
No Display
Hiding under covers with you
The Source Of You
Crawling over each other’s skin
Looking for a way to get into
Shock
“Where I’ve sought housing shelter, I don’t belong…
And this seems to be a repeat thematic.”
Have Garden
“Will travel.”
(No More Mr. Nice Guy – Alice Cooper)
It’s Time
“To fight back.”
It’s A
“Double coffee day – ‘The PAAAIINN!‘”
(“Dune” original movie quote)
WEEEEEEEDDDSSSSS
“ACCOMPLISHED!!!!”
Slippage
“I’m not panicking – you’re panicking.”
(No, I’m panicking…)
Egregiously
“I have now learned that if you eat canned salmon, you will smell like canned salmon – in ways that you do not wish to be.”
Carboxyhemogloben
“Test.”
My Dearest,
I am trying to push back, Love.
I am trying to overcome.
Loading Up
“On powdered nutrient supplements to combat smoke fume toxins.”
I Am
“An impatient woman.”
