Category: A Woman’s Plight

“Pushing

And Pushing

And Pushing

And Pu-Shing…”

“Always looking for safe moments of ‘give.’

Like when the storage bill is due, but it turns out there is a 7 day grace period…”

“Abandoned or

‘Inadvertently’ shoved

Onto the ice flow.”

“Just bypasses the barrier gate that I’ve hastily set up to come into the bedroom and look at me.

In her quiet way, her cloudy eyes clearly convey what she thinks that I should next be doing.

(Time to take them out, a-gaaaaaiiinnnn)

“When things get real hard, I bear down and push through them – no ‘nonsense’ allowed – and my expansive thinking is not as much available to me.

So with my hound suddenly misbehaving – getting food aggressive with the wolf and then bay-screaming in housing tight within community after reexposure to a dog that had in the past attacked her but had been part of our family…

When I was nervous, afraid, and/or insecure as a child, everyone just avoided, hard disciplined, and/or yelled at me.

I am not a natural intuitive when it comes to dog psychology.

And with the hound, giving whining and other associative ‘negative’ behavior ‘good’ attention just seens to reinforce her insecurities.”

“Of armor settles over me.

Lighter with more mobility.

Yet, more restricting.”

“From doing too much, and ever compounding.”

“Yeah –

That’s not happenin…'”

“I’m not a-waaaaaaaaake!”

“They say ‘things get better with time…’

No they don’t.

Not if they keep ramping up intensities.”

“Having to keep on pushing and prodding the self forward too much.

Yet, rather than countering or meeting such energy directly, if my partner could just swoop on in joining, then it would not be so hard to give over the lead.”

“Because I absolutely adore and crave creative romance…

But I feel so burnt out right now that I just want to ‘cut to the chase’ and experience being loved.

I need to feel my love’s warm and caring arms around me.”

“He” was coming “tonight” and told the viewer to get ready – elaborating for her to prepare by clearing her schedule, fin8shing tasks, and scattering rose petals.

It would, indeed, be a night that they would always remember.

She had just cleaned up and mopped a nass of dog pee.

She was wearing sweat pants.

And she could not afford time nor money nor energy units to suddenly go out and scramble to find rose petals.

“What is PMS, anyway?

Don’t look at me as if I should know – just because I am female.

I mean, it turns women into emotional spikers – even to the point of feeling volatile.

Where is this attractive?

How can this be part of good mating strategy?

Are our bodies angry because we are not pregnant?

Is PMS supposed to push us to having aggressive initiative that overcomes initial reserve and shyness?!”

“Over the sink, while the dogs pant on the edge of the kitchen, pressuring me.”

“I finally divested.”

“Because I couldn’t ‘stand’ to walk, again.”

(Content play)

Working pushing capacities

Continuing to sort and clean up

Wreckage of drastic transition

Trying to make the best of it

Trying to make good decisions.”

Masks can provide a forum whereby self expression reveals.

(Title play with words)