“It is difficult to be anyone’s priority when one has always been seen as their provider.”
Category: A Woman’s Plight
I Don’t Know
“If those bouncing springs above me are a couch or a bed’s mattress being bounced upon, but either way…”
As A Matter Of Fact,
“It SUCKS!”
I’m Sorry, But
“It is VERY ‘disconcerting’ to come home from the laundromat with somebody else’s bonus sock – and my few towels and clothes now with bleach and other stains on them!”
Hound Zig-Zagging
“At least I don’t have two!”
A Boost Of Joy
“My wolf, who got hit by seizures caused by a new flea medication, and then crippled-weak limbs from time-release anti-seizure medication – all while I had to manage our moving – this evening has officially shown rebounding by my efforts to help her.
I had taken her off of all medications to let her system clear out, and just monitored her for recurrent bladder infections.
And even though she is now muchly blind from thick cataracts, she is learning how to get stronger going up and down stairs, and our brief potty break walks several times a day have been acting as her physical therapy routines.
Tonight, she actually bounded about and was happily panting while gracefully trotting on our walk!
And she and the hound got into some brief zoomies around me together – and I laughed as I went after them to playfully grab tails, and we all got big smiles on our faces!”
Hon,
I feel stuck…
Like I cannot grow nor adapt, anymore.
And my inner critic has become disillusioned, I feel without hope, and my demeanor is bitey in private.
To The Bone
“I’m just weary.”
Did I Mention?
“This last weekend, a lovely home owner allowed me to dig up runner strawberries that had escaped from her yard to add to my mobile garden’s replenishment.”
A Three Weeks’ View
“Three weeks ago, I was told I qualified at last for a first service.
Then I went to an office to finish the paperwork and update the other paperwork for a second service.
Then, I was told to go fix something at a third service the next week by the fiirst service – which I did – and I also had to go back to do more paperwork on the second service because the prior week’s efforts triggered more questions, so that’s week’s efforts and precious gas expense weren’t enough.
Then, the first service communications completely topped and connections disappeared, no matter any diverse attempts to contact.
Second service disconnected help despite compliance due to limited staff not processing paperwork properly, so today on the phone for hours and maybe it will be reactivated.
A fourth service last week said come back this week.
Meanwhile, third service is still in the mired cogworks.
However, I just now got a call from a hard-working advocate that second services will be restored – but not until tomorrow, and now reduced.
Misery
“Have I accomplished any thing?!”
In The Chop
“Am I comin’ – or am I goin’?”
(Repeat…)
(Here Comes The Rain Again – Eurythmics)
My Love,
It’s raining.
I Need Some CoF-Feee
“I need some cof-feeeee –
And a brigh-ter out-look on life…”
(Drag Me Under – Sleep Token)
Sometimes,
“It sure feels like things will never get better.”
“WEEEDS!”
“Ma’am, did you know that your garden is harboring some fugitives?!”
My Love,
If you knew how much I feel for you, would you hesitate a minute more?
Oh yes, it’s hidden beneath layers…
Needing to survive has taken its toll.
(Do That To Me One More Time – Captain & Tennille)
(Swingtown – Steve Miller Band)
Did I Really?!
“Just elbow my pizza?!”
(Leaning onto it with my fore arm as climbing back into bed, unable to see it clearly in the dim lighting)
A Day Off
“Time for a nap.”
Compromise
“Ok-Ok – Yes,
My new microwave still has that silly-stupid lock release button on it that drives me crazy – yet probably is muey essential for other people with specific lock mechanism need requirements.
However, this version requires that I push that little button with my right finger and I can then pull the handled door open with my left hand – which balances my injured brain’s need for a more even load dispersion.
Also, the silver and black coloring blends it better into m y kutchen’s decor, the buttons are grouped and displayed in a way that is calming and even tentatively inviting – and it has “arm floaty” sticker directions on top of the unit as a handy-dandy, friendly guidance prompt system encouragement!
Grounded
Like a plow horse worked too hard with little rest, there was no more “get up” in her “go.”
Time To
“Rebuild Adrenals.”
I Feel
“‘Used up,
Washed out,
And hung to dry.'”
Word Of The Day: Hysteria
“Internal sobbing collapse from pushing too hard and long – yet it’s never enough.”
Spun
“About…”
(Concept play)
Silent Keening
“Income feels completely turned upside down.”
(Louder Than A Lion – Eisley)
Doldrums
“I’ve never felt so ‘dead’ in the water.”
Hon,
I dream of our getting to help each other heal by our having our lives together.
Gettin’ Snarky
“Remember when you thought you were done?
And then you realized suddenly you weren’t?
Yeah…
How’s that workin’ for ya?”
My Love,
The lies and burdens they put upon me…
It has made me need to be very careful with you.
My Frown
“Is getting deep-set these days.”
Hey!
“I already did this depression sh**!
Did it…!
Lived it…!
Crossed the fe-cking threshold –
Mo-ving On!”
(God’s – Sleep Token)
Mag-Ni-Fique!
“I look…
like an Oompa-loompa…”
Iiiiìiii’mmm
“Bor-der-line hys-ter-i-caaaaallll…”
Listen to Iiiiiii’mmm – 6.4.26 by Candid Corvid Productions on #SoundCloud
https://on.soundcloud.com/pPjR7lyyQRSAfAqLV9
Frazzled
“Can I not look how I feel?”
Levels
“Of Toil…”
“Crappy” Responsibility
“Having to watch your dog’s every straining efforts’ productions so that you make sure to pick up every piece of poop so that no one has to step on it.”
Word Of The Day: Innovating
“Turning ‘crappy’ situations that are thrust upon you into better opportunities.”
A Final, AngryTwitch
“Caring about comfort and niceness while diminishing the flat gray emanence of the floors emanating into my home is no longer an option if I wish to live in better connection with my animals.”
A Big F— You
“Trying to make progress on one end, the wolf goes into my bedroom and pees on my one favorite rug – resulting in my having to haul it out from under my heavy bed and basically tear apart my bedroom and clean the rug outside as an unwanted side project.
It has been ‘marked’ now and it will become a target, forever, if I keep it.”
Darn It!
“No more carpet!”
Wreckage
“I would like to say that things are back to norm, but there’s a lot of damage to attend to.”
It Is Hard
“To be hurt.”
It’s The Fumes
“When I feel like giving up, I must remember.”
