Too confident from reduced inflammation’s pain caused her to miss two cycles of medication.
Category: Altered States
Still Points
Allowing time and space for fragments to find her and reassemble.
More Work
Adding onto her load quickly and praying that somehow she could take on the weight.
Howling Winds Within
Passions enraged if she allowed them to war wanted to scream, “How could you do this to me? After everything that we have both gone through?!”
(White Lily – Laurie Anderson)
Days
“Blend into each other.”
“Conscious”
Blue Pill, Red Pill
“No pill.”
(On The Road Again – Willy Nelson)
I remember when he got onto TV – was it with Smoky And The Bandit?
Also Kenny Rogers in The Gambler.
Oh, yeah – and John Denver with the comedian George Burns in Oh, God!
It was such a novelty in the 70’s to have real life performers show up in the movies, and I remember hoping for and getting excited for their sequels.
Back then, restrictions for showing popular talent on main TV were very uptight.
Again, Now
Mobilizing…
What A Real Ad Would Say
“Before (such and such extreme workout club that pushes hyper cortisol), I was tired and had very little energy…”
Insert:
“Now I’m so stressed and overperforming – I don’t know what to do!”
My Reflections
Progress
“I got some Draino rinsed down the tub, and now seal the bottom of my bathroom door with some cloth as a backup.”
Repent
“For your sins.”
(Touch, Peel And Stand – Days Of The New)
Cold Comfort
“Anger has always been a final refuge.”
(The Big Goodbye – AJR)
A Heart’s
“Aching agitation.”
Waiting For The Night’s Call
Her heart felt suspended in air as she briefly rested on her side without him.
NonNegotiable
She could not “afford” to become homeless.
Ramping Up
She was getting more work, hopefully immediately, regardless of her injuries.
I Did It!
“Venture succesfully completed!”
(Walking On Sunshine – Katrina And The Waves)
Zoop!
“Gotta get the day goin’.”
Sometimes,
The obvious must be made obvious.
Entropic Demise
The toe nail polish from that sacred night was beginning to flake off on its own natural course.
At least she knew that she had done what she could to preserve its memory.
“‘A Different View'”
A New Discovery
“Walking around wearing ear plugs helps tone the world down.”
Fitfull
Unreast
HyperVigilance
Concussive “waiting,” seemingly without cause as extreme insomnia.
Middle Ground
“Well, I didn’t get the Draino today, but I stuffed already worn shirts from the laundry basket under the bath tub room door to stop the air flow into my room tonight.
Then I left my bathroom part that was sealed off, and when I returned, I no longer smelled the hint of sewage so clearly.
Maybe I will get lucky and sleep well.”
A Quick Fix
Maybe if she got some draino?
Almost 6 AM
She still could not find her pass to sleep.
Air Flow
Having cycled the bedroom’s air, she turned off the fan in hopes that it would reduce the toxic gas infiltration, so that she could close the door to the rest of the house’s overstim.
Braugh
Opening her bedroom door to the rest of the house’s smells that were foreign to her standard of normalcy at least changed the air composition – though greatly distracting to her heightened insomniac sensitivities.
Toxins
She knew that her muscles’ new pain was due to some version of this.
Fog Layers
She couldn’t even open a window for fresh air due to others’ fireplace emissions.
The Great Squeeze
Never stopped, always advanced, beyond tolerances…what exactly was the purpose?
Without Recourse
She could smell that the sewage line was having issues, as the smell had permeated her bedroom for the last week – but she could not ask the landlord to attend to it.
Corrosion
How can one tell if the hull of a ship’s integrity is solid for sailing and sea worthy?
She Had To (Fly Away – Lenny Kravitz)
It Was Insane
In a town once called “home,” a woman who had helped wreck another’s home let herself decline, became homeless, and slept in public drunk – and even showed up to the other woman’s place of work for services – constantly shoving into the face of the woman that she had injured how little harming another family’s stability had meant to her by her phases of self absorption.
(Ramon – Laurie Anderson)
Variances
Random things
Random events
They keep saying
We should be linear
And Then,
A piece of chocolate fell on her leg.
A Vicious Cycle
She had to stop the injuries from preventing her making income.
Immediately.
Drama Trauma
Those who adapt to bypass survive.
Driven To Extraction
Schloomping one’s essential being out of one sticky situation, to arrive into next moments of pause – quivering and taking stock.
Productivity =
A long day.
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