In a foreign landscape.
Category: Altered States
Brain Glitches In Times Of Stress
“I don’t trust you as far as I can throw you – and I can’t far you very throw!”
(Yell-griping at my gps maps because she keeps misleading my routes, forcing me to go across “perilous” bridges – “I’m gonna eat her soul – I know where she lives!!!”)
Winter Visitor
“There’s a critter in my bedroom, again.
It’s getting more bold in its movements along the edges since lack of other animals in my room.
I wouldn’t really care except that this is my room, and it might be preganant – as well as it is no longer hiding, which means it might try to take over and spread its mess and cause prospective damage in its boldness.
I can hear it now by my drums, whereas it used to be only in the opposite corner to nestle.”
It Shouldn’t Be Surprising
To see people go in and come out with their pizza combo order boxes.
The Crone’s Greeting
“Waking up after barely sleeping, and apparently having an allergic reaction to a different abode’s cat litter in a borrowed bedroom due to my home having no heat last night, I found that body had swollen and my eyes were puffed and wrinkly as if I were eighty years old.
Quite a not the confidence booster on what many would think should be a special morning.
In this case, it’s a good thing that ‘beauty’ is only ‘skin deep.’
Sheesh.”
Eh, Re A Retracted Statement
“I didn’t have my sub-stAn-ti-Ay-tionns…”
One Could Think
That with careful analysis, one could change their life path for better.
Hooray!
“They are gonna help!”
(Crumples into a ball of twitching nerves)
It Still Gets Me
“During the concussion accident, the prior car accident’s resultant bulging disc zone took whip-crack force impact twice immediately successively – and did not budge fomm either direction, despite weight and momentum.
No wonder there is stenosis.
My neck is trying to fuse as overcompensation for this injury and continued cervical and spinal instabilities.”
(Title of multiple meanings)
Being Tossed As Turning
“My body is just so fecking restless.
Whether from pain’s discomfort, fears of becoming homeless, gritting teeth at others not helping, or churned passions needing attention.
Give me a break.
Literally.
Just give me a break.
But I need more than just a break.
I need a life that feeds and nourishes me.”
Night Sendings
“In the dream, a Great Horned Owl alighted on a ledge in front of and facing me.”
(Radioactive – The Firm)
HyperStatus
Static crackle of
Power’s inferno
Unbuffered reaction
To nuclear meltdown
Charged
From not getting what she needed or wanted.
(Title of multiple meanings)
(Night Time – Borneland & Falcon Punch ft. Line Gøttsche)
AAAAAA!
“I can’t do it, anymore – feckin’ trank me!”
Feck
Who could she talk with about this, who would understand both sides and help lend her strength in managing this well and correctly?
Everyone around her had developed their entrenched biases, and she did not want this to explode to next levels.
Pressure Steams
“As others blithely assume that they can lean harder on me, without proper reciprocation.”
Sulphite Headache
“I regret last night’s partial small mason jar of red wine.”
(Movie theatre class)
Pinched Neck
A reminder to not miss one’s workout.
Is Barely Enough?
About to attend another retraining, she knew that due to her concussion, she would barely be able to preview the material, if at all, before workshops commenced.
The best that she could do at this time would be to show up and absorb the practice experience – leaving further indepth study for when she’d begin to integrate techniques into her practice.
Saturday’s Task
“A friend helped me take apart the cattery and get the varied shaped panels around the pampass grass roots.
The funny thing is, for too long I kept trying to shape the fencing in two arcs around the two separate clusters of clumps – but kept needing more extensions, which were limited.
She then determined that if we placed them linearly in front of the clumps and only arced on one end, then attached both ends to other prior existing fencing, we would have enough panels to do the job.
But my brain had been overcomplicating instead of simplifying due to the concussion.
And today’s event reinforced the understanding that for once I was automatulically creatuve, rather than linaer inclined.”
(Fooled Around And Fell In Love – Elvin Bishop)
A Video Clip Said,
“Your tongue carries light.”
Well then, “Loodle-loodle – let there be light!”
(Sticks out tongue)
(Just The Way You Are – Billy Joel)
Coming Back To Life
“Success for me can be measured by getting back onto a track that feels more like true expression of myself, rather than who I have been forced to be when under the pressure of dire circumstances.”
Gaaads
The treatment had caused her eyes to get puffy.
(Get Up Offa That Thing – James Brown)
Fuuuuuuuuu**
“I guess it’s time to get uuuuup.”
Brain Ticking
Though the shocking barks of the other dogs protesting at having been left behind (despite their already having just been walked) kept suddenly scare-jarring through her attempting-to-slumber body, she determined that if she disassembled the cattery fencing in the back yard that could no longer be used as a cattery due to those same dogs obsessing over any cat visitors, she could at least use it to cordon off the last bits of root nubs of what used to be huge pampas grass shelters (which had become a fire hazard before the dogs tore them down – but now needed remnant preservation saving).
Gone With The Wind
One teenage year day, the girl came home to losses’ tragedy.
The escape specialist had let all three of the dogs out of the back yard, and the girl’s mother had found their beautiful blue older dane (who had also been mother to the girl) curled up gracefully in her old age, dead, somewhere along the roadside, and the girl’s playful dobie had likely gotten scooped up by someone – never to be seen or heard from again.
The escapee returned as usual, but was rehomed as banishment from the premises for his actions having such consequences, though he had always had a kind and cheerful heart.
(Disco Inferno [Edit] – The Trammps)
Neurofeedback
Bombshell
(Session)
(Boogie Oogie Oogie – A Taste Of Honey)
Capitalization
Her being launched too early into cleaning the floors in the morning had led to other layers.
Worship, As You Will
There is love in “God,” the Universe, and in Us.
(Title of multiple meanings)
(Money Can’t Buy It – Annie Lennox)
In The Dream,
“I shouted out to a willfully ignorant younger woman by projecting my warrior’s voice without polite friendliness, just surity:
“You’re poisoning the world, with your negativity!”
Ouch!
Her thigh bumped hard in the dark against the edge of a large suitcase not normally placed there.
(Langue D’Amour · Laurie Anderson)
Biding Time
“Until rapture.”
There’s So Much
To share every day but
Silence gets in the way
Pod People
They were everywhere.
Driving her crazy.
Specific, selective pairings.
Denial
“A certain amount at times seems healthy for survival.”
Sleep Deprivation
“Probably not an ally in rebooting.”
Clamping Down
Getting upset just creates more upheaval.
No Room In A House Full Of Rooms
Fencing and chairs are placed upon the couch coverlets to keep the dogs off, which also keeps the humans off.
Well, at least I am kept off.
Piles continually accruing accumulate unrelated to any of my functioning – as do skitters of loose cat litter, floating balls of wolf fluff, muddy paw prints and human foot traffic residues from lack of entryway rugs – because if they were left on the floor, a dog or two would pee upon them.
So, instead, everything else gets spread across onto the floor – and the dogs pee and have to be cleaned up after, anyway.
Did I mention that my kitchen chairs and beautiful vintage coffee table have had their real, solid wood and filagreed beauty desecrated by unrepentent multi-gnawing?
And dust accumulates on any surface as soon as it is cleaned due to high activity passage.
And when I picked up the glass salt container today while trying to cook, some type of mysterious goo dripped from its base onto my hand from the kitchen counter.
I stopped trying to cook, covered the meat with tin foil, stuck it back into the fridge, and walked away carrying some strange supplement mixture to consume, instead of real food.
Let me tell you about the layers of pet gates to travel through – and blockades of a fan and chair to move – to get back and forth between kitchen and bedrooms.
All of this requires precision flow of movements and wrecks near every step if one has torn joints or instable limb issues.
Also, my lovely kitchen curtains got a hole chewed through them, and one day I came home to find that the youngest dog had crawled through the hole (why?!) and was standing there in one position confused until I helped him out as I tsked at him in bemused exacerbation.
(Hilarious, I know…)
Then I just completely cut the curtain – eliminating the danger and any ‘last remnants’ of my former attachment to them.
And I am still not sure where we put the missing piano chair.”
Giving Up
“As the captain of yet another ark filled with so many inhabitants which are now under my protection’s jurisdiction as I, myself, am required to now travel abroad to work for reparations despite my own injuries – and with very little help from anybody – I now declare this floating overflowed zone as lacking for recepetion of any company!”
Thusly Begin,
Accompanying comments and explicative noises.
By The Numbers
Counting them, one by one, to be able to perform.
