Category: Altered States

“When performing on self, it can cause temporary abrading – simply from difficulty in maneuvering.

“Poor love…I never seem to find for you the right resting position.”

“Past Martial Arts, rock climbing, and general balance-pivoting skills help me manage this ambulatory insanity!”

“I cannot help but be nervous as I keep working on my body from central core to tips of limbs to keep reclaiming territory.

It was terrifying to have lost coordination and responsiveness / strength through to digits!”

“To see how my feet have changed since the accident.

I am becoming a different creature – altogether…”

Not just around joint attachments, but the actual support muscles around them yielding too much and too easily to where hips’ and shoulders’ insides flex through planes they normally wouldn’t.

Time to begin adding some counter-balancing exercises.

In body tension
Spine recovers

By resting upon
Glomming sack

Releasing swelling
As strength returns

More protection
For injured back

Too hot
Too cold
Burrowing

“We take for granted the miracle of natural structural integrity.”

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(Title of multiple neanings)

“Well, all of this has certainly sucked – and I am pretty much back to fending for myself again, despite injuries.

Yeah, I need to file for disability – because there is no way that I can attain previous numbers, again.

And yeah, the physicality of the therapies tears me apart, but that is why I’ve entered into modality retraining.

But I have to get through another year before I have things shifted onto a new track, and any help from society is waning.

At least, my neck having surgery is not a viable option, because at this point, it wouldn’t help anything.

My hips, however – they won’t consider surgery due to my age.

So I am just sh** out of luck – literally, no matter which way I turn.

At least I can try to regenerate some cash flow, again.

And let’s not even discuss my shoulders or spine…”

“I could help my body recover, if I were the therapist on the outside, rather than stuck within it.”

“I have some brain injury that interferes with visual data perception – ie: icons, pathway navigation relationships, once I engage my eyes to use the computer.

It also interferes with brain to vocal throat and jaw verbal transitions from thought to speech.

I mask this last bit well, but can feel the lag and glitches in stream of thought disruption and delays in muscle activation when I externally communicate.”

“Everything else will demand my attention – but the day’s worked-for calm has been shot to Hell, anyway.

Now I have to put my body into movement to try to ride out the cortisol.”

“Well, at least this injury is new…

That’s good, right?

Evening out to more territory being f-ed up is positive, right?

More terrain taking on load damage surely means I’m healing – RIGHT?!!”

“I don’t even know what I did, but now my right shoulder blade is twisting-tight ginked.

Perhaps because I need to PUNCH something real HARD!

So fun being ‘wrecked’…”

Just give me some actual peace
Where not only can I recover but

Then next emergencies just feck right OFF
Instead of causing adrenal muscle spasms!

“Past benefits taking current benefits, and I’m still in the hole – FECK!””