Category: Altered States

Commencing…

“There is no ‘ill will’ going on here…just people trying to figure out how best to survive and then thrive.”

Then stop trying?

“I will re-seed the lawn areas and cleanup.”

“An innovatively-productive way to ensure continued survival – though not always easy.”

“While preparing for disaster, also preparing for in case winds somehow shift in my favor.”

She had promised her half of the rent – and would follow through, even if it meant that she had no money to save herself, now.

And she would show up to court, doing all that she could to contain the damage and prevent its further spreading to others.

I will not confront
I will not add spin

I will not reinforce
This negative skew

“At least, it will be nice that when I clean up after them, my hard-paid-for efforts tearing at injured joints will show progress for more than only one day.”

“The first time, we lost the funding help because they delayed.

The second, I am now losing everything because they made other plans.

And didn’t tell me.

But then told agencies without my knowing.”

“That first day, it had come – completely different feom the ones before and since.

Seemingly speaking directly to me.

Not full of romance.

Bracing me.

Reassuring.

Encouraging.

Telling me that it wasn’t my fault.

That I had done everything I could.

And to keep going.

Soon after, I rushed out to get to work on time.

And saw the two copies taped onto our garage door.”

“Somewhere, my good must be earning interest…”

“How am I going to handle this one?”

Shock

Massive betrayal

Incredulity at the unnecessary harm caused

Branded

Hoisting the weight

Locking down

Figuring out how to get it off of me

Shut down

“Fleeting moments of glimmering sparks, best remembered as protected.”

“Is definitely not a fecking holiday.”

She had checked in person with the service provider the day before, yet when the important phone call came, her service had been turned off anyway – rendering her incapable.

Again

“I remember when I could run…”

“They are important…but I need solutions.”

No matter how hard it gets to
Still stand for the truth of good

Some things must not be said when one has reached the tipping off point.

Anyway

Migraine and too much uncertainty, shifting.

When we were close
I could feel you

But now
I feel

I AM

“Played right into it.”

The treadmill’s
Curse and cure

“When the matriarch’s husband died several years before her, we all gathered to watch his ashes being poured from high in the air out of an airplane over the coast of the ocean.

When the matriarch herself perished, we all just scattered like the chilled late afternoon wind that had dispersed his remnants.”

“Be sure to lock the door.”

Work in the absence of
Alternative functionality

Becomes too much to swallow
And then, overflows

Humans were flawed, yes…

But having flaws and giving into them
Are not the same

There is an emptiness
Where no.light enters as
Emotions stay concealed