Category: Altered States

Altered States, The Accident - As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named "Clyde" (Short For Collide) Because It's Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense, The Shower Accident 11/14/25

Backed Into A Corner

Candid Corvid Productions

“I was not responding well as of today from the concussion when getting other people’s help as they were pressuring.

I was either dealing with their trying to be time efficient and going in too many directions at once – spinning me in circles – and/or wasting my time, etc..”

Altered States, Comedy, The Accident - As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named "Clyde" (Short For Collide) Because It's Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense, The Shower Accident 11/14/25

“There Can Be Only One”

Candid Corvid Productions

“I now have two kinds of brain injury – and boy, let me tell you how fun this is navigating the shattered internal stratosphere!”

—

(Title reference to movie Highlander and the struggle to reclaim primary power)

Altered States, Comedy, The Shower Accident 11/14/25

Brain Injury Gaslighting

Candid Corvid Productions

“An advocate for brain injury support tried helping me today, and finished our appointment by giving me the number to call my next errand item.

After several times of copy and pasting the number, dialing, and getting my own voicemail, I finally realized that she had given me my own number by accident!”

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(Re: object identification shutdowns)

Altered States

Phase Shifting

Candid Corvid Productions

A response happened through a dream
When an upper professional bartended

We had met before teamed on a job
Where before he had supervised me

But the work was done at this party
And polite masks could be removed

My face alighted when I recognized him
But his hardened from purpled passion

He came close as whispered wet-harshly
Hinting at unspeakables he’d do to body

But his sexual tension flowed off me
Because he was not the one I wanted

Upon realizing I was a disinclined male I
Then introduced him to one more suited

Altered States, The Accident - As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named "Clyde" (Short For Collide) Because It's Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense, The Shower Accident 11/14/25

This Time Of My Life

Candid Corvid Productions

I had pushed through hardships
Carrying too much tension that

Was supposed to find release and
Began to right before car accident

My asking for an intervention was
Seeking help from the stress load

Not requesting next level struggles
Which now concussion compounds!

But hey, hey what can I say – it’s not
Like I had things I still wanted to do

(Wait – I did!)

And true, true I was tired from youth but
I didn’t want vital energy taken from me!

(How rude!)

I’m still going forward because I endure
But I’m more frustrated now by burdens

Making it even harder to create income
Let alone walk with confidence in smile

And the worst part is that there
Seems to be no getting beyond it!

Altered States, The Accident - As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named "Clyde" (Short For Collide) Because It's Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense, The Shower Accident 11/14/25

No More Losses

Candid Corvid Productions

I can’t afford effects of the ride by
Taking drugs, drinks, or medication

That would cause any imbalance in
How I manage emotional currents

Because I am still captaining my ship
With people dependent upon strength

If I break down during financial hardships
The wreckage would become unavoidable

So therefore I do not have the ‘luxury’ of
Being someone who has ‘medical needs’

Altered States

Drug Abuse

Candid Corvid Productions

She had wanted to crash under my wing
Seeing how I fought for my own family

But she was hard into drugs and alcohol
Already with a DUI knocking on my door

We were sandwiched between addicts
And she held power over our housing

I needed to keep her out of our haven
Because she was in destructive chaos

I chose to assert my boundaries but
Helped her with parole and probation

Encouraged her through rehabilitation
But she wanted me involved in legality

I refused because of the implied liability
Her neglectful family could turn on me

So she turned to her controlling friends
Taking harder drugs so that she’d fit in

I’d a sense she was heading directions
I could not control despite hard trying

I wasn’t surprised when she turned on me
Just confirmed I’d been right in my clarity

Because I needed my sight to navigate
The quagmire she’d created as we fled

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(Title of multiple meanings)

Altered States, The Accident - As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named "Clyde" (Short For Collide) Because It's Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense, The Shower Accident 11/14/25

Off The Table

Candid Corvid Productions

“The PA told me that basic concussions easily take  4-6 weeks for recovery, but can take much longer if more severe – especially if compounding prior brain injury.

Looks like I am in the latter category, as school and extra pursuits are no longer an option at present.”

Altered States

My Rings

Candid Corvid Productions

“Many of them are not fitting, anymore.

I don’t know if this is because my fingers are getting more densely strong from my efforts to keep repairing, or if due to systemic swelling.

When I try to put them on, they meet thick resistance – not the typical fluid retention flex.

Perhaps this also indicates my continued shifting, as if into a new form.”