Category: Altered States

A Woman's Plight, Altered States, The Accident - As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named "Clyde" (Short For Collide) Because It's Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense, The Shower Accident 11/14/25

Self Projecting

Candid Corvid Productions

“I am still hurt and my needed bits are not reconnected, so when pushed by timeliness and necessary labor, it’s my anger that brings strength to me by filling in the gaps and spaces with liquid rage.

And then when I can take a break for a moment, somewhere inside in the background, my subconscious is whimpering and crying hysterically while my ego screams ‘YAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH’ triumphantly for having achieved and beaten back disability.

In the late evenings and early mornings, I am not ok…

But I keep trying to be.”

(Title play with words)

A Woman's Plight, Altered States, The Accident - As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named "Clyde" (Short For Collide) Because It's Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense, The Shower Accident 11/14/25

Seething Resentment

Candid Corvid Productions

“I used to have occasional cranky periods, but they would come and go like temporary storms looking forward to the sunlight, again.

Now, because I have to keep physically and mentally powering through everything while suporessing emotion with little rest and down time for recuperation, I carry a molten fire cloud around me emitting angry, vexed, and determined frustration

D9 NOT make eye contact with me during these times, because my eyes will shoot out laser beams and burn friendliness to cinders as I grit my teeth – more upset by the invasion of my privacy intrusion.

Yeah, I dare you.

(Honestly, I do try to be nice while growling and struggling – but still, don’t tempt me)

Until it’s time to perform healing therapies, where I must access the other, finer qualities of my personality for others’ benefit.

And then it’s right back into the pit fires of Hell for me.”

A Woman's Plight, Altered States, Society

Back To God

Candid Corvid Productions

In having to sort through, separate, and send onward so much of this and that as quickly as possible, she emboldened herself and left the “gifted” prayer rug at the masjid door to the women’s section.

For though it had been brilliantly colored beautifully, she needed to have its taint cleansed by others’ innocence.

Because it had been a “gift” that essentially tried to leverage itself as a buy-off.

A consolation prize added to a small pile of materialistic goods with an enforced permanent “farewell” in the guise of “visit any time.”

And, she still didn’t understand how people who professed such deep beliefs in God’s “teachings” could ever do such a thing.

(Title play with words)

A Woman's Plight, Altered States, The Accident - As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named "Clyde" (Short For Collide) Because It's Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense, The Shower Accident 11/14/25

Reclaiming Space

Candid Corvid Productions

“It was difficult being squeezed out and against the walls by others taking over the space in my own home, and scattered my sense of self and any functionality after prior car accident injuries were made worse by the shower slip’s concussive fall.”