Category: Altered States

Golden red-silver filagree
Coiling taught as if brittle

In soft to wiring spiraling
Framing as grows thicker

Due to daily washing and
Blow dry scalp prevention

Since summer’s awareness
Floating like a haloed cloud

“Can’t I sleep?”

“Yesterday, thanks to an investing client’s generosity, I had a little bit of funding to go out and obtain a few special items as Christmas gifts for my children and their beloveds.

I took a pause in the evening as bit a large, satisfying mouthful from a too-long-awaited Carl’s Jr Triple Western Cheeseburger (TM) lettuce wrap with double-blended Pink Drink (TM) topped with whipped cream sip soon to follow, and felt and gave thanks for the timely ‘abundance’ blessing.”

“Reassurance that comes from being around other people who’s brain waves track well with mine.”

“I don’t feel like I’ve got anything going my way in this category, currently.”

Managing.

It is about finding truth in expression
Hopefully with some gentile elegance

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(Title of multiple meanings)

“More fuzz on the bench, please.”

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(Like at a football game…dreamstate concepts)

She kept searching through as
Lived parts of dream scenarios

Until one evening, she stopped
And opened a sliding glass door

As she stepped back, he suddenly
Appeared, stepping into the room

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(Title of a Sleep Token song)

Whipped Cream + Sour Cream

A response happened through a dream
When an upper professional bartended

We had met before teamed on a job
Where before he had supervised me

But the work was done at this party
And polite masks could be removed

My face alighted when I recognized him
But his hardened from purpled passion

He came close as whispered wet-harshly
Hinting at unspeakables he’d do to body

But his sexual tension flowed off me
Because he was not the one I wanted

Upon realizing I was a disinclined male I
Then introduced him to one more suited

Of masking
My passion

As I keep fighting
To reclaim myself

Exacerbate with prolonged unknowns.

That’s where slippage happens
They say taking drugs will help

But unless they are also healing
Their rides take us other places

Do what you need that is right for you
But for me medication’s been negative

She had wanted to crash under my wing
Seeing how I fought for my own family

But she was hard into drugs and alcohol
Already with a DUI knocking on my door

We were sandwiched between addicts
And she held power over our housing

I needed to keep her out of our haven
Because she was in destructive chaos

I chose to assert my boundaries but
Helped her with parole and probation

Encouraged her through rehabilitation
But she wanted me involved in legality

I refused because of the implied liability
Her neglectful family could turn on me

So she turned to her controlling friends
Taking harder drugs so that she’d fit in

I’d a sense she was heading directions
I could not control despite hard trying

I wasn’t surprised when she turned on me
Just confirmed I’d been right in my clarity

Because I needed my sight to navigate
The quagmire she’d created as we fled

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(Title of multiple meanings)

Is the underlying need that
Of learning and growing?

One moment can hold so much meaning
It causes defensive reaction misreading

“Bring your demons to the fore.”

“Feels ill.”