Category: Altered States

A Woman's Plight, Altered States, The Accident - As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named "Clyde" (Short For Collide) Because It's Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense

Some Great Reward

Candid Corvid Productions

She had not thought of the consequences to herself for bracing against the incoming car’s impact – only that she was in a split second outraged and defiant in her refusal to let the man’s short-sightedness use her and her vehicle as inadvertent means to harm anyone around her.

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(Title is also the name of a Depeche Mode album)

A Woman's Plight, Altered States, The Accident - As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named "Clyde" (Short For Collide) Because It's Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense, Where Demons Tread

StarLight

Candid Corvid Productions

“The pressures of the years rapidly increasing from the accident’s fallout have produced pronounced silver strands to either side of my cheek bones – which I always thought would be cool, but the Crone is definitely getting to drink her fill.”

A Woman's Plight, Altered States, Where Demons Tread

Dear Friend,

Candid Corvid Productions

“Where is the room for courtship and romance?

Is it enough of a start to have spoken our shared truths at distance?

I wore a mask today to protect my fellow healer students.

But doing so overheated my brain and recycled whatever I was fighting off so now I feel feverish.

So if, for example, we were to meet this evening, my instincts would be to turn you away to protect you.

Or…

The only other option would be to invite you in where we would instantly (hopefully) succumb to sleep together – and I would likely infect you.

Are we allowed to just cross that line and fall into natural rhythms together?

Why do I feel like I’ve always known you – as though we are tethered?”

A Woman's Plight, Altered States, The Accident - As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named "Clyde" (Short For Collide) Because It's Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense

Symptomatics

Candid Corvid Productions

“Reactions to compounding lag in an injured system from having to repeatedly respond to new emergencies that push pressure loads beyond capacities into enforced quick adapting can lead to reactions and/or shut downs which present behaviors much like complex PTSD – either drastically slowing or suddenly forcefully expelling energy as a result of the system’s desperate attempts to create space for self regulation.”

A Woman's Plight, Altered States, The Accident - As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named "Clyde" (Short For Collide) Because It's Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense

Encouragement

Candid Corvid Productions

“Even with continuing and multi-varied discouragements, I must cling to a moment ago’s realization that as I continue working new patterns over and over, my methods are beginning to adapt into streamlining.

Perhaps much of the issue exacerbating my injuries is constant disruption negatively reinforcing sensory overwhelm and overstimulation.”

A Woman's Plight, Altered States, The Accident - As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named "Clyde" (Short For Collide) Because It's Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense

Steps Back & Forward

Candid Corvid Productions

“Although I may have just been exposed to COVID right in time to potentially sabotage attending my retraining, it is nice to note that my handwriting is beginning to smooth again at times – compared to right after and since the accident injuries disrupted motor skills coordination.”