She refused to pay high marks for poorly constructed quality, and so had to cast her net wider to replenish some core supplies.
Category: Hyde’s Bride
A Valid Point
“The past frequency of older men marrying younger women not only afforded potential for financial stability for a new family – but more possibility that by then the man would have gained some worthwhile maturity!
Although, there are those rare instances when a man achieves greatness beyond those of his elders and peers, way ahead of preordained schedule…
Including admiration of so many throngs of ladies.”
—
(Title play with words)
(Rush – Jerro ft. Benjamin Roustaing)
Funny, That…
She had become ill because of how he had been treating her.
Then, despite all that she had given and supported before, he and his family just threw her out onto the street so that they would not have to care for her.
And yet, once away from them all, even though caught up in the miring of dust and the toil, her sanity came back to her because she was no longer under their corrupted control nor influence.
Now that was worth some hearty, full throttled, open-mouthed and loudly maniacal laughter – even without any liquor!
(I Need You – Jerro)
We Can Handle It All Right
Desire
She wanted him.
Not because he was perfect.
But because he worked for and toward it.
And collapsed when he couldn’t.
But then, got back up again – despite any weakness.
He was the man that she wanted to stand and fall with.
Because, together, they could find ways to rise again and fall more gently.
For they had what it takes to mutually invest in and enjoy life in any weather.
They could catch and lead each other.
They could be passionately, exclusively essential lovers.
Higher Calling
She needed a man who had fought for his higher values and proven his commitment in the past, just as she had fought for and proven hers.
Choking On The Past
God(s) – Make It Stop!
She didn’t want these dream reminders of how her life in relationship used to be…
Resurfacing memories playing out in new scenarios creating a continuum where being relegated to less than almost barely tolerable was what she deserved – and the way that it “should” always be!
(Sirens – Monolink, Extended Version)
The Right One
Hurting
Afraid
Defensive
Desiring
—
(Multiple meanings)
By Design
She could only mean as much to him
As he would allow her to mean to him
Realizing this barrier made her
Want to scream Hell at Heaven
—
(Title of multiple references)
The Strain
I can’t hold this on my own, anymore
I never have wanted & don’t want to
Just Stop
Do not tell me what
I should need or think
When you clearly do not
Know what is good for me
Behind The Scenes
“More feral, than lady-like…”
Entertainment
One by one
They lined up
Enjoying watching how
She danced for them
Their presence
Pretending interest
But not one actually
Investing in her
(The Wind Cries Mary – The Jimi Hendrix Experience)
“How It Feels”
BLAST LOUDLY (Everlong – Foo Fighters)
Maniacal Laughter
“…and encourages you to believe in your path…”
Compromise
How can a woman feel worthy
When needs community help?
Diminuitive Stature
Do not be fooled into
Thinking that I’m weak
When my power retracts
In hybernation’s dormancy
Tested, Again
“Ever fe-cking TESTED…
‘Give me a blade and a time and a place…’
Cowards couldn’t dare to face me when I was stronger…”
—
(Quote Reference to Sleep Token’s “Look To Windward”)
(Run Away – Ben Böhmer, Tinlicker, & Felix Raphael Extended Mix)
Word Of The Day: Shame
“Blame cast unfairly – where the victims are forced to carry the crimes’ burden of others’ wrongdoings and/or projections.”
“Desireability”
Health
Youth
Money
Anything Could Happen
She assumed that with her injuries, age, and poverty, that she would not be seen as “worthy.”
Remember When?
“If we were lucky, someone would come by on horseback and ask if we had any mail to send?
Remember when we had to travel great distance through weather to town if we didn’t have this option?
And then, that letter had higher chances of getting lost or interfered with?
So why, now – with the internet and phone networks allowing us to reach each other in less than a minute in nearly any part of the world – is it even harder to directly communicate?”
Mama’s Warrior
(Nice To Know You – LovelyTheBand)
Contrast
External poverty
But heart of gold
(Medusa – Øneheart, juno, Baby Jane)
Already Lost And Won – Faller Music
Internal Wounding
Like sticky black taffy tar clogging where life’s vital blood should circulate freely, infection from others’ betrayals against love’s purity still encumbered her.
(Portrait On The Wall – FoldingSky)
Broken Lines
They hadn’t cared that their matriarch’s elegant clothes and personal belongings were going to be left behind for the angry daughter-in-law to defile and desecrate in her latent rage.
They didn’t care that the fridge’s unfinished holiday helpings if left to rot would cause damage over time in the now abandoned house and give the daughter-in-law reason to sue and place blame.
And they certainly didn’t care about the matriarch’s beloved seasonal china laid out twice yearly in sacred tradition to welcome her family.
No…
Her granddaughter-in-law saw the truth in all of it and made sure that the family helped her secure that no trace nor censure of their matriarch could be used to tarnish her memory.
They barely helped, and most reluctantly.
Oh, yes…
And then, once they realized that the china had value and they could sell it back to the angry daughter-in-law for cash value – they demanded that the granddaughter-in-law’s family turn it over to them, accusing her of interfering and “attempted stealing.”
Cut Ties
She had found out recently the that original marriage had been actively sabotaged by her ex’s family due to spite and jeolousy once their beloved matriarch passed.
But this did not exonerate him.
In fact, it emphasized the lack of mutual devotion that she had repeatedly encountered throughout her entire life.
(Woman In Chains – Tears For Fears)
Handling Fire
(Hold On My Heart – Genesis)
Dear Friend,
“Are you my ‘Jekyll and Hyde?'”
Seeking Safety
Risking Alone
She felt that this had made her into a target for criticism – and that they had all been judging and laughing at her.
Trials Of Conduct
Her hand smacked firm, palm down with a cracking resound as she emphasized to the council’s misdirected criticism – “All I was trying to do was keep us alive.”
Being A Woman
(Ever Know – HAEVN)
Saving Me
“It becomes ever further apparent that my creations here keep me from dissolving completely.”
(Song For Zula – Phosphorescent)
Funny How
“The years go by and nothing stops lost love’s bleeding.
But, perhaps this is because no one came to stay and help create love’s healing.”
Every Body’s
Looking
For a story to
Just fall into
Expecting
Easy entry
Refusimg
The work
Authentic
Connection
Requires
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