Do not tell me what
I should need or think
When you clearly do not
Know what is good for me
Category: Hyde’s Bride
Behind The Scenes
“More feral, than lady-like…”
Entertainment
One by one
They lined up
Enjoying watching how
She danced for them
Their presence
Pretending interest
But not one actually
Investing in her
(The Wind Cries Mary – The Jimi Hendrix Experience)
“How It Feels”
BLAST LOUDLY (Everlong – Foo Fighters)
Maniacal Laughter
“…and encourages you to believe in your path…”
Compromise
How can a woman feel worthy
When needs community help?
Diminuitive Stature
Do not be fooled into
Thinking that I’m weak
When my power retracts
In hybernation’s dormancy
Tested, Again
“Ever fe-cking TESTED…
‘Give me a blade and a time and a place…’
Cowards couldn’t dare to face me when I was stronger…”
—
(Quote Reference to Sleep Token’s “Look To Windward”)
(Run Away – Ben Böhmer, Tinlicker, & Felix Raphael Extended Mix)
Word Of The Day: Shame
“Blame cast unfairly – where the victims are forced to carry the crimes’ burden of others’ wrongdoings and/or projections.”
“Desireability”
Health
Youth
Money
Anything Could Happen
She assumed that with her injuries, age, and poverty, that she would not be seen as “worthy.”
Remember When?
“If we were lucky, someone would come by on horseback and ask if we had any mail to send?
Remember when we had to travel great distance through weather to town if we didn’t have this option?
And then, that letter had higher chances of getting lost or interfered with?
So why, now – with the internet and phone networks allowing us to reach each other in less than a minute in nearly any part of the world – is it even harder to directly communicate?”
Mama’s Warrior
(Nice To Know You – LovelyTheBand)
Contrast
External poverty
But heart of gold
(Medusa – Øneheart, juno, Baby Jane)
Already Lost And Won – Faller Music
Internal Wounding
Like sticky black taffy tar clogging where life’s vital blood should circulate freely, infection from others’ betrayals against love’s purity still encumbered her.
(Portrait On The Wall – FoldingSky)
Broken Lines
They hadn’t cared that their matriarch’s elegant clothes and personal belongings were going to be left behind for the angry daughter-in-law to defile and desecrate in her latent rage.
They didn’t care that the fridge’s unfinished holiday helpings if left to rot would cause damage over time in the now abandoned house and give the daughter-in-law reason to sue and place blame.
And they certainly didn’t care about the matriarch’s beloved seasonal china laid out twice yearly in sacred tradition to welcome her family.
No…
Her granddaughter-in-law saw the truth in all of it and made sure that the family helped her secure that no trace nor censure of their matriarch could be used to tarnish her memory.
They barely helped, and most reluctantly.
Oh, yes…
And then, once they realized that the china had value and they could sell it back to the angry daughter-in-law for cash value – they demanded that the granddaughter-in-law’s family turn it over to them, accusing her of interfering and “attempted stealing.”
Cut Ties
She had found out recently the that original marriage had been actively sabotaged by her ex’s family due to spite and jeolousy once their beloved matriarch passed.
But this did not exonerate him.
In fact, it emphasized the lack of mutual devotion that she had repeatedly encountered throughout her entire life.
(Woman In Chains – Tears For Fears)
Handling Fire
(Hold On My Heart – Genesis)
Dear Friend,
“Are you my ‘Jekyll and Hyde?'”
Seeking Safety
Risking Alone
She felt that this had made her into a target for criticism – and that they had all been judging and laughing at her.
Trials Of Conduct
Her hand smacked firm, palm down with a cracking resound as she emphasized to the council’s misdirected criticism – “All I was trying to do was keep us alive.”
Being A Woman
(Ever Know – HAEVN)
Saving Me
“It becomes ever further apparent that my creations here keep me from dissolving completely.”
(Song For Zula – Phosphorescent)
Funny How
“The years go by and nothing stops lost love’s bleeding.
But, perhaps this is because no one came to stay and help create love’s healing.”
Every Body’s
Looking
For a story to
Just fall into
Expecting
Easy entry
Refusimg
The work
Authentic
Connection
Requires
DisIntegration
Once she had children, they were the excuse by her partner for further distraction and disintegration of their prior pair bonding.
When & Where?
“Has a woman been seen as desireable for wanting and needing a man without being required to, in return, give up her independent identity?”
Wrath
“And no amount of love will keep it around
If we don’t choose it
And I don’t know what’s got its teeth in me
But I’m about to bite back in anger
No amount of self-sought fury
Will bring back the glory of innocence”
—-
(Sleep Token lyrics from “Take Me Back To Eden”)
(The Pretender – Foo Fighters)
The Cure For What Ails
“‘Dear Friend,
I know you’ve seen what I’ve seen, and the only cure I know of is to live and share the truth that those of us with vision have been given.'”
Cackling Glee
“Hear me – oh you ignorant sot of Eden’s loins and blessings!”
Monetizing Love
“Consuming resources and shitting out a putrescent, non-reusable byproduct.”
The Grist Of Sin
“Adam taking his rib – and trading it for others.”
Blaming Women
“Naughty boys rape and pillage to stay children and avoid attonement.”
Knowledge
“Meant to empower us to evolve into God’s chosen mirroring – not to blaspheme by destroying what’s good in the earth!”
Adam’s Apple
“They never tell how he spat out the seeds, rather than planting and tending to them.”
Hypocrisy
“But they’re wasteful and desecrating ways are what degraded our humble humility.”
Blow Back
“And then they’re alarmed and offended when we gather and fight back.”
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