“He didn’t value it – thus,, didn’t value my pursuit of it.”
Category: Male Bonding
Past Loves
“Ended by male non-participation.”
(Together – Jay Aliyev)
Yep
Just Be True
Text Conversions
Weak Vs. Strong Men
Romantic Choices
“You what, ‘mate?'”
If A Man Has Done His Work
It Must Be Magic!
(Numb – Elderbrook, Chill Mix)
Striking Out
She had given them chances aplenty, but abandonment was always a dealbreaker.
(Missing Limbs – Sleep Token)
Severed limbs
She had been there for him through his worst times, but when his crazymaking and her longterm starvation for his love converged into a sickening slew, he abandoned her – later stating that he could not carry any weight to be there for her.
True Dat
Black Dragon
Laughs at machinations
Opening her own maw
To swallow them whole
Feasting on own blood
Transmutating power
Back into her hands
Leaving them gaping
In awe and wonder
As she takes to
Broken skies
Chem Trails
The hyper-sexualized narcicist thought he’d had her in his clutches by way of hormones procurred soaking into her bloodstream.
But to his vexation, she didn’t give a sh** about addiction when it came to there being an absence of love involved.
Bear In Mind
“Games are fun, but I do not like being manipulated.”
(Title play with words – Raar!)
(Magic Man – Heart)
Lost Trust From Abandonment
“Due to lack of others’ followthrough.
I guess this is why I keep trying to be independent.
Necessity into habit.”
Healer & Protector
“They are saying this is a right combo.
I kept developing my skills as a healer, but the others stopped protecting.
I had to take on both roles in absence of others’ followthrough.
No wonder I struggle with burnout.”
(Love Language – Crooked Colours)
The Trouble With Ex’s
“They were afraid of my power and/or underestimated my adaptabilities.”
(Dark Signs – Sleep Token)
Last Years Of “Normal”
A college professor
Crossed boundaries
Exciting inclusions
Turned infiltrative
Wanted to hear
Trauma secrets
Insidious warp
Sexual power
In guise as
Counselor
Lidded eye
Distortions
Pushing agenda
Crumbled focus
Breaking spell
Compromised
Grasping key
Cut Bachelor’s
Couldn’t regain
Disrupted track
In reawakening
Poetic messages
Finding moments’
Simple interludes
Chance to succeed
Ending as bloomed
Base support
Underminded
Gross human
Unkindness
Anarchistic
Rebellions
Destroying
Good cause
In name of
“Freedom”
(Sail – AWOLNATION)
Growing Pains
Well my “once-upon-a-times”
We each must move onward
No more threats of death
Allowed to hang over us
No more running away
From trials of each day
Just facing and bracing
Remembering lessons
Hard-earned by blood
Lost between fingers
Stemming the wounds
By gauzed-over sutures
And turning our faces to
Become whole under sun
(Teardrop – Massive Attack)
Bitter Ends
I never wanted to hurt you
And did all I could not to
Yet you were the one
Who broke the rules
And we both became
An example of fools
Diminished Stature
I knew you were under pressure
And that you would regret losses
But I also had no control
You took it away from me
How could I ever trust you again
Having suffered consequences?
How can I trust any man
To stand tall beside me?
Tipped Scales
Avoidance
“Kind, caring, loving, inclusive, affectionate…
Toxicity calls these endearments ‘too clingy.'”
(Pieces – Forester)
Looking Back
It would seem that she’d
Had several opportunities
But every man was distant
Whether near or overseas
She couldn’t even call one
Bonded lasting friendship
As truer assessment was
They were acquaintences
That dragged on
Promising more
But never
Delivering
Reparations
How does a good partnership help to heal damage from past negating relationships?
(Title of multiple meanings)
Counter Balance
Saying “it wasn’t your fault”
Does not counter the impact
Of experience as if it had been
(Title of multiple meanings)
Rot
Do I cut it out?
Sear with fire?
Jump into the flames to
Absolve flesh as expire?
What conjured solution
Heals pussed infection
When such a curse
Continues traction?
(Better Broken – Sarah McLachlan)
A-Quittal
She disengaged because she learned that he was still attached, and she would not be a factor to further wedge apart their family.
Why couldn’t he understand this and forgive, rather than blame her?
Feeder Breeders
A woman must become powerful in her own way to successfully navigate forces in this world alone with children of her own.
Is she then required to relinquish this power when a man wishes to join and bond with her?
To accept a man as provider has seemed to imply societally this trade-off.
Yet, what then is to keep the man’s interest after her fire is given to him?
Too frequently, the woman’s offering gets taken for granted as the man then loses interest.
And then he goes after another in pursuit of fresh fire, rather than learning how to restoke in the first woman what his apathy depleted.
(Possibly Maybe – Bjork)
Plucky Hen
As she hefted the onus of recovery
She allowed her mother’s imprint
To settle over her countenance
Warding off weak, angry men
Who would have once
Seen her as desireable
Counter-Man-Ding
Avoiding men her age helped
To subvert ingrained training
By generation undeserving
Propagating violent biases
Which counted against any
Ranking they might’ve had
(Only The Lonely – The Motels)
It’s Like I Told You
“Only the lonrly can play.”
(Motels band song reference)
Pimps
Get you hooked
Then begging
For a taste
(All I Haven’t Said – 38 Special)
Built For Trust, Not Lust
Woman by self cannot easily service
Whereas Man can any time by hand
This was designed for Man to manage
His vitality – not to seed an entire land
And to remind him of his responsibilities
To one woman as heart and soul provider
Duplicity
A Lover will endure
The worst behaviors
Because they believe
In people’s capabilities
Recognizing that when
Someone behaves badly
This does not necessarily
Define their true essence
Often, unfortunately, to
The Lover’s detriment
