Category: Stream of Thought

Congnitive Behavioral Training

“Unlike the suppressive generations before me, as I continue to mature, I keep an open heart that – as a result – also remains vulnerable.

Respect me for my bravery.

Don’t squash me!”

I am afraid that the future won’t be there for me.

I admit it.

My brain is overloaded.

But I must realize that it is because I am in the swirl of organizing startup of several avenues while doing damage control and reparations.

Once everything is settled, there is premise that my schedule should even out more smoothly.

Time to “dream” while awake is necessary.

Projects

Innovation

Teaching

Collaborating

Revisiting complex ancestry.

Some very important things can just become so snarled that one has to walk away from them.

But it is helpful for healing if pieces can be revisited and amended from time to time.

(Title alludes to the phrase)

It’s important that I allow what matters to my core identity to have front-and-center staging.

I am just going to have to push against barriers that try to counteract me, keeping my eye on the outcomes that I desire for my better positioning.

Three years on the mountain had taken her vitality like an old woman sucks with toothless gums on once-marrowed bones.

She had wanted him from those first days in school in the early 90’s.

Twenty years later, she got the opportunity to know him better, yet was cautious.

Then their paths diverted, and she always wondered about the mechanisms behind it all.

George Burns, John Denver, and Teri Garr.

(I used to look forward to George Burns’ next shows – and with one of my favorite childhood singers and Teri Garr, what a fun cast of the time!)

How is this to work in the Here and Now?

Adding finishing my Bachelor’s.

No moderation, but balancing…

We were ousted from another home due to yet another’s addiction, only to find that we could not find any replacememt housing.

This initiated a next-level sequence of events which kept pushing me further away from regaining solid ground, and subverted the creative-expressive person I had invested again to be.

Out in the sun scooping dog poo in my pleasant reveries this Sunday morning, in the bushes and trees next to me, a hummingbird began trilling.

As I return to the creative arts, happiness appears easily in moments of silly emitting and ease with what’s around me.

944 is an incredible message…it shows you that success and fulfillment are on the horizon. You simply need to prioritize yourself, your goals, and your spiritual growth.

https://www.alittlesparkofjoy.com/angel-number-944/#:~:text=The%20angel%20number%20944%20is%20an%20incredible%20message%20from%20your,goals%2C%20and%20your%20spiritual%20growth.

“Empedocles’ idea that the qualities of matter come from the relative proportions of each of the four elements entering into a thing.”

Wikipedia (haha!)

I am finding more beautiful-soul people.

Giving to the givers, rather than the takers.

Before, I always had to worry that everyone else could manage while I was away – which often gave a misread to my own sense of security.

If it’s a part of life’s requirements, then I will change the components so that I enjoy it.

I thought, ok – yeah, sure…

I know how to tecover from this.

But I did not realize it would be a longer journey.

This will be the first time in over 5 years that we have been able to decorate and celebrate.

Why did I dream about playing the guitar, when trying to do so would increase finger cramping?

I need to cool this inflammation down.

Monday, with precisioned chiropractic care and gentle, calculated traction, I could feel my anterior hip begin to readjust properly in its socket.

The kind I crave is my own.

I will work in the music and film industry.

lu·men¹

/ˈlo͞omən/

noun

PHYSICS

plural noun: lumens

1. the SI unit of luminous flux, equal to the amount of light emitted per second in a unit solid angle of one steradian from a uniform source of one candela.

Oxford

(Yaaas, definition is more of my languaaaage! “Steradian!” “Candela!”)

I need pressure removed – not added to the equation. How do I reconfigure this thing!

Being me currently is like waking up from a coma to find others’ lives proceeded smoothly while mine was left broken on the curbside.

“Hello. My name is Athena, and I’m a suppressed creative trying to recover my identity after being persecuted and silenced by “polite society.”

If one more person tries to tell me that as a visionary I should get my head out of the clouds – when I should be learning how to embrace this gift more fully – I tell you, with this migraine, I am go-ing to SCREAM!

Hey, man…

We’re all just practicin’ here.

Nobody has to be perfect.

I rise to the roles that I can – and am allowed to play.

This concept that one can just reach out into a pool of gasping anchovies and derive sustenance may work if you have a big enough net to haul in a large enough supply, but does not apply to monogamy – so why expose myself and try?

Likely, the biggest issue from the car accident is that neurologically all my cells continue to fire alarm signals because I was “attacked,” which makes me feel more vulnerable and in greater need of soothing.

It is important to note that where I’ve come from in my past has not been by way of the Sea of Tranquility.

It has been a journey through ravaged lands where nearly everyone I met was some sort of “unhinged” or infected by others’ “crazy.”

It is not that I have an issue of low self esteem, but that I get discouraged if there is no plausible reason for me to be somewhere that I would like to be.

While I chafe at the limiting constrictions of employment, neither am I able to rest at ease by carrying all of the pressures of entrepreneurship.

Observant of her patterns, yet uncertain exactly how and where to change them.

She stayed up late at night, keeping watch for some unknown reason.

She was glad for the intervention because she had felt prodded by the visions.

Now, with no way to make contact, she was granted space to retrain focus.

A better car and some unfinished business.

Joy

Decompressing thigh and hip attachments.