“OMG – NOOOO!
Exactly that which activates my brain injury!”
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(Trying to access lyrics – and bailing!)
Category: The Accident – As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named “Clyde” (Short For Collide) Because It’s Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense
Ginked Neck
“Poor love…I never seem to find for you the right resting position.”
At Least,
“Past Martial Arts, rock climbing, and general balance-pivoting skills help me manage this ambulatory insanity!”
Hard Won
“I cannot help but be nervous as I keep working on my body from central core to tips of limbs to keep reclaiming territory.
It was terrifying to have lost coordination and responsiveness / strength through to digits!”
It’s So Weird
“To see how my feet have changed since the accident.
I am becoming a different creature – altogether…”
Pacing
“It would be great if all of the back and forth were making me stronger…
I don’t want to just keep struggling.”
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(Title and content of multiple meanings)
Beauty
“It’s difficult to feel attractive when I do not feel right in my body.”
Hypermobility
Not just around joint attachments, but the actual support muscles around them yielding too much and too easily to where hips’ and shoulders’ insides flex through planes they normally wouldn’t.
Time to begin adding some counter-balancing exercises.
YouTube
“Has made it harder to save to playlists.
I won’t go into the details, but I wanted to throw my phone over it.”
(I Will Rise Up · Bless Bagopi)
Abdominal Support
In body tension
Spine recovers
By resting upon
Glomming sack
Releasing swelling
As strength returns
More protection
For injured back
I Wonder
“Perhaps I am entering some kind of acceleration effects on certain – and maybe many – levels.
For so long, I was just swollen and puffy no matter how I worked to reconnect and regain tonal tension.
But playing out the idea that one day it can all click, this might be shifting.”
It’s Weird
“I must be beginning to heal because the pain is getting worse, even though I paused doing therapies.
What I mean is, my tissues are tightening in junction crossover areas, revealing more and more the experiential damage of injuries.”
Comedic Outlet
She fantasized about him carrying her to bed – both romantically, and of necessity.
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(Hip twisting extreme sudden pain, again.)
“They Have No Idea!”
Between Extremes
Too hot
Too cold
Burrowing
Well, We Should
“We take for granted the miracle of natural structural integrity.”
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(Title of multiple neanings)
Curmudgeonly
“I saw the movie ‘Barbie’ right before my accident – and had cried, hoping that I’d get my chance to feel young and alive again.”
(This Is The Picture [Excellent Birds] – Peter Gabriel)
Back To Work
“Well, all of this has certainly sucked – and I am pretty much back to fending for myself again, despite injuries.
Yeah, I need to file for disability – because there is no way that I can attain previous numbers, again.
And yeah, the physicality of the therapies tears me apart, but that is why I’ve entered into modality retraining.
But I have to get through another year before I have things shifted onto a new track, and any help from society is waning.
At least, my neck having surgery is not a viable option, because at this point, it wouldn’t help anything.
My hips, however – they won’t consider surgery due to my age.
So I am just sh** out of luck – literally, no matter which way I turn.
At least I can try to regenerate some cash flow, again.
And let’s not even discuss my shoulders or spine…”
Yeah…
“It is kind of brutally funny, this living amid personal tragedy.”
Suspended Animation
Although she seemed to have little control over the direction that her ship was hurtling, she could play with the gravity adjustments and attempt to reduce her discomfort.”
Maybe
If she could get the jammed cervicals to release and reintegrate, the others would not be so sliding-compression-pinching hypermobile.
ReCalculating
“If hip joints are being twist-pulled forward and out away from structural stability due to over-torque tension in the quadraceps, will lower abdominal restrengthening pull back and tighten the sheaths that should wrap tight the capsules – or will this just increase the overall load?”
Genetics & Accidents
“It turns out that I have hip dysplasia.
My hound has it, too.
Only her left hip will twist out of its socket – even in her youth.
I have to rub her associated muscle spasms to get them to release her hip so that it again properly repositions when I see her limp.
Oh wait…
Both of mine now behave like this, too.”
EEE-YA-AH!
“Aparrently, lifting weight makes my hip joints lose their sh**!”
(“The PAIN!!!” – original Dune quote)
Flush
“”I was helped today in getting my car insurance turned back on so I can function, then told that I could pay it back when I am ‘flush.’
Flush…
How am I going to attain anything near that spectrum, again?”
I Am Reminded
“Of specifics in how I made it through past versions of rough patches.
I did not want a refresher – yet more advanced course in this.
‘No Sir…don’t like it.'”
I Hate It
“Wearing the poverty cap.”
Laughter In The Dark
“I see younger couples carrying their toddlers for distance – and even a single mom with like a 6 year old as she carried a cumbersomly frontloaded baby carrier with a newborn in it.
My muscle synapsis scream as I phantom flex remembering how I, too, used to do such things.
And all I can think of while viewing these still-resourced wonders is, “Why aren’t you utilizing strollers and carts?”
Damage Control
“What is that again, exactly?:
I Am
“Liking these curls, though!”
For A Moment
“I can stand straight – because I fight hard every day to regain such brief moments.”
You Know
“It’s kind of shitty having disability.
I already knew this from caring for others outside of it.
But gee, look – now I get to have the same prize!”
A Woman’s Reality
“I need to be provided for.
Not just want, now – but need.
Where’s pride and safety come in?”
Tired Thematics
Unrequieted love
Injuries twisting pain
Financial instability
More Financial Battles?
“No…just fecking no.”
Nope
“No school work today, and no rest tomorrow as bills and services cancel.
There is no easy way through.
No wonder I just want to stop and not try anymore.”
(Lost Elevation – Vibfy)
Full Body Muscle Spasms
“I could help my body recover, if I were the therapist on the outside, rather than stuck within it.”
The Ripple Effect
“I must be losing weight because as I lean forward typing on my phone with arms resting on upper thighs, shadows cast from an overhead light show in extreme relief the myofascial damage done by the car accident to tissues on the inside of my upper arms and across my biceps.
I’ve got to try slide-cupping this, again”
Identifying The Issue
“I have some brain injury that interferes with visual data perception – ie: icons, pathway navigation relationships, once I engage my eyes to use the computer.
It also interferes with brain to vocal throat and jaw verbal transitions from thought to speech.
I mask this last bit well, but can feel the lag and glitches in stream of thought disruption and delays in muscle activation when I externally communicate.”
Walking Stick
“‘Cause this. is. fun. – and oh-so se-xy!”
Dropping Things
“Gravity likes to display its effects around me.”
Highs & Lows
“Oh, yes….
They like to tell me that I am perimenopausal.
But I know for a fact that my temperature fluxing disregulations are from my neck injury, for I can induce these quite easily, accidentally.”
Simple Tasks
“We expect to be able to take ability to do such things for granted.”
Twisting Motions
“Oh, that’s right…
I helped change a series of light bulbs requirimg over head twisting motions.”
Confession
“I did spend time tending my roses that the dogs had shredded…”
Like A Rip Cord
“I don’t know what I did, but my anterior shoulder tendon attachment is pulling hatd and very angry.”
Dear Alex,
“It turns out that surgery will not be the answer – and that though the pain and symptoms are severe, there is still hope for regaining my structural capacity.
Thank goodness – and back to feretting out the neurology.”
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